hahah sometimes i wished i'd recorded down what pastor prince shared with us at the music min party. (: but oh well. ((:
OKAY. (: let me tell all you faithful readers about my life so far. HAHAH very exciting and happening. =D
okies. yesterday was caregroup huh. (: went down to school early [who am i kidding. we were wayyyyy early] ahahahh.. talked abit, guitar-ed abit, ate abit, drank abit, crapped alot, laughed too much. (:
heee have i ever told you that i love my caregroup? (: heee i love my caregroup. okay so after that we made our way to canteen one. [ahh by the way we were initially at canteen two]
hmmm. i was quite sad actually because i thought by going down to school i could see my dearest flower gang and my buddys.. haha but it's okay! next wednesday! ((:
so yeah. canteen one.. wow lah so many more people than usual. (: praise God man! yupps, so after that we made our way up to mount zion.
i love rachel lor! ehh nopes her surname isn't lor. OKAY NVM! HAHA! yah she screamed so loud which made me scream so loud and then we laughed so loud. (((:
and we use our feeties to navigate. and we use what looks like uncontrol-able mouth spasms and the flaring of nostrils to communicate. HAHAH! omg..
gosh alrights i should get back to point. heee. yeah so after that when we went up we realised that there were some people there.
(okay who am i kidding again) there were three thousand and forty eight people there. some camp or what lah..
so coach Han decided that he should share the cg message first, instead of having worship. so yeah, it was good. (:
so after that there were lesser and lesser people. soon after we had communion. (: jingyi led us in prayer. (: yeah, then after that we had praise and worship.
OH. omg how could i forget to mention.. hahah you know, before cg started, we were up there on our mount zion lah. guess what we saw!!!
we saw this really large, huge, beautiful rainbow!! it was super big lah! really. =D it stretched so far lah! aww man. ((: so sweet know! and like, as big as it was, it wasn't "b r o k e n" at all. ((:
and the contrast of the colour of the sky made it all the more beautiful. the right side, the sky was a deep intense gold, which made the colours of the rainbow stand out even more.
on the left side, however, the sky was more cloudy. so we could see the colours of the rainbow against the greyish background. woww lah! it was so damn beautiful. hahah.
okok i might post photos when i get them. if they're clear enough. (: right, let me continue or i'll never finish.
yeah so i led praise and worship. with alex as my guitarist. hahah well praise God. leading worship with sore throat and blocked nose is a real fun thing. HAHA.
of course i'd rather not. hahaha but i don't deny i had my fun leading. ((: i always love leading worship, not to show off of course. i have nothing to show off anyway. (:
but i just love it. you know, it's such a wonderful privilege to be given the honour to lead His sheep into His presence and fullness of joy.
it is such a blessing to be able to lead His sheep, His sons and daughters, to plough their ground and make it good before the pastor/leader starts to preach (sow seeds).
just to sing, just to worship at His feet. (: truly, how i love to praise His name. (: to sing to MY Daddy, to praise His wonderful name.
never underestimate the power of worship. ((: it is such a powerful weapon, and they who do not understand a weapon cannot enjoy its benefits. (:
HAHA alrights i've no idea why i typed that out but nvm! but anyways, just to say.. this will be a super extra long post!! hahaha!
as i was saying.. i was leading worship. (: then there was a short time of ministering. hehehe. (: had to sing so loud. thirty seven people there altogether! oh my hat!!
hahah praise God, really. (: it's really a joy to see your own cg expand to such numbers, esp when you know that this is just the beginning!
so after that we headed for supper at clementi, as usual. (: had a great time too. (: teh tarik. HAHAHA oh gege thanks for your help! =D
funn's parents came, and fetched me home too. (: THANK YOU UNCLE WINSTON AND AUNTY.. aunty-alicia's-mom. HAHA!!! so sorry i don't know your name ahh. =D
anyways. yeah, i'm so glad i went back with funn anyways. (: got to share with her. i love my alicia funn. =D and after that, we shared abit more online too.
then, the rest of the night was spent with THE SISTER. hahahah!! ((((((: omg i'm so ashamed to have her be related to me. hahaha!! =D
hungry.. so hungry.. why? haven't come... why...? HAHAHA don't worry i wont tell!! can i feel? HAHAH!!! omg! yakult. ham. sushi. woman!!!! I LOVE YOU!!! =D heeee.
*oh.. shy.*
HAHA. whatever!! =D okok i love my life as you can clearly tell. alrights i guess that's about it for friday. let me move on to my today!
heehee. alrights, even though i slept at about 2+am or maybe 3am last night, i still woke up at 7am this morning. (told you my body clock spoil! hahah!)
but then again, i went back to sleep and woke up at like, 1145am. (: heee. talked to steve and all. after that he went to meet gege. and i went to do my own bible study. ((:
so after that steve called. and we chatted, and then we met online and started some msn-games-intensive-training-boot-camp. HAHAHA.
dunno how many games straight of minesweeper flags, followed closely by forty games of mindless tic-tac-toe, followed by hexic. oh gosh.. -_-
HAHAH. okayy never mind. =D nobody will understand besides the two of us. whahahah! (: stevie is the best! ((: and no i am not a bull okay!!!
yah yah. ((: i am strong. but that is all okay! hahaha and actually i tell you it's the bottle lor! cheapo loupok one. squeeze abit only crack. hahah it's NOT my fault!!
these two days, i really just wanna thank Daddy for :
- sisterhood
- steve
- alicia funn
- rachel
- my entire cg
- excessive laughter
- msn games
- the chance to worship
- my laptop
- wireless internet connection
- television
- cable!
- my best handsome brother who is more handsome than brad pitt or tom cruise and even orlando bloom
- teh tarik
- cabs
- mp3
- chicken cutlet rice
- ham!
- yakult
- my handphone
- my daddy
- my mama
- music
- big big pretty unbroken rainbows
- honey stars
- bus
- rain
- water
- panadol
- msn
- mirrors to see His most beautiful creation
- magazines
- adidas jacket to keep me warm
- guitar
- communion
- my New Living Translation bible
- comfortable bed
- the paul frank watch diana bought for me from hongkong!
- funn's parents and their car
- so much undeserving favour
- lovely friends who make me laugh all the time, and who are so understanding and patient when i'm not in the best of moods.
- the pretty white hand bag (:
- handphone charger
- my handsome brother's room which i can have to myself when he's in camp. (:
- electricity
- the fan to cool me down
- ribena
- fbt shorts hahaha
- photos!
alright alright. i know this is a long post. but, i didn't ask you to read all the way right! HAHAH KUKU!! since you did it volunteerily anyways, you have no grounds to complain. =p
BYEBYE!
WE WILL DANCE ; 2:09 AM
i don't know.. but sometimes it just hurts?
Daddy, take it away. i don't want.
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:43 AM
today i went for a walk, early in the morning with my Daddy darling. ((: and i saw a whole long bush full of full-bloomed and fresh hibiscuses, in bright red, orange and pure white. (:
and i just whispered to Daddy, wow Daddy. Your creation is so beautiful.
and He whispered back, wow dearie. You are so much more beautiful.
(((((:
anyways, these two days i've really learnt to just ask. i'm really just hanging on to psalm 5:3.
"listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. each morning i bring my requests to You and wait expectantly."
yeah, so as i was saying. these two days, i've just brought my requests to Daddy dearest. i just told Him so frankly, that you know, Daddy, i want this and this and that and this..
and ohhh i tell you. when i tell you that my Daddy is faithful, DON'T underestimate that. DON'T think that i'm just saying it because everyone in church says it.
wednesday, if i remember correctly, i asked for super super alot of favour, for protection, for a great time at choir prac. (hahah oops i forgot the rest!!)
really, i tell you! favour favour favour was surrounding me all the way! truly truly, i was ssooooo pleased. (: Daddy is so so so faithful. i cannot explain.
let me give you a few examples of Daddy's favour in my life because i asked for it!
- got a lift to noel builing from kallang macs from merv! (:
- nikki gave me this super cute pair of ear rings!!
- antz let me shake his shaker fries (muahahahah)
- i was allowed to drink lemon tea!!!
- choir prac was super fun
- hahahaha someone's getting better and this i TRULY know is by grace!
- got to have a nice talk with trisa! ((:
- got to know jolene abit better
ahahaha alot lah i cannot remember specifically already!
alrights, today! (: hey even though today just started, don't underestimate my Daddy okay! ((:
yeah anyways, today.. i asked for wisdom, a new revelation of His love for me, i asked for favour with my family (oh esp parents hahah), for financial blessings and oh i'm sorry but i forgot the rest..
- favour with my mama? HAHA SUPER ALOT. oi oi she wanted to date me for lunch k! ((: heee.
- revelation of love? yupps i'm His most beautiful creation. (:
- heee my sister is just cute.
- i was preparing worship songs for friday so i was away from my laptop, but at the exact moment i went back to my laptop to blog, amy dearest came online to send me photos! =D
heeheeeheeee. =D ask people, ask! be not afraid to request from Daddy! so what if you request for the wrong things. hahaha there is no fear because He prospers even my mistakes! =)
okok i need to pee. HAHA maybe later i'll blog again.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:47 PM
HAHAH. up side down side up?
the first time i ate ah pek's ice cream! ((: hee.
hahah. yeah.
brad pitt and i ((:
[ you know how long i bloody queued up just for ONE photo??? ] HAHAHAHAH.
my beloved pretties. ((:
WE WILL DANCE ; 6:12 PM
you know how sometimes you think you see a picture so clear, and you think you know very well?
well. let me tell you now. don't judge someone else based on YOUR sole understanding of that picture.
you don't know my reasons. you don't see that i'm just following the orders of my leader.
if you think you know so well, then hey. take over and do my job lah! you're very welcome to do that.
please. you don't know everything alright. if you did, i wouldn't be placed where i am, because you would have been chosen.
sorry if i sound harsh. but really.. gosh i felt like slapping you when i receieved that msg you know.
RARR.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:26 AM
change is good, because change is growth. but i will miss you. (: you know very well that i will, and you know how precious you are to me.
* so much i wanna try now, i feel like i could fly now. You set me free to run through fields of laughter, and to sing as though i have no yesterdays. You set me free from my befores and afters, from a debt i know i'd never pay. *
you're special. and always will be.
you know so. (:
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:12 AM
alrights now. i really hate having cramps. oh gosh.. =( but then again, i shan't complain, because this is THE LAST TIME i am ever gonna have cramps. EVER. (:
ooh yayy! today i wrote a new song. (: and it's called I Am Not Alone. heheh it popped into my head at like 5am this morning. ((: and the lyrics, tune and chords were finalised by 7am. Daddy is good.
hmmm. know, i've been thinking. when i really know (not think or feel, but know) that my Daddy is for me right, when i really know that no matter what, everything will be turned out for my good.
seriously, what is there to fear? as in like, i know sometimes the problems are SO REAL, smack right into your face.
but do you really believe that the cross is more real? do you choose to believe that Jesus is more real? that He is bigger?
yeah, cos i do. and He is. really.
know, i really just choose to believe that my God is above all. who cares what the world thinks anymore? i have a hope, a higher way, a Truth that cannot be changed by what is true. (:
and yes, blessed is the man who remains. (: i choose to remain rooted in the fact that my Daddy loves me and only me. i choose to remain rooted in the fact that although all may not be good, but everything will work out for my good. (:
hmmm. and you know what? who says prayer is just for when something bad happens, or when you need something?
this morning i received a msg from amy, and all that was said was "bok pray in tongues k."
and know, to be honest, the first thought that hit me was oh shit what happened, is she alright, what should i do now?
HAHA. then after like five seconds then i was like, oh yah. pray pray.. =D oi Jesus still loves me okay! (:
and so i started to pray, and i replied her with "(: i'm praying with you k."
know. her reply was just so so precious. and it really really hit me (heart, not head) that hey, you know, praying in tongues is really THAT powerful. no reason also just pray lor. (:
" :) we have each other covered and refreshed. for this is the rest and refreshing. love. "
(((: thanks dear. i really see it now. it's so amazing, really.
pray, people, pray in tongues like never before. cover areas of need that even you yourself don't know about. this is THE rest and refreshing!
(: alrights this is long.. as usual.
till the next post. hahah BYEBYE.
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:05 AM
OH. how could i forget photos? =D heehee!
so.. this is the CG that i love. ((:
AND THIS IS THE CG THAT I LOVE EVEN MORE! hahahahahah!! =DDD
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:16 PM
argh. body clock, i say to you, be normal. omg lah! if sleeping at 1220am doesn't help i don't know what will. Jesus!!
anyways. bible study was great. (:
[yes steve, i shall stop taking afternoon naps. HAHA.] ehh. i can't rmb much of what has happened lately.
doens't matter what people think about me. (: my Daddy loves me. somehow i really gotta learn to just bank on that. bank on the fact that my Jesus is really everything to me.
no one else man, no one else. truly.
and right now, i still need that afternoon nap because my cramps and making me sssooooooooo. happy. *rolls eyes*
p/s : heehee where is nikki-san. (: i want kinder bueno!
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:10 PM
there is no one else for me. no one else.
no other friend, no other sister, no other companion, no other love, no other buddy. no one else.
none but Jesus.
He will wash away my hurt and wipe away my tears. He will understand. He will love me for me. He will embrace me. He will accept me just as i am.
none but Jesus.
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:17 AM
so, kallang wasn't as bad as i thought. but ugh, the thought of travelling there is enough to exhuast me. bleah.
ayee ayee. nikki-san is in bangkok! ((: and i miss her! cheers to kinder bueno when she gets back! =D
alrights. so let me blog about tuesday yeah. (:
had dinner and praise and worship session at jolene's place. some pig made me miss like 9 trains. and no, i'm not exxagerating.
ANYWAYS. =D had darn lots of fun cycling there (sorry rach!) and thanks larry. HAHA. omg i nearly died lah. stupid lorry. hahahah larryyyyy!! omg! can you learn to give better directions? hahaha!
so yes, reached there and like went to wash leg. oh i'm real sorry grandson. HAHA. you really looked like some fish monger. hahahah!
and gosh, dinner was just damn funny.. weelock!! omg. hahaha! (: bowling must wax the floor and buy shoes right? LOLLLL.
it felt good to laugh. (: who cares what the world thinks of me as long as i'm happy. i love to laugh man! pls! omg it's like the most fun thing to do. HAHA. laughing with rachel is darn exciting. hahaha i have no idea why.
talking about laughing i freakin miss diana barretto sy!!! hahaha! oh right. back to the topic huh.
so yes, pepperoni pizza is THE pizza man! hahaha! who cares about garlic bread and chicken wings when there's pepperoni pizza!! =D heeheehee!
and the pillow. HAHA! "which part of it is golden" OMG lah! hahaha!! gosh i love my caregroup so darn much. ((: hee.
praise and worship. (: it was good. and yes i didn't have to strain my voice because clever me transposed them all before leaving my house. HAHA! =D how smart lah.
oh whatever. hahahah!! so we like left jo's place at.. say.... 1030pm? hahaha i'm not so sure. ayee somewhere there lah huh? hahaha.
oh gosh can anyone tell that i'm abit high now. at like friggin' 0332hrs. HAHA. what's up with me man. seriously. and omg lah i'm seriously addicted to shaker fries, but back to the topic~
so yes, nice-nice-and-super-blessed-king-priest steve gave rach, guan, jing and i $30 to cab home together. so yeah, we were the first to get in a cab. =D
BUT. (((: as you will soon see, there was quite a turn of events. hahaha. life's never dull with rachel. whatever! hahaha!
this girl, suddenly was like, ehh! why don't we go teh tarik at adam road!! i'm super craving for teh tarik because ..... .... .... .... and so, hyper me joined in with yah! cos like previously .... .... .... so now ... .... ..... ...... ...
and yeah, we ended up at adam road. all four of us. HAHAHAHAH. then omg lah, larry!!
"oh we're at adam's"
"huh! who is adam?"
HAHAH!! omg! yeah, so the four of us sat there drinking teh tarik and teh bing, and eating.. err what's that? yu-char-kway. hahaha the crunchy thingy in the rojak? haha it's YUMMY.
anyways. (: we started talking about ALOT of stuffs. hello, we're princesses. hahaha. talking is like, a major hobby. heeheehee. note : talking, not gossiping.
so, i've no idea how, but we ended up talking mostly about accidents (both seen and involved), injuries and insects. (at least, those are the three most prominent that i rmb lah).
one chunk of meat, one piece of skin.. one centipede, one large green hairy caterpiller, one huge wasp, some beetles. =D
hehehe you know, rach doesn't believe i was an old-time ahlian. HAHAH!! i mean, hahah! gosh glory to glory yah. OI you can't deny it okay! =D
i love you babes. (: i really do. ((:
we did plan to leave at 0130hrs.. but well well, once you pop you just can't stop ehh. ;p whhoooopps. =D but whatever! we didn't leave THAT late, in any case. hehehe.
initially we decided to split to cab back. guan and me, rach and jing. so rach and jing got into the cab first. then suddenly they opened the door and guan and i were like, eh?
hahaha so happens that the nice uncle would be heading to bukit batok after sending rach and jing home, so he said might as well just send all four of us back. cheaper also yah. haha! so nice!
WOW can i tell you i really love that uncle. hahaha!! he was speeding all the way at like, 100-120. (((((: the speed, i loooooveeee. =D hahahah!! i mean, that's the whole point right. that's the way to drive.
AHAHAHA okok i'm just kidding you know. but yah. if you never ever drive like that in your life, i'm sorry to say but you're missing out man! HAHA! ohright~
but whatever. ((:
yah so anyways, the speeding's not the only reason why i love the cab uncle okay! hahaha pls read guan's blog on the amount of favour that we had with him.
$20+++ fare become $16 okay! where to find! how to deny!!! this is called the favour of God!! and the reason he gave for giving us discount?
"$16 easier to split the cost between you four mah."
oh oh oh! where to find you tell me! =D such a wise man. ehhhh.. either that or he is chee-kor-pek! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA alrights!!! let's just stick with wise man! haha!
okok. gosh i'm so high at such a ungodly hour! =D heehee.. i never even drank lemon tea (not so sour) (milo not so dilute) omg have i mentioned that i love my caregroup??
HAHAHAHAH. lameness... one kind lameness... (: but i like. HAHA. yayyy!! ngee ann, Rp, shatec, not studying (or no school). hahaha oh we rock i tell you! =D
alrights. i know this is a darned long post. (((: heehee but i really couldn't help myself you know. =D joy overflowing. (:
okokok. update again another time.
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:17 PM
okayy, since i did nothing but sleep and play guitar the whole of today, let me just blog about yesterday. =D
16 april 2006, sunday. ((:
THANK YOU DADDY, FOR
- lovely time in service ( heehee i really miss sitting with samm! it brings back classroom memories. omg, chinese... )
- great item done by the worship leaders, band and the all-guys-choir! ((:
- shaker fries. heehee.
- helping me catch the correct strumming technique so fast, and also the F bar chord!!
- funn and steve to entertain me on the train ride to suntec.
- making the shuttle bus come so fast.
- rain, so that the day was more cooling.
- my fox jacket (from valen. thank You for valen too!)
- nice fellowship time in starbucks (even though samm and i were sleeping through most of it) thanks for nice drinks and munchies too! (blueberry muffin!!!)
- great time at dinner
- queen priest huilin (: hahaha she's so cute lah.
- helping me stay awake during service (ahem. unlike the two people beside me. HAHA!)
- babu and merc cab. ((: thank You that he wasn't late, and thanks for the laughs throughout the cab ride.
- samm(: popiah(: tears and hugs(: prayers(: love(:
- my pretty pointed toe flats! so comfortable as well as pretty. (: AH and not to mention, large. hahah!
- uncle weelock who was so so nice to help us clean table, and helped me carry my tray of food back to the table even though he got baiki (no more)! hahaha!
- hi chew, strawberry yoghurt drink, ice mountain, chocobaby, maltesers, mentos.
- mrt, bus, cab. (:
- taking care of gege! and that he reached singapore safe and sound. ((:
OKAY YAYY THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!
lovelove.
WE WILL DANCE ; 4:39 AM
thank You for loving me
thank You for helping me see
You're what i've always longed for
You're the only One that i need
thank You for pretty stars
thank You that for me You went so far
You never once complained
You even set me apart to soar with You
thank You for holding me in Your embrace
thank You my Father, i give You praise
You always calm my storms when i'm afraid
all i ever want is to see Your beautiful face
thank You for always being there
thank You that You will always care
You never let me go
i'm so secure Lord, You make me so secure
(: yeah. thanks man. You never fail to make me smile no matter what.. even when everything is just so damn irritating. i know You're always there.
thank You for always being so sweet and patient with me. (: no one else can touch my heart like You do. really. ((:
today, thank You for esplanade, thank You for gluttons bay, thank You for dim sum, thank You for lemon tea, thank You for time for fellowship, thank You for kaya fondue, thank You for wide open spaces, thank You for shaker fries!!, thank You for steve(hahah who ate the burger), thank You for praise and worship, thank You for the gift of tongues, thank You for bus, thank You for mp3, thank You for cool wind cos You know i hate to be sweaty and sticky, thank You for big bright moon, thank You for cute fat cats, thank You for guitar, thank You for larry for jacket (zombieee!), thank You for ah pek ice cream, thank You for camera. (((: THANK YOU.
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:29 AM
okayy just a really quick entry of thanks to my precious Daddy before i turn in. ((:
- thank You for such an AWEfully awesome time of praise and worship at peili's place today. ((: the laying on of hands, the praying in tongues, the speaking into each others' lives. ((: THANK YOU DADDY!!!
- thanks, too, for a wonderful time at supper. ((: super blessed by it as well. ((:only by Your grace. ((:
- thank You for that fresh new touch. ((: sweet, cool breeze surrounding me. (: yes i want You to love me. ((: i love You too.
- thank You for peili, who invited us over. (:
- thank You for working in me and through me. (: laying hands and praying for people is SUCH A GREAT PRIVILEGE AND HONOUR!! (((:
- thank You for my voice, Daddy. (: really. know i give it to You leh. (: take it, Daddy, take it and make it supernatural. ((:
- thank You for MERC CAB. muahahah!! ((:
- thank You for the sweet guys who let us babes have the merc cab. muahahahaha!! (((:
- thank You for raining down Your blessings on us today, Daddy. ((: so so sweet yah! ((:
- thank You for my cousin!! korkor yin. ((: heehee he's so sweet lah! he gave me a french manicure set know! and even then, Daddy, i know that it's from You! for so long i've wanted to get know, but like so expensive! ((: hahah!! THANK YOU!! ((: awwww!
- thank You for showing love to me through mama! (: who is so sweet and bought me a whole new pack of blu tack because i couldn't find the old one. ((: heehee so that i can stick the verses on my walls and cupboard. (:
- thank You for funny and cute friends (SHANBEI, guan, jing, rachel, sheryl) who care to shout to me from so far to tell me that my bus is behind, so that i can run and catch the bus.. hahaha! so cute lah! =D
- thank You for teh tarik! ((:
- thank You for stevie and adidas jackets. HAHA!! (right, steve...) hahaha!!
- thank You for power in simplicity. ((:
- thank You for the gift of tongues!!! =D really really! it is SO powerful.
- thank You for my silver BMW 7series. ((: hmmm.. 740 or 745 leh? hahaha!!
- thank You for msn, because even there we can share about YOU! ((:
- thank You for such a cooling day. ((: no sweat man! hhehe!! ((:
yupps. ((: once again, my human mind is limited. haha! (: but Daddy, You know it all. (:
hmm so much for short. HAHA but ehh i tell you! giving thanks is like, as addictive as speaking in tongues. hahaha sometimes i just feel like bursting into tongues at my friends. hahaha!!
where's gege!! ahahha!! faster fly back from taiwan and we can have our conversations in tonuges. LOLLLL. =D
oh yah yah!!! Daddy!! thank You for such a sweeeett gege! ((: who remembered me in taiwan and bought stuffs for me. (: *yes you can all go awwwww now*
(: heehee i am so loved you know. so rich, so prosperous, so blessed, so favoured.
BUT I WANT MORE. (:
yupps, thank You Daddy, i recieve. freely You give, freely i recieve. (:
LOVEYOU!!!
byebyegoodnight!
* even now i just speak an abundance of favour and blessings into my life! life, i command you to be blessed!! i command the day ahead to be ssoooo blessed, so full of undeserved favour. and i will have that because i am the righteousnous of God in Christ. ((: AMEN.
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:14 AM
((:
early in the morning
when i see Your shining star
and late in the evening
when You whisper to my heart
i call Your name
and You are there
with each day that passes
i know Your love for me
in the moments when i stand tall
in the seasons when i'm weak
i call Your name
and You are there
no other friend
like You my Lord
i know Your embrace
so i will lift my voice to You
i'll offer my song of praise
You are my constant Compnion
my Helper and my Friend
You are the Maker of the heavens
You love me again and again
i call Your name
and You are there
Your love for me will never end
((: yupps, early in the morning. in psalm5:3 it says "listen to my voice in the morning, Lord. each morning i bring my requests to You and wait expectantly."
david wrote the psalm. david was so rich. why?
all he did was to ASK and HOPE. if you realised this is what the pastors have been preaching lately.
pastor lawrence [060406, thurs BS] "you have not because you ask not"
and yes, hope. it is still the confident expectation of good. (:
psalm147:11 "rather, the Lord's delight is in those who honour Him, those who put their hope in His unfailing love."
((: do you want the Lord to delight in you? hahaha! look!! just read the bible verse lah!
all you gotta do is have a CONFIDENT EXPECTATION OF GOOD, because you know He loves you, and He will be delighted in you. (((:
yupps. (: my Daddy loves me. and i love psalm lah pls! (: damn nice.. heheheh. ((:
okok gotta go. (:
peili's birthday party!! WOOHOO~~ =D
* there is power and protection in fellowship. ((: there's more to the phrase than what you see on the surface. (: think about it. ((: it's powerful.
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:40 PM
alrights. i totally love my today! ((:
let me just start off my giving THANKS to my dearest darling DADDY who loves me the most. (: more than the whole earth.
Daddy, today i really just wanna thank You for :
- showing me the tree full of blossoming purple flowers. (: so pretty, and my life is going to be MUCH prettier than that when in full blossom. ((: and you know what! purple speaks of royalty. (:
- the the super cold air con in the 97 so that i won't pespire. heehee You know i hate to pespire just when i go out. ((:
- the adidas jacket that stevie melons gave me! which prevented me from turning into an icebok (you know, iceblock.....)
- ahh! and so so much for faithful stevie. (: never failing morning calls. ((:
- that in the end we had our own 'bible study'. hahah! so precious, to just start the day with just the consciousnous of You and Your love for me. ((:
- yes, of course, steve. thank You so much so much. ((:
- my mp3 so that i won't be bored on the long 97 journey.
- nice friends (larry, yongjie, jingyi. HAHAH) who didn't get irritated with me even though i was SO late. ((:
- milo bing!! ((: heehee..
- guitars and music and songs. ((:
- friends whom i can share my revelations and everything with. (: so precious, really so precious.
- my handphone, so that i can contact my friends. ((:
- jingyi, rachel, larry, yongjie, alex, stevie, babu, vincent, derrick.. ((: wonderful.
- a super wonderful time of praise and worship.
- coming down to my level. (((:
- Your fresh touch!
- prata sausage!!! =D yayyy! (thank you babu and stevie!!)
- thanmacdonalds and shaker fries. HAHA!
- mrt and bus and cab [don't even need to be merc cab, just cab.] ((:
- clean toilets at mrt stations.
- ice limau and fries and chilli sauce
- time for fellowship!
- nice friends who walk me home!
- a home i can go to.
- long, warm showers. (:
- bringing my brother back safely. ((: i really miss him alot you know. (: haha yah of course You know. You're the only One who knows. =D
- that i have my own house key so that i can go home anytime and not need to wake the whole house up. ((:
- today. (:
- reminding me to give my today to You, so that You can make it supernatural for me. ((:
- really making it supernatural.
- the big bright round beautiful moon, that shines so brightly just for me. ((: heeee.
yupps! ((: i'm sure there's alot more, just that my human mind is abit.. yah. HAHAH plus the fact that i'm surviving the day (have survived the day and plus plus) with like, two hours of sleep.
heheheh.. the above is not even in correct chronological order lor! =D aahhhh, WHATEVER WHATEVER. hahahhaha!!!
OKAYGOODNIGHTBYEBYE.
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:23 PM
you know, it's REALLY irritating when someone keeps on pushing you to do stuff that you're ALREADY DOING.
just because you don't see, doens't mean it isn't happening. and anyway, things don't always have to be going the way you want them to before it means that they're good.
I'M SEARCHING OKAY. I'M LOOKING. IF YOU COULD JUST LEAVE ME ALONE SOMETIMES I'D REALLY APPRECIATE THAT.
argh. sometimes i just really feel like moving out. *rolls eyes and searches for parang*
WHATEVER.
anyways. Take Flight (i don't care! i'm calling us that! haha) finished yet another song! =D
written by yongjie, tune by me. ((: i'm so happy i'm so glad that we met up~~~ *sing to tune of the merci chocolate thing*
yah, once again, WHATEVER. arghhh..
more songs more songs! ((: i looovveee. (:
okay anyways. i shall follow johnny's advice. SLEEP. it takes all traces of boredom away instantly.
it also makes the world a less noisy place. much less noisy.
goodnight world.
hello night.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:54 AM
awww. ((: my Daddy is really the sweetest know! (:
this morning, as it started to rain, i just looked out of my window and started singing..
let the rain of Your presence fall on me
every day that i live
with every breath i breathe
let the rain of Your presence fall on me
every where that i go
Lord let Your presence flow
rain on me
love divine
joy unspeakable
overflowing in my soul
this heart of mine
is refreshed and at rest
in Your presence
in Your presence
(: and you know what? it seriously began to rain more and more heavily! like, just for me!
so sweet!! (: i mean, oh well.. sorry to those who didn't want it to rain. HAHA clearly MY Daddy really loves me and only ME. (:
my Daddy doesn't love you, doesn't love us. He loves ME. (: yupps! (: He loves me. ((:
and yes, as i stood at the window, i just smiled. i smiled and remembered all that we shared on sunday.
how the sky is always blue, how blue speaks of grace. how black clouds may sometimes gather, and how they are only temporal. how black clouds mean that it's going to rain, and how rain speaks of blessings. how the blacker the clouds, the heavier the rain. how there is always a rainbow after the rain. ((:
yes, Jesus loves me. (: in such a personal and tangible way, in such a special way. ((:
and yes, today, i thank God for rain. (: i thank You for sweet and personal moments with You even as i just read my bible, even as i just write little notes to my precious friends. (:
Daddy, i give You my today, Lord. (: take it, and make it supernatural. ((: because i am Royalty, and i don't want anything less than supernatural. i don't want to live a life that is less than what i am called to live. (:
thank You, Daddy dearest, for calling me Your precious sweetie. (: thank You for inscribing me in Your hands. thank You for engraving me in Your heart.
"if i ride the wings of the morning, if i dwell by the farthest oceans, even there Your hand will guide me, and Your strength will support me."
psalm139:9-10
WE WILL DANCE ; 5:56 PM
fuck it man!
Daddy i don't care. i'm telling You now i really want some peace at home. even if it means changing me.
fuck it lah.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:43 AM
7th april 2008.
i will have my liscence, i will have my car. ((:
i will give queen priest huilin a lift home. ((:
yes, i will, not i might.
because my God is awesome and faithful to me. ((:
because we have agreed upon it, and our words carry such power.
because we have believed.
because we have asked.
((:
we have not because we ask not. this phrase carries such a truth in it, for the Bible says "ask, and you shall recieve". ((:
Daddy, heehee i want many many things. but the top few on my list now is just..
- a well paying job with flexible schedule ((:
- liscence by 19, silver BMW 7 series by 21
- shopping spree
- so much financial blessings till the world will be SO AMAZED
- more more more fellowshipping time!!!
- new pointed toe flats and heels
- new skirts (i'm getting a bit tired of denim)
- softer and smoother hair! (:
- perfect skin
- ipod
- camera phone (bluetooth please)
- digicam
- accoustic and classical guitar (note : not or, but and)
- contacts!
- new flops
- new bag
- purple crumpler
((: okayy. i'll settle for that. (: FOR NOW. and i know that they will come, why? because my Daddy is bigger. (: yupps!
because i asked. because i know He can and He will. ((: because i know my Daddy loves me. (:
OKAYGOODNIGHTBYEBYE.
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:23 AM
((: it really seems like our "writing-and-composing-songs" season, and i tell you i LOVE IT man!! =D
yupps. larry, yongjie and me. and whoever else is interested can join us as well. ((: we even thought of compiling a CD man! ((:
(: YAYYY!!!! THANK YOU DADDY. (: i know that without You, none of this would be possible at all. (: love you so much man!
i'm JUST done with a song, and yes, it's called Thank You! =D
okay bye i have to go now if not i'll be late tmr. HAHAHA actually no, i'm not johnny. HAHAHAH ops. =D
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:49 AM
(: i thought it'd be a simple walk home. HAHA turned out to be rather exciting. LOL if you choose to look at it that way...
thanks steve. omg seriously it'd have been crazy if you weren't there. thanks. really.. if i was alone i'd really have not known what to do.
the shouts
the slashes
the parangs
the running
the blood...
and yes, today the thing that i thank Daddy most for is that steve was there with me. really man.
i know i've seen alot, but if you see when you're alone it's a whole different story. if you see when you're not involved it's even more different.
Daddy i thank You that even though we know these people are just plain stupid but You look after that man, and somehow, You heal him. his wounds aren't THAT serious until he was going to die, but they aren't all that small too, and they're bad enough. to have left a trail of blood along the entire street would mean he was bleeding quite badly, meaning the wounds are quite deep. You look after him, Daddy, even though it might have been his own fault. but You look after him. (: just because You're so good. (:
ohhh i LOVE to worship! Daddy i really am hungry for MORE.
i did not come to offer you cliche. (: but God really does love you, and He really is an awesome God. (: He's MY God, MY Daddy. (: and He loves me. (:
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:26 AM
and today i almost want to smack myself for listening to a good majority of people who eat cereal with milk.
argh! why didn't i just trust myself and do things the way i normally do them! what's up with "trying to fit in" man.
(hahahahh okay that was so random. no, i am not "trying to fit in" because i am happy just the way i am.)
so anyways..
milk with cereal? GOSH it's just plain gross. i'm sorry and too bad if you like it but gawd it sucks!
it totally spoils the whole taste of the cereal, and if you don't gobble it all up within 64seconds everything gets mushy and soft.. like some decaying rotting thing.
oh well. at least i tried, and i know i'm not missing anything. but now i feel like puking. =(
*SULKS*
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:32 AM
alright! i realised that i haven't blogged about what's been happening to me for a long time yah. =D i know you all miss me!! (: yesyes, my faithful readers (if any, that is)! ((: heeeee!
okok. hmm let me see ah. (:
last wednesday choir prac. went for interview at D'Factory outlet (somerset) and the boss wanted to put me over at the anchor point outlet. BUT she hasn't called me back yet lor! hahah.. maybe i should try some place else!
then the next day was bible study! wasn't serving. (: had a great time and then after that we went for supper at yew tee. (: ding, jing, steve, des, johnathan and me! ((:
yeah, cos i was staying over at ding's place. hmmm wait. i've got a feeling this happened last last week instead of last week? aiyah whatever. HAHAHAH.
anyways!! yesterday there was jamming at clarke quay. (: i'm so glad i got to spend time with princess bei shan! ((: heeheehee we just went crazy, laughing at everything and poking some ugly fat fish at fullerton! omg i love that babe! =D
yah after that was lunch, serious slacking, then dinner and movie at plaza sing. ice age2. oh man! it is seriously funny but i still wanna watch v for vendetta. ((:
yah and so jolene and me were going insane in the cinema.. like laughing at everything and anything. and there was one part where the entire cinema was damn silent, and she just suddenly went "hhuuuuuhhhhhhh..." and i went "oh my gosshhhhh"..
HAHA like ooops lah! =D hurhurr.. but yes, we had some major fun. and we were laughing at some guy.. oh gosh! =D anywayss...
today was the cg bbq at Han's place! alright man! AHHAHAHA getting there was.. totally. HAHA hmmmm.. ((:
but oh well~ THANKS DERRICK!!! i love your scrambler! even though abit spoil. LOL. but omg i just love bikes pls.. i think i would just settle for a bike liscense if i had to choose..
oh my gosh lah i totally LOVE that feeling of exhilaration. (((: thanks for picking me up at bedok and thanks for bringing me around half the east side of singapore before finally reaching bayshore! HAHAHAH.
my goodness i had SO MUCH FUN on the scrambler! didn't feel like getting off leh! ((: hahaha we made an illegal turn though. =D hahahah gosh.
okayy so the food was good though i didnt eat alot. like a handful of hotdogs.. three pieces of tiny chicken fillet BUT loads and loads and loads of drinks yah!
((((((: ding i don't care the ice cream soda is nice lor. it's just that you don't know how to appreciate that's all!! =D
thank you sooo much, GUAN!!! (: thanks for helping me get the cake, if not i wouldn't have had the chance to ride derrick's scrambler. (: thanks dear! you know i really appreciate you ALOT. ((: love!
okayys. (((: i wrote a new song last night, and even had a tune for it as well!! (: praise God know! He really never fails to amaze me. ((:
was chatting with yongjie last night. boy are we in the flow. we were like sharing with each other about stuffs that have really hit us recently, and like we ended up almost finishing each other's sentences lah!!
(((: it just excites me to know that THIS is THE GENERATION that's really gonna run with FIRE and soar high above mountains of defeat.
this IS the generation called to do greater things, called to be a light unto all the world. this is THE generation. MY generation!
and yes, it is OUR year of acceleration! grab it man! grab it and run with it! after you learn to run, soar with it! i'm telling you..
it's never enough you know. when you have that sweet sweet sweet taste of love, joy and peace overflowing in your heart. (: it is truly never enough. all you want is more and more and more of Jesus.
and truly, to worship is a GREAT privilege. ((: to be called to worship. (: i'm blessed beyond measure. blessed to be a blessing.
Jesus. ((: it is really all about You. (: thanks for always making me smile. ((: You are my glory, and the lifter of my head. love!
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:45 AM
so i felt like some random piece of shit. i'm not worth it, am i..
oh Jesus. =(
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:08 AM
JESUS LOVES ME MORE THAN YOU KNOW, MORE THAN YOU THINK, MORE THAN YOU CAN EVER IMAGINE. JUST BECAUSE I'M ME. (:
and this love, no one can take from me, ever. (: it's mine and mine alone.
His grace is mine for the taking, His mercies new and fresh every morning.
how sweet.
Daddy, ilu too.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:44 AM