MY HAND IN YOURS ;

Friday, May 26, 2006 ;

okay my Prince. somehow i guess, to a very tiny extent, i sort of know how You feel. so helpless, so frustrated, because the one you love just doesn't want to accept.

steve, i know how you felt. but i do remember the most important thing. "yes, but I'm not pushy."

i don't know. maybe everyone just feels that way certain times in their life. but what's with purposely shutting themselves away?

i'm sorry for being so blunt and whatever, but frankly i see no point in that. i'm sorry for being so blunt and straight but i have to let it out and this is my blog and if you don't wanna read just get lost.

sighh. why complain when.. and why feel sad when.. it's not anyone else's problem you realise?

no, i'm not blaming anybody and no, i'm definitely not saying that i'm perfect cos i think i'm the fathest from perfect that anyone could ever be.

but think about it, really. you know you have people just a phone call away, just an sms away. but you don't do anything about it, and you just sit there and moan and be sad.

so how?

okay actually i guess humans are just like that? they always want someone else to take the initiative.

"she should know! she should take the initiative and come ask me how i am! why should i have to be the one to tell her that i'm sad. she should be able to tell what!"

yes, true to a certain extent. but please! wake up your bloody idea! no friend is God but your Best Friend Jesus.

HAIYAH! okay i'm sorry okay, but really, nobody force you to read my rantings. *rolls eyes* whatever...

okay Jesus help me to love the people. fill me with Your love so that i overflow and love them out of the overflow, because i don't ever want to be loving your masterpieces with my own love. they are worth so so so so much more, and i would be extremely rude to think that my own love is suffice. ohh Daddy please please. help the sheep see and know in their hearts and not just their heads that really You are always and forever there for them, loving them and embracing them, because yes, it hurts to see them hurt, and it's frustrating to see them wallow in hurt when You can just wash it away just like that. yes Daddy, it hurts to see, and i don't want to hurt, much less see them hurt. and i know that i can't do anything, cos i'm just a kid and i don't even know how to love them, but Daddy, i'm asking now for Your wisdom to flow through me, Your love to flow through me and overflow onto them, i need Your strength to carry them to Jesus, because i can't do anything on my own, i just can't. thanks Daddy, touch these precious precious sheep once again, touch them anew, touch them afresh, light the fire in them that they thought would never and could never burn again. love them, Abba, in ways that they know and appreciate, love them like never before.
thank You Daddy, for loving them so completely, the way no other can. thank You that they are just so precious to You. but Daddy, You know, i really want to love them too. use me leh! use me to love them, work through me! i know i am definitely not able in any way, but i'm willing Daddy! i really am! thanks Daddy. You're really really the sweetest. ((: yes, love them like they have never experienced before, love them to th point where they're left speechless. (: only You, Lord.

okay. ((: my Prince is the best. and i'll be waiting for zhengheng's testimonies of supernatural healing. amen! praise the Lord!! =D hallelujah! (:

remember zhengheng! you ARE made for greater things, and you already ARE a history maker. Christ, your wisdom. (: He has set you apart, and He is working mightily in you! ((: Jesus loves you man.

alrights, i'll go have my lunch now, then get ready to meet my darling CG before campus! (: love them so much man. ((:

BYEBYE!

WE WILL DANCE ; 10:03 PM