i don't want you to go back. at least not forever.

you're my gift from God, one of life's greatest blessings. it was through you that Daddy showed me what He meant when He said that the joy of the Lord is my strength. it was through you that He showed me that life was never as bad as i thought it was. it was through you that He showed me that laughing is really a God thing.

i know you told me you'd go back. from the first day we became friends you told me. but three years seemed to have passed us by too quickly. saying goodbye isn't as easy as we thought it would be. it really sucks to have you leave.

now we'll dream. dreams to meet when come back for your holidays, dreams to visit the land our Jesus walked upon together.

yes, our Daddy is able to make our dreams come true, but for now, i still wish you wouldn't go.

the stapler bullet went in in in
and my blood came spurting out

ahaha that's what happened to me at work today! it's quite funny lah, i can't even remember how the stapler bullet went under my nail but it did, and the next thing i knew, i saw a patch of red :D

but oh well, it's been a productive day for me considering how bitter i was about having to work this morning. finished up quite a lot of work that actually doesn't need to be finished so soon but i'd rather do it free and easy than have someone breathing down my neck to get it done.

it's good, though, then maybe now i can actually have my 45min break. hur hurr. as for classes, i'm through with all my assignments and presentations :) my lecturer was pleased with my individual presentation and my classmates were super supportive :) haa, the group presentation was actually fun despite it not making as much sense as i'd wanted.

i'm just glad i survive the week man. sleeping at 3am and waking up at 6am the next day is quite a bit of a torture. especially when your day stretches to as long as 15 - 16hrs man. i was so drained!

but :) i think it's good for me to be stretched sometimes. occasionally. once in a while. haha make that once in a blue moon. hahah :D at least you get that sense of satisfaction when you hand in your assignments, when you're done with the presentations, when you see all your work completed, lying on the table neatly in front of you :)

"You are my strength, strength like no other, strength like no other, reaches to me. You are my hope, hope like no other."

He really proved Himself true this week :)
in fact, i'm rather glad to have gone through all this :D

He said, "cast your nets deep and be ready for the harvest."
He said, "see the invisible, and I'll do your impossible."
He said, "love, just be still and know I Am God."
He said, "leave your cares there and come to the Table."

ah god help meee :(

happy now, no?
no hand to hold
nowhere to go

look ahead
why so sad?
there isn't a need
to be afraid

maybe it's true
that these people
they're not by your side
anymore

so it hurts
pierces your heart
everything you once had
has fallen apart

tried your best
to put the pieces
back together;
those faces

failed once more
so frustrated
tears crashing
to the floor

why me lord
why not anyone else
why me lord
i can't stand for myself

tried long enough
now i've given up hope
hold me close now lord
you're my only hope

washing my fears
wiping my tears
all i am lord
to you i surrender

things will get better
though i might not see it
but i know my father
to him, i surrender

so, it's the eve of the eve of chinese new year and here i am blogging at work! haha but it's good :)

last night was funny :) who's parents were late so work ended late so i got to the bus stop late and waited so long for the sugar (my new substitute word for sh** cos it has the same starting sound haha ha) bus, to the point that i fell asleep at the bus stop.

so anyway after waiting for half an hour, my dear sugar bus came. o actually TWO sugar buses came at the same time :) hahahahah.

hurhurr, i was so drained when i got the practice that even singing the chinese songs didn't make me smile. can you believe that?

best part was, i left my phone at home in the morning, and i forgot to bring my top to choir for joyjoy to check. so that was all good then.

but thanks wanhuaaaa :) haha i guess i finally burst. but it was good lah. i mean how long can i keep it in right? as if i wasn't already going crazy. hahahah as if i wasn't already crazy. HAH. but thanks dear :) what a place, outside the toilet. hahahaha! love you lah.

haha and thanks raymond for sending me home! omg, first time i reach home so early after a choir practice! ;D

and i has excitement for chinese new year. i would to gone china town with my mother on wednesday night just for somes chip thrill. how excite right!! i couldn't wait for wednesday to come :)))))))

and erm thursday is visiting
friday either melonman's house or morely's place or timbre for the goodfellas haha!
saturday is.... finally a free one? i think.
sunday is service and kennyman's house :)
monday is events outing day!!! SWEENY TODD!