MY HAND IN YOURS ;

Friday, September 29, 2006 ;

THIS HIMECHAN SO SO SO LOVES HER N-E-A-R. ((((:

guys, you are each of you Daddy's gifts of love to me, for me. =) nothing and no man can steal that from me, ever.

lovelovelove. (:

ecclesiastes 4:12 "a person standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer. three are even better, for a triple braided cord is not easily broken."

what more four? =)

amanda 4:12 "amanda standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but amanda and nic/van/rach can stand back-to-back and conquer. van and rach and nic and amanda are even better, for a triple (even quadruple how to spell) braided cord is not easily broken."

thank You Daddy, for family such as this. (:

ashiteru,
Himesama.

WE WILL DANCE ; 6:49 PM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006 ;

okay fine. break me, cos that's the only way You can truly shine in me and through me.

it will be hard, but hey, You never said it would be easy, You only said i'd never be alone. =)

so take my hand.
take my hand and break me.

(: life's not all that bad when you look at it from His point of view.

i'm learning.

WE WILL DANCE ; 6:28 PM

Friday, September 22, 2006 ;

take my hand
and lead me in a dance i've never did before
oh Lord

take my life
and mould it into what You've called me for
to do Your will

i'm dreaming of You
You're dreaming about me too
forever i'll sing
Jesus the Lover of my soul
i'm dreaming of You
You're dreaming about me too
forever i'll sing
You are the Lover of my soul

psalmistprincess/230906/0325hrs.

and yes He dreams about me all the time.

(oh thanks babu you're such a life saver. hahahahahha)

WE WILL DANCE ; 12:29 PM

sometimes i guess, it's just abit hard to get old friends together.

oh well. =)

WE WILL DANCE ; 4:24 AM

Thursday, September 21, 2006 ;

so, life hasn't been at it's best so far, but i guess i'll cope.

Daddy, find me. i can't really see much right now.

maybe all i need is a hug, and a shoulder to cry on. cos maybe i really am afraid.

oh don't bother.

WE WILL DANCE ; 9:31 AM

Monday, September 18, 2006 ;

=) sorry hanyuen.

WE WILL DANCE ; 8:27 AM

Sunday, September 17, 2006 ;

heart, be strong and take courage in the Lord.

don't break now because there are people who need you. i know it's hard, and i know just how badly you ache, because i feel it too.

but there is just one thing you must know. lives called for greatness are lives calld for greatness.

=) we shall be going up from here, cos that's the only way we know.

be still my soul
the Lord is on thy side.

oh and one last thing, heart! =) you are the most prized posession of the King of the universe.

none shall touch the Lord's Anointed.

WE WILL DANCE ; 10:15 AM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006 ;

psalm 4:8 (NLT)
"i will lie down in peace and sleep, for You alone, O Lord, will keep me safe."

in other words, "for thou O Lord, only makest me dwell in safety".

=)

fly me to the moon
and let me play among the stars
let me see what spring is like
on Jupiter and Mars
in other words
hold my hand
in other words
Jesus kiss me

fill my heart song
and let me sing forevermore
You are all i long for Jesus
worship and adore
in other words
please be true
in other words
i love You

yeah, Favour found me. (:

WE WILL DANCE ; 8:46 AM

Sunday, September 10, 2006 ;

=) ngee ann OH ngee annnnnnn.

to my dearest most darling caregroup, the caregroup that is so close to my heart, the caregroup that Jesus loves THE MOST, the caregroup marked by the undeserved favour of Daddy, the caregroup that i call MY FAMILY.

((: words can never never express my full love and gratitude towards all of you.

yes the present was MIND-BLOWING. =)

but you know, it's really not the presents, but the PRESENCE that counts. ((: you guys are awesome you know that. =)

i was talking to steve before dinner, and he asked me to move over and just look at all of you, and he asked me what i saw.

"greatness"

and i meant that. =) from the bottom of my 'Jesus-is-at-home' heart, i meant that.

and looking at all of you, talking to each other, playing with each other, having fun and getting to know more of each other, loving each other, growing with each other.

i couldn't help but tear.
(okay so actually i didn't tear.. i cried. hahahah)

jokes and laughter aside, my greatest birthday gift has been to be so privileged, to be able to watch all of you grow and experience your breakthroughs and accelerations, and most of all to be there, growing with you.

=) i can never thank all of you enough, and no, once again, it's not just the present (though the present is like wwwoooooooohhhhoooooooooooooooo~)

frankly, just the dinner would have left me the HAPPIEST and MOST JOYFUL birthday princess in the whole wide world, plus the fact that the Sweetest Lover of all was holding my hand THROUGH OUT.

=) but ngee ann family i want each and every one of you to know. I LOVE ALL OF YOU. and NO, NOT with my own love. and i don't EVER want to love you all with amanda bok's love.

i don't want to short change any of you. loving you with my own love would be such an insult to your royalty.

i only ever want to love you all with my Daddy's sweetest love. =) the Love that will NEVER run dry, the Love that is ALWAYS patient and always kind and never jealous, always there to care and heal.

it has been one of the most amazing journeys ever, that i've taken since i've stepped into the doors of New Creation Church.

=) entering Ngee Ann caregroup makes me not even regret taking Business Studies and failing and dropping out after year1.

(: IF that was the only way to meet you guys, i seriously would go through all that 'trauma' all over again.

=) for you guys, i would take the pan pac lift a thousand times, i would walk into the 6th floor that was utterly cramped full of balloons, i would try my best not to embarass by not screaming too loudly when i see a xiao qiang.

and Jesus will be there for me too. =)

thank you, each and every one of you, for being there, for being around, for the simple things like even just bothering to laugh at the (sometimes awesomely dumb) things that i say.

for evan, nic, ming, zhengheng, steve.
THANK YOU for going with me to the hospital that time when Gramps was admitted. i can never tell you enough how grateful i was for your PRESENCE. =) and yes, Jesus was there with us. love.

for nic, evan, rach, ming.
=) it's not that i love you all more than the rest, BUT you guys find special favour with me. (: guys, your futures are just so so so so bright. the road ahead may get rough, but Jesus will be there for you. know that you are IN His nail-pierced hands, and yes rach, when things get stormy on the outside, He simply closes His finger over each of you and protects you from all harm and danger.
how much the four of you have really impacted my life and made a difference to me, only Daddy truly knows, and He will reward each of you when we go Home, for you have found Favour with Daddy because you have blessed His baby darling princess oh so much. =) continue being yourselves, making an impact in the little things, living your high lives that can and will only get higher and brighter and better.
i pray and proclaim double portions of favour into each of your lives. i thank Daddy that He pours His wisdom and love so so much upon your lives. individuals called for nothing but greatness. NOONE and NOTHING can take that from you. ever.
love you all. really really really.

for nic.
hahahah for all the laughs you've brought into my life. =) thank you. bro you've blessed me in ways you may never know. how blessed i have been to see you grow, to see you start this journey of serving. =) thank you for daring to be open with me. there is MORE TO COME!

for evan.
belonging E. oh my loves. =) psalmist princess. yes that's what you are you know. sweetest himechan, you have made such a difference in my life. and Jesus and i, we love you for who you are. =) thank you for sharing my dreams. ;) we shall ride on wings of Love, and see His mighty wonders come to pass in our lives and the lives of the royalty around us.

for rach.
belonging R. sweetie pie i am so glad you're in my life. =) how different life would be without you! i can't imagine, and i don't think i even want to. princess, thank you for always being there for me. as silly as i am, thank You, Holy Spirit in Rachel, for being there, for caring for loving for hugs. i love you.

for ming.
hahahhaha what time is it now ming ming? =D
hey bro =) woww i have seen you grow at SUCH an acceerated rate these few months, and i am amazed. bro, i'm really really proud of the Jesus in you. (: all the joy you've brought to my life is recorded by Daddy and He sits at the edge of His throne waiting eagerly to POUR His blessings down on you, dear ming. =) you have blessed the one in whom He is well pleased, and thus you have found favour with Him. (: remember ziming. your's is a life CALLED TO GREATNESS. favour surrounds ziming like a shield. in the coming days, Daddy increases your sphere of influence. =) love you.

for jolene kang.
my now-belonger-once-belonging! =) sweetie, know it or not, you've been such an awesome figure in my life. (figure? hahahah i didn't know what other word to use, sorry) you've impacted me more than you know. and i love you for who you are, yes, Jesus and i.

for weelock.
hey sister!! =) sis, trust the Jesus in me. (: you're here for a purpose, one that is not defined by man but by God, the One who created you and truly knows your every heart's cry and desire. let no man define who you should be, but live to be wee lock, the wee lock that was created to live the high life, the wee lock called to reign in life and be so much more than a conqueror, the wee lock who has no shame because he has been crucified with Christ. =) sis i love you and thank you for being you, for being in my life. (:

for alicia fun.
sweetest, you truly live up to your name. =) i lovelovelove you and oh how i miss you so! when IMF (internationally ma fan) (oh shit okay DONT sue me ok. joke only. JOKE!) is done, and when my 3mth temp job is done.. actually wait. why should we have to wait so long just to spend time? =) it's our heart's desire and Daddy will MAKE THE TIME FOR US. because nothing is impossible for the One who loves me the most. =)
sweetie, thank you so so so much. i know i've been like one of the worst friends ever. constantly being bitchy and all that. but really, thanks for sticking by me always. =) i am so grateful to the Jesus in you for never giving up and never letting go. =') i love you leh dear. i love you.

for amy.
mummyyyyyyyyy! heeheeee. thank you. thank you for the sweetest sms-es, though short, i know you mean them. thank you for being there, for mothering me, for being so gentle in your ways of correction. =) i thank Daddy for giving you the supernatural wisdom and patience to be able to handle a sheep like me. amy mummy, mummy amy. (: you have made a difference in my life, you have left super pretty footprints in my heart. (: love.

for derrick johnston.
hey thanks man. hahahaa i realised i 'teo-jack' by you lah! hahahah "so bok, what would you really want for your birthday?" the question you asked me like, if i remember correctly, quite a long time ago. i'm not sure if that was part of the cg's plan, but thank you. =) thank you for being a part of us, for wanting to be a part of us. (: i want you to know that ngee ann Family wouldn't have been the same without you. thanks man. you're an awesome brother to have. (HORRNNNNNYYYYYYYYY) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

for derrick BIKE and roy!
brad pitt! rick!! omg. =) you know, i just love you brothers so much. as much as we don't really talk about alot of 'serious' issues, you guys have no doubt made a difference. =) rickk, thanks for always being so willing to pick me up with you bike. you're really a blessing, with you rides, your funny stories and your hair and everything. =) roy!! my gosh you so handsome. ahahahha ok no that's not all ok. (: your open-ness, your willingness to recieve and be taught. (: Daddy sees, and Daddy will honour. thanks guys, for being in my life. enjoy your time with NYP cg now. =) let them bless you, and HEY! BLESS THEM TOO, just by being youselves. =) cos you two are blessings in themselves. (((:

for guan.
sweetie pie. your sometimes-silent presence has ALWAYS made a difference. =) i want you to know that k? i love you.

for denise.
hey babe. =) thanks so much for everything. you are truly a blessing to me. so much of Daddy in you that i see. =) your daring to be who you really are has made much impact to me. heehee, it's been a looong time since the Teenzeal God's Chosen days. =) and i'm thankful that it wasn't someone else, but YOU, who has always been there. love.

for Creature.
hey. though you seldom join us, i know you want to and that's what counts. =) ngee ann Family wants you around as well. we really do. thanks for being a creature to me! for being so patient, for the laughs, for everything. =) i've enjoyed having you in my life, Creature! =) hahaha and Daddy and i will continue enjoying. love you bro.

okay i know right now there are some stones waiting to fly at me cos i just missed mentioning 43856489569823975 names.

but EH! my blog lah. hahahahahah! NO. KIDDING OK! =) even if i don't mention your name here, your name is GRAVEN in His heart.

imagine Daddy, holding a hammer and chisel, looking down with tear-filled eyes and a tear stained face at His most beloved on the cross, then driving the hammer and chisel into His heart to carve YOUR NAME on it.

how it hurt the Father, but oh what Joy it brought to Jesus when He saw you crouching at the foot of the cross. =)

and that was what kept Him up anyways. =) you. your life, your joy, your peace, your prosperity, your well-being.

He saw you at the foot of the cross, and that made Him hang on. =) just for you.

=) and to all the rest who made my day so special. ((((((: i'm sorry this post is so biased. but you must know that my Family is extremely precious to me, extremely close to my heart.

not that you all are less than them ok. but if you so shallow to think that way then................... HAHAH aiyah please.

Jesus loves you whether or not your name is mentioned here LAH. =) don't seek approval from me. it's worthless one. cos i'm worthless. and my only worth is Jesus. =)

okay. this is such a wordy post! hahahah if you've read all the way to here, thank you. =) thank you for making a difference. (:

Jesus loves you all ok. i will post my 10th September 2006 photos soon. =) thank you everyone, for being around.

thank You my Sweetest Love. =)
You know how grateful i am, how thankful i am.

HEY! THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING!

WE WILL DANCE ; 9:25 PM

Saturday, September 09, 2006 ;

=) thank You Daddy Daddy Daddy. awwww. =) yes, rejoicing is a choice, but how can i not smile when i've a Daddy who is ssooooo awesome, who is FOR me!

thanks woman. =) yeah we may not talk as much as we used to but know that i love you. (: i know you love me too. heheh. but really, even though people say we get to choose our friends but not our family, and even though we bitch SO MUCH at times. hahahah. if there was ever such a thing as choosing your family, i'd still choose you. and yes, to always always be my one and only jiejie. =) lovelove. you know, you might not realise but you really are the one who has helped me grow so much along the way. okay let me correct myself. i mean the Jesus in you. =) thanks babe. =) you really ARE the best jiejie anyone could ever ask for. love.

to my DARLING N-E-A-R! okay actually without me it's N-E-R. HAHHAHA so weird. ok see! =) we four cannot not be together! (((: hahah it's our calling. =D anyways. =) goshh you guys are the best. how privileged, how blest i am to be part of NEAR. i mean, without the three of you in my life, i really don't know what would happen to me! and guys i want you all to know, NEAR isn't special to me just cos we're NEAR. but each of you, as an individual means so so so so much to me! all of you are so amazing and are Daddy's great great blessings to me! =) lovelovelove and hugs and kisses to E and R! hahahaha!

ming ming! =) fishball ming! handsome dead pig! you who talks in your sleep! aahhhh! (((: ming ming you are SUCH a blessing to me, in your own special ways. =) really, continue growing so so much more. =) ming, i apprecite you alot. know that there are much much much greater things in store for you. =) your days can and will only get brighter and brighter from here.

jolene kang my belonger! =D precious, that's what you are to me. ((: what more do i have to say. what more can i say. =) i love you shepherd.

alicia fun oh how i miss you. =) hahahah quick quick let's practice the dance! super fun can and like we got such a big shock when we heard our names! =) so funny!!! =) aww babe i love you leh. (: yes its that simple. i love you. =) thank you for being who you are.

charissa my dearest, i really miss taking the bus with you. =) we MUST travel to indoor together next sunday ok. ((: just the two of us. (: thank you dear, for always being there, and for always being so real and open to me. i love you!

woww. i'm so amazed, and i give You praise, that You would save me at such a cost. and not only save me but buy me life and LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY. =)

You truly leave me speechless. =)
my life is beautiful because You are so beautiful and You are in my life, You are my world. =) and i am Yours.

thanks for holding my hand on the bus today.
=) i love You.

WE WILL DANCE ; 9:57 AM

Friday, September 08, 2006 ;

=) diana ernest jieshan. i loooooove!

thanks for remembering me, thanks for cooking for me, treating me like royalty when i don't even deserve it, letting me laze around and thanks for serving me and helping me with everything! =)

heeee. i feel so so loved. thanks guys, really.

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was my last day of work today. =)

cecilia is so so sweet lah, and it's amazing; the amount of undesesrved favour i have with her. =) really love her alot.

heheh. when she came to talk to me just before i left, her eyes were like red. SO SAD PLS!!! =( oh noo..

but i took a photo with her. ((: will post it up soon. i don't have BooBoo's (the camera) cable with me now cos i'm not at home.

i really intend to print out the photo and send it to cecilia you know! =)

praise Jesus, really. although i know i'm like forever complaining about my work being boring and all, but it's NOT the work, it's the PEOPLE. =)

anyways, praise God.

as much as i wanted a break from working for awhile. goshh too much favour and i'm starting my other job next wednesday.

it's quite cool you know! a swiss MNC which produces scents and flavours. yah in other words, perfumes and colognes. heeheee!

and guess what please! i'll be attached to the head of the sample labs. =) hahah Jesus really loves me. and He knows what i want and what i will enjoy even before i ask for it. =) awwww..

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=) anyways. just wanted to say this. (:

desmind gin, you funny boy! =D you are always and will always be my bestest best BEST gege. =) and truly, nobody can ever ever replace you okie? Daddy loves you, Gege. (: and so do i, although we have so little time to hang out nows-a-days.

but hey, our relationship is Christ-maintained! that's why it's so awesome amen! =) heee, you're the best and only Gege that i can have and want man.

=) i really really really thank Daddy for you. (: lovelove!

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my dearest sweetest lovliest VAN VAN and RACHIIEEEEE.

you know, it's amazing how the mere thought of your names can make my lips curl up almost autimatically into a wide smile. =)

i'm so so so glad that Daddy has blessed me so abundantly with two so beautiful friends. it warms my heart to see Him love me so much through the two of you.

and gosh it excites me because the love that i receive from the two of you is already SO ABUNDANT, what more the Perfect Love from my sweetest Daddy Poooo! =)

awwww. babes babes. *shakes head and smiles and sighs in contentment* i lovelovelove you both sooooo much. ((:

Daddy is the CENTRE of our sisterhood and friendship. =) and i thank Him that it is His love and His love alone that binds us together. (:

with all my love.

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dearie nikki poo poo, my most loved Pilly! =)

just want you to know that i LOVELOVE you. (*whispers* and i still know you lubb me more than sirrr.) HAHAHAHAHH!!

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SAMM
DING

i misss miss misssss the old days. sleepovers, tanning, baking, gossiping, cam-whoring, laughing at nothing, troubled whales, ruffles and lays, ribena and milk (oh man sammm)..

i miss the two of you. alot.

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anyways, i'm just glad to be a psalmist. =) according to Princess Amandyy Poo, that is the greatest calling of all. (:

here is where i'm called to be.

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so i said to myself, "what's wrong with you, and what's your problem! hasn't this happened more than enough times for you to learn faster? why can't youstop being such an idiot, why do you have to learn everything so slow?!"

and He said, "I'm not forcing you. =) this is YOUR pace, so this is the pace at which i will go too."

(: so so beautiful.

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=) hehh. sometimes i guess i just wish there'd be a clearer sign. but then again, i know i'm not ready for it. (: oh wells.

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goodnight world, hello my Loves. =)
it's impossible to not love Someone as perfect as You, my Sweetest.

WE WILL DANCE ; 11:37 AM

Thursday, September 07, 2006 ;

=) yes, so i'm really excited ccccaaaannnnnnnnnnnn.

( i can just hear ming ming say "cccaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnn" in reply loh! that boy ah! hehehh )

hmmm. fishball ming and hengburger. we do get weird ideas late into the night aye? =D

anyways (ding and babu, DONT start singing) hahahaha. my goodnes i love my brother. (: just felt like saying that.

oh and one last thing.

DIANA
JIESHAN
ERNEST
VANESSA

omg i miss you four like crazy shit nuts. =( love.

WE WILL DANCE ; 9:44 AM

Sunday, September 03, 2006 ;

i'll give you one word to describe too-many-people-in-a-too-small-playground-with-a-spoilt-slide-playing-blindmice!

FFUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNN~!!!

=) i love these people. heeheee. though i was eliminated cos i fell and not cos i got caught! but at least i caught justin chua after that k!

HAHAH. and after that i caught roy. =) yesyes, my Daddy's so proud of me.

i know at that moment He was just showing me off to ALL the angels in heaven.

"see see! that's MY baby girl."

it just feels good to have fun and be a little crazy girl who doesn't care about her hair, after like being stuck in an office and not even being able to talk much for eight hours straight.

but anyways (anyways, i guess its over~ HAHAHHAHA) ANYWAYS!

work will be ending this friday, then i'm heading to babu's/steve's for praise and worship, then heading to diana's for sleepover before campus the next day.

=) oh Daddy Daddy, i really want to be able to enjoy my last few days of work. really.

and i know that my Jesus grants me all the desires of my heart. =)

i've seen so many come to pass already. i'm just waiting for more and more and more and more, and they will hit me faster and faster and faster. =)

alrights. (: goodnights, world.

* safe in His nail pierced hands.

WE WILL DANCE ; 9:56 AM

Saturday, September 02, 2006 ;

hello Mr. Suika.

hahaa. is this enough to get your attention, that i miss talking to you! yes, even about silly little things like rolling off the bed. BLEH.

=) yours truly.
MISS bok.

WE WILL DANCE ; 7:22 AM

Friday, September 01, 2006 ;

=) to my dearest and most precious ngee ann caregroup.

you guys have just been amazing. can i ever start to say how much each and every one of you really mean to me? goshh it'd take a thousand years to be done.

i mean, every little thing, every single one, since i've become part of ngee ann. yes, since the Han days, to the Coach Han days, to the "almost-Steve-days", to the Amy days.

from Ngee Ann 'A' and Ngee Ann 'B', to being a complete and full Ngee Ann again, and now back to Ngee Ann 'A' and Ngee Ann 'B' again.

the journey has been so beautiful, so awesome. it has seen so so much growth, both in me and the caregroup itself. =)

the one thing that i've always prayed for has since been so super prominent, like what i told my dearest Ototochan, Ming Ming. =)

i prayed that this Ngee Ann caregroup would be special, and it would be the caregroup marked by the special and totally undeserved, supernatural favour of our wonderful Daddy.

and truly, that has been! it's amazing how i've grown too, from complaining, to telling steve, to praying, then to seeing those things i've prayed for come to pass.

it's so beautiful. and it wouldn't have been this beautiful without every single one of you! =) so precious, so so much potential that i see bursting forth. it's just amazing.

(okay i know at this point i really sound as if i'm like going to leave the cg forever, but i'm not okay!)

i mean, this season of my life with you all has really got to be the most amazing and precious season of my life YET. hahah it's total madness!

woww, and you would think that a caregroup of head count 74 would be total chaos, would be totally stranger to each other.

hey hey! i tell you! that's totally foreign in Ngee Ann Caregroup! we're really like a family. a great big huge loving family. =)

and yes, these are people who really really care. every last one of them, though they may show it in different ways, but hey! that's what make us all so unique!

(and yes, in case you haven't realised by now, this post is going to be SUPER LONG)

i mean. woww. imagine the caregroup with one less person. it'd be damn weird lah. and it just wouldn't be Ngee Ann anymore. =)

Ngee Ann will always be Ngee Ann will always be special to amanda Bok. =) really really special.

okayy if i really do a name-by-name dedication here, i think this post will just never end and i'll never get to go to sleep. HAHAH.

hmmm. so maybe another day, or i'll just write letters to you all at my own time. =)

in the meantime, just know that each and every single one of you have impacted my life so much. ((:

the smallest gesture, the shortest prayer, has made THE difference. ((: remember. Ngee Ann Caregroup would never have been the same without YOU.

*HUGS*

i'm so so so blessed by Daddy for Him to have sent His precious Son, to shed His blood, to buy me this precious caregroup.

Otosan, aishiteru.

WE WILL DANCE ; 11:49 AM