Thursday, September 30, 2004 ;

the nails didnt hold Him to the cross. it was His love for me.

heez... teacher elizabeth just sent me the registration form to go israel!!! hallelujah! i will walk the steps my Daddy once walked! and xue ting, sam, valen, cia, shu ying, yan xuan, des, john... =D we will walk together! amen!!!

life is so good! :) anyways... i didnt go to school today. couldnt wake up lah. and oh man i fell asleep on the cold hard wooden bench. hahaha but it was nice. i couldnt sleep in the room because my mom sprayed insecticide all over. i was like, oh my hat mom. no better time you could have done that huh.

hahaha but its alright. =D i think sleeping on the bench in the hall is much cooler than sleeping in my own room. so bleh man! oh well...

hahaha there's going to be a special item this sunday! it is so si nice man! really.. at pracice yesterday... ronnie was like being so lame! but i cant deny taht it was super funny watching him lah. hahaha... he was like dancing around and making weird noises but.. yeah that's not the point lah. =D

anyway choir has changed shifts... praise God i'm still doing friday and sunday mornings! praise God praise God! (and yes shawn. i would still praise God even if i had been changed to another shift...) ahakz... =D

but this is the really really praise God part kae. =) at first i didnt check my mail lah, till just now about 4pm. before that right, they had already confirmed the switches. and already sent out the mail. i was doing thursday night bible study and sunday afternoons. but then today when i checked my mail, there were two mails from my section leader.

the one on top, which is the one sent at a later time. i read that one, and it was the revised one. the one that confirmed that i was doing friday adn sunday mornings! praise God! then i was praising God, and read the one after that, which was the first one saying i had to do thursday and sunday afternoons. i was like, *gasp*!

then i have no idea why, but i just went to check the times which the mails were sent. and you know what?! =D i realised that the time the new and revised mail was sent out was the time i was telling Daddy that i wanted to stay doing mornings and fridays!

is my God good or is my God good? =D i think my God is so so so good! =D so you see.. God does know your heart's desires. but then you also have to tell Him. dont let this be a one-sided relationship you know. whatever it is on your mind, just pour it out to Him. He loves you alot man.

its like, although He knew i wanted the shifts, and i knew that He knew, i still told Him. and you know why? because i love Him. =D and He loves being loved! and i love being loved my Him! and He does love me alot! okay i'm just going on and on. hahahaha...

anyway...! =D so therefore i am happy because my Father in heaven loves me. =) and i am so blessed because He loves me! He loves me with an undying love! =) hahaha oh well... i think i shall go now! =D

He is my reason,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 5:22 PM




Wednesday, September 29, 2004 ;

whoa! is this amazing or is this amazing! you people actually tag more often and faster than i blog! hahahaha it has just got to be hte most exciting thing in the world huh. =D hee.. anyways...

aww you all are so sweet! leaving all the taggies.. hahaha really appreciate them!

desmond, john, sam, valen.... thank you all for the stupid ingrown anil thingy. wow. it really hurt but at least you all were there! hahaha i was encouraged and somewhat strengthened by all your presneces.. (if there is such a word, that is)

ahahaha.... raisa!!! hahaha sasa. aww babe! you really dont know how much i miss you! =D hee.. bleah love you alot lah, just that i'm shy to say out only. ahakz!

cia, xueting.. love you all so much too! dont worry xue ting. you will not be shortchanged!

and ermz jo... i cant read the chinese tag lar!!! hahahaha!!

anyways i really have to rush now...! as in seriously!!! so maybe i'll blog again tonight!

muackses,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 5:57 PM




Saturday, September 25, 2004 ;

wow. that seldom happens. but i really dont. as in dont know what to say. and i dont know why. i'm getting ready to sleep. but i just dont know what to say. but i just have this feeling in me to say something out. the only problem is i dont know what to say!

man. i cant stand this. why do i have to be at a loss for words at weird times. maybe its just loss of blood that is affecting my brain. or like i say, excess studying which has led to the minimisation of brain size and therefore the decrease of brain juice, thus resulting in restricted brain flow.

h.a.h.a. oh my gosh what is wrong with me? this is so irritating. really. sigh. or am i just letting myself get affected some stuff which i shouldn't be bothered about. like how people get angsty...

angsty

what nice word. anyways... just for people to laugh.
me and my sister did some stupid thingy to my brother the other day. oh man. once his msn nick was 'i have a hum for a friend. what's up witht that?' so the other day i had char kway teow for lunch and there were hums in it lah. (by the way.... hums are disgraceful) then we kept the hums in this container and out them on his table with a note saying 'you said you have a hum for a friend. now you can hev some more friends.' hahaha that's quite stupid i know but what to do lah.

then yah. he actually thought they were fake lah! then he kept them okay! oh my hat! then my sister said 'i hope you threw them away...' and he was like 'huh...? must throw meh?'

and then when my sister told him they were real he thought they were still alive! oh my hat!!! *laughs hysterically* oh my hat... i'm just glad he didnt put them in the fish tank. *praise God man*

wah lao. and by the way... his fish tank is now empty cos everything died. one fish died because it got stuck in the filter pipe... ~eeeehh~ and he poked it out with a satay stick and threw it out the window! oh deer...

and so my sister asked him why he still keeps the tank. since its empty and smelly... he says its cos he likes the sound. oh man... he might as well record the sound of himself pee-ing right.. then put on repeat mode and hear it through out the night. ^sigh^

that's my brother.... but hahaha i still love him tonnes! anyways its getting late and my sister is bothering me! so i shall go now! =) *bother*

heez... i feel so much better now!
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 1:52 AM




Wednesday, September 22, 2004 ;

heez... i've just linked so many people. hahaha okae so maybe its not alot but... aiyah. =D just agree with me and make me happy lah.

anyway... i really vow not to ever forget to bring my keys out.. ever again. as in ever-ever. really and truly. i promise myself never to forget my dear house-keys. goodness it is so irritating man! but ah well i cant deny i had a peaceful time studying and a nice time with Daddy... =) well everything turned out for my good lah. =]

whoa today's science chemistry paper was quite tough. but thank God it was Him doing through me, and that whatever success i have is in and through Him alone. yay~! now i realize i havent eaten anything since... last night...? oh my hat. where's my mama?! she never buy food for me ah. ahakz..

then i am so bored of eating instant noodles already. and they're not even instant anyway. plus no eggs. SIGH!

ah well... no matter. anyways... i just wanna say thank you to gabriel for all the songs you sent me. ahakz... but can i tell you something? hahaha i still want! hahaha ok maybe i should i just copy from all my discs into the computer horr. hahaha yeah but lazy lar. and thanks anyway.

then thanks to sam and xue ting. =) for keeping me company the whole of yesterday and for teaching me so much stuff. heez muackses! the passion rawkx yah! hahaha the three of us were sitting on my wooden bench crying like nobody's business. hahaha but yeah. ^who cares^

hee aw man. i am digesting myself!!! anyway that's quite gross so i think i will not continue. ermz yeah. today i realised how peaceful my neighbourhood can actually get. especially when everyone's at school and work. =)

you can walk anywhere and sing as loud as you want. sing all your cares away... =) it felt good lah. and i really enjoyed the time spent with my precious abba father.

oh well i shall go mug now. =D suddenly very in the mood for it lah praise God. heez tataz!

oh i feel like dancing...
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 1:34 PM




Tuesday, September 21, 2004 ;

as we worship You
let all the world come and see
how the mercy we've received from You
can set them free
as we worship You
let all this joy that fills our hearts
bring a hunger and a hope to those
who've strayed so far

as we bow in adoration
and stand in reverent awe
show Your majesty and glory
let Your anointing fall
as we declare Your name Lord Jesus
as the only name who saves
may the power of Your salvation
fill each heart we pray

as we worship You
let all the nations hear our song
the song of Jesus and His blood
that proved his love for all
as we worship You
may all the lost and broken come
may they hear Your still small voice
call out their names each one

as we worship You(x4)

doo doo dooo~ la la la~ dont sway like a lalang... =D ^bounce like shawn^ (sam) whahahax! sorry i'm high again and this time sam and ting are here to join me. muahahaha... hiak hiak! okae lah. maybe soon i post another song for ya'll. =D heebz heebz.. kekeke...

~BOK~
(and sam and ting)
ngiak ngiak ngiak..

to make a prairie it takes one clover and a bee
a clover and one bee
and revery
the revery alone will do
if bees are few. =D


WE WILL DANCE ; 7:39 PM




Monday, September 20, 2004 ;

ahakz... ok i'm really sorry lah but who is 'timelesstorments'??? please enlighten me.

but i still love yah! (with the love of Christ, just in case you're a guy. heez...)

~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 6:14 PM






Lame Man Dancing

Sharon Jaynes
Vice President of Proverbs 31 Ministry
radio co-host, author, speaker

Key Verse: "I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me-I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses inner strength into me [that is, I am self-sufficient in Christ's sufficiency]" (Philippians 4:13 Amplified).

Devotion: Have you ever sensed God calling you to do something for Him, but felt you weren't capable? If so, you're not alone.

I felt the very same way when I sensed God calling me to work with Proverbs 31 Ministries, but he answered my prayer and reassured me through an experience I will never forget.

During the time when I was praying about what God wanted me to do in ministry, my husband and I went away on vacation.

On one particular evening, Steve and I went to a beautiful restaurant filled with men and women dressed in their very finest.

In one corner of the dining area, a four man orchestra filled the room with beautiful music.

Steve and I had taken a few ballroom dance classes and he wanted us to see if we could remember the Fox Trot.

But I didn't want to be the only ones on the dance floor with everyone staring at me. So I agreed to go only if more people were dancing and we could hide among the crowd.

Finally, the first couple approached the floor. They looked like professional dancers, moving as one and never missing a beat. This did not encourage me at all.

Then couple number one was joined by couple number two, whose steps weren't quite as perfect. So I agreed to go in the back where no one could see us try to make those little boxes with our feet.

As we were moving as two, I noticed a fourth couple approach the floor.

They came with confidence - no hesitation, no timidity. But there was something very special about this couple.

The man was in a wheel chair. He was a middle-aged, slightly balding man with a neatly trimmed beard. On his left hand, he wore a white glove, I guessed to cover a skin disease.

Both were dressed in their evening wear, but the most beautiful part of their dress was the radiant smiles that they were both wearing. Their love for each other lit up the room.

As the band played a peppy beat, the wife held her love's healthy right hand and danced with him. He never did rise from the wheel chair that had become his legs, but they didn't seem to care.

They came together and separated like expert dancers. He spun her around as she stooped to conform to her husband's seated position.

Lovingly, like a little fairy child, she danced around his chair while he laughed. My heart was so moved by this love story unfolding before my eyes that I had to turn my head and bury my face on Steve's shoulder so no one would see the tears streaming down my cheeks.

As I did, I saw that every person in that dining room had tears trickling down their cheeks. Even the musicians had tears in their eyes.

Then the Lord spoke to my heart in a powerful way. "Sharon I want you to notice who moved this crowd to tears? Was it couple number one, with their perfect steps? Or was it the last couple, who not only did not have perfect steps, but had no steps at all? No, my child, it was the display of love, not perfection that had an effect on the people watching. If you obey Me, I will do it for you just as his wife did it for him."

I was reminded of my friend, Moses, in the Bible.

When God called Moses to lead the Israelites out of bondage from the Egyptians, he put up quite a fuss. "Who am I?" Moses argued (Exodus 3:11) "I will be with you," God replied (Exodus 3:12). "Suppose they ask your name," Moses continued (Exodus 3:13). "I AM WHO I AM!" God replied (Exodus 14). "What if they do not believe me or listen to me," Moses questioned (Exodus> 4:1). "I will help you speak and will teach you what to say" God reassured him (Exodus 4:12).

Moses was full of "what ifs," and God was full of "I will do it for you's."

Therein lies the key.

My steps will never be perfect, on a dance floor, or more importantly, in life.

But the Lord doesn't expect our steps to be perfect. He just wants us to listen to His voice, to be obedient, to take the first step of faith, and to let Him do the rest.

See, the world isn't looking for perfect people who live in perfect houses with perfect children. They're impressed by love. Genuine God-inspired love. That's what moves a crowd.

That night, God sent a lame man to teach me how to dance.

moving story huh. yeah. i was really encouraged. i once asked Him what He wants me to be. you know what He told me? He asked me oh so gently... "what is it that YOU want to be?" talk about love. this is love. He loves me, and i love Him too. do you?


WE WILL DANCE ; 6:02 PM




Friday, September 17, 2004 ;

standing tall in this wide space ding tall in this wide

yay* so fun. oh my hat.. do you have any clue what time i slept last night? oh wait. i mean, just now. hahaha. i slept at like 6.17am. serious man. it was the time my mother woke up to do everything. then i just came out of the toilet in her room. then lazy to walk so i just plonked onto her bed and slept there. heez.. (thanks mom)

anyways... i wonder why i slept so lat.. early huh. haha. hmmz... i wonder if it was because of this certain tootified goon who kept *swinging bok around* and even *poked a hole in bok's gasoline tank*... causing *bok to leak*. BAH! hahaha but oh well. i had fun. thanks ok. you really helped me contain some of my highness. =)

aye... hahaha that goondoo john is trying to force me to say that i've been angry before. many times more than him. but eh! BAH! that's not true lor. hahaha...

bleh. i am angry with john. hahahaha really. BAH john. that tootified goon. bleh. now he's being childish. hahahaha. BAH john. BAH!!! haha oh crap i'm still high. aiyah john ah... next time dont talk to you anymore! bleh.

hahaha. ok. he going to treat me pop corn! hahaha salty pop corn! heez... so maybe i might reconsider talking to him again. bleh... BAH john. muahahaha... i'm really crazy man. anyways... gotta go soon. to get ready for going out later. hahaha gonna watch the terminal. =) okae... tataz!

muackses,
~BOK~



WE WILL DANCE ; 11:37 PM






hey FUN! hahaha yeah alicia. of course i love you man! ...babe... haha.. yeah when i read to your comment i was laughing too! haha oops... look so retarded man. staring at the computer screen. [alone] laughing... [alone] man you can imagine yah.

man. we had a great time at Gig3 rite. haha and at valen's house. even though it was such a short time. so i wonder what we'll do if we like stay over! hahaha her neighbours are in for trouble man! and so are mine and yours. heez we'll just pig out and crap and have a wonderful time together!

and still even after pigging out we still will lose weight! hahaha amen. we can go shopping 24/7 and still get richer and richer each day. :) because of our Daddy's great grace man. :) and because He loves us so.

hahaha yeah. anyways.. oh yah! you know ah... for camp right... everyone must bring the instant campbell soup thingy! hahaha and milo! the packet one. then bring potato chips and famous amos chips. oh no. haha i'm going crazy already! hahaha but we cannot rely on the stupid room service lah.

oh my crap. hahaha then on the last night we'll just partaye! hahah.. oh yah but planning for now.. and the not-so-far.. :) so how've you been lately? prelims... hahaha BAH away with it. haha i'm really going abit crazy. heez but its fun.

anyways.. i'll be off now. but just for the records, i really love you babe. =)

BAH-ing always,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 12:51 AM




Thursday, September 16, 2004 ;

ok i am full of cabbage. felt like i ate cabbage soup instead of cabbage-in-maggi-mee. but cabbages are really nice lah. especially boiled. but the soup just not was abit salty... but still it was nice lah. or maybe i was just hungry horr. =)

anyways.. where was i... oh my hat. sheena is crazy. she keeps "BAH-ing" me on msn! oh my hat... she's crazy man. hahaha...

ah well everyone's a lil' cranky with the exams and stuff. i cant blame her. hahaha! but yeah, its an undeniable fact. sheena's crazy.

oh my hat... i wanna watch movie! bleh... tha weather's so friggin' cold today. i'm freezing lah. even with long sleeves. hahaha crappy man. i dont even really know what i'm doing. just typing... i'm just happy about having free day right smack in the middle of exam period. =)

blog blog blog.... i dont know what i'm doing... BAH! hahaha oh no. "qian yi mo hua" this is called... influence from sheena man. goodness... anyways. hahaha shu ying wants me to get the friendster thingy. gosh i have an account but i forgot the password man. hahaha...

anyways.. i'll ciao now. :)

love....
~BOK~
(bah)


WE WILL DANCE ; 4:10 PM






finally i get to have a short break. the really-over-over-shot nap yesterday proves that i'm over-worked. i need rest! i had planned to take a nap from 3.30pm to about 6pm... but well.. in the end, guess what time this dear princess woke up. gosh it was like ten to nine when i got up.

then my first reaction was "oh crap.. haven't bathe..." *oops* i know that's quite gross but yeah. anyways.. so i went to bathe, then i practiced the e-math papers while trying unsuccessfully to eat. however, i realised i should not panic. so, being bored, and being Bok, i started surfing channels and finally settled to watch Blade2. heex.. after that i went to pack my stuff and get ready my uniform. (yes i iron my own uniform.. most of the time lah..) =D

the past few days have been brain-draining. totally. prelims prelims... *shakes head and sighs* oh well.. at least i always have my Daddy. and it doesnt matter no matter what results i get. cos that's not my success. my true success is Jesus. but of course i will get good grades lah. and its all to His glory amen.

what a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer. there's no burden i have to carry alone. He took my every care and worry on the cross a long time ago. :) no more burden! just plain freedom and enjoyment. *yay* ah wells for today it was e-math paper 2 and chinese paper 1. wah lao... so now i'm seriously brain-dead. four and a half hours straight. hahaha... but yeah, i managed with His help. He really guided me through. all the way.

i dont know why... but i always seem to finish my chinese so super fast. i even had time to write chinese letters to people. like wow. goodness the teacher must think i'm really bored, tearing and folding the paper the way i was just now. but really man. somehow sally yu just seems to make time pass so slowly.

anyways.. so far i've sat for english(both papers), social studies, e-math(both papers), literature paper 2, science practical and chinese paper 1. and i realise i need to cut my toe nails... in-grown and they hurt like super crap. really... *oww* tommorrow is a free day for people who dont take biology, accounts and pure geography. (me) *cheers* that's why i said i can finally take a break. a much needed break.

and saturday is free too. so i'll be at both Bible Study and Teenzeal Town on friday and saturday. :) *yay* but of course i'll still be studying lah. not really a break but also... quite lah. hahaha ok i dont think anyone will understand what i just said. but it doesnt matter lah. :)

htis is the longest period of time in between two of my blog entries... and the prelims are all to blame! *bleah* but ah well it also shows that i am NOT addicted to blogging. :) i can stop lor... :) hahaha... oh but chemistry practical was really crappy.

the solutions and all were very very UNreactive.. so i was a little unsure about the answers. but grace grace, and i'll do well one amen. and the stupid limewater which they gave was already milky before reacting with carbon dioxide. so later when i had to test for presence of carbon dioxide i wasnt sure if there was an increase in precipitate or not.. so i just wrote have, but actually didnt have. hahaha SIGH... and yong jie's bottle of chemical got hole one. whahaha!!!

but yeah... physics practical was super easy. :) anyways.... i'm going to have to digest myself if i dont go and eat my lunch right now... :) and i dont want to do that. so i'll be off!

blessed to be a blessing,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 3:05 PM




Tuesday, September 14, 2004 ;

thank you all the wonderful blessed peeps who were involved in the making of my burfdae video thingy!!! it is so sweet! i was like.. really touched. believe it or not, i cried watching it. it just made me realise just how precious you all really are to me! thank you all so so so very much! i love you all too!

thanks to john, shawn, stanley, sean, deyan, shuying, sam, sheena, wantong, deborah, nick, denise, charis, lydia, yanxuan, joelle, valen, alicia, anjolene, evan, brendan, vivienne, teacher elizabeth, yating, wanxian, hong keow, lynn kok, jer liang, samuel good boy, woei jin, han sen, azri...

you all are so precious to me! :) i really dont know what i'd do without each and everyone of you in my life. adding so much fun, joy and laughter to my life. it's been great knowing you guys, and i really appreciate all this. its really the sweetest and most meaningful gift i've ever received, and i'll really treasure it alot! :)

thanks john, you're really a wonderful friend. i know i can always turn to you whenever i need someone to talk to. you've always been there and i appreciate you so much. you've taught me alot too, and encouraged me so much. helped me find so much strength to carry on and stuff.. hahaha and somehow always manage to make me laugh. thanks!!!

thanks sam. you're another really great terrific friend. :) more than i could ask for really. thanks for standing by all my crap and whatever nonsense. i know i'm a lil' crazy... :) but only a lil' lah. :) you're crazy too! hahaha.. but seriously, thank you. from the bottom of my heart. precious hairy creature. heez.. love ya!

thanks valen. you beautiful babe! precious sister and dear friend. thanks for always being there too. you may be young, but still you make an impact. you're influential and you shine. you're just special. :) love you alot yah! :) by God's grace i'll always be here for you! muackx!

thanks alicia.. :) so glad i got to know you better. again. you're lovely. so sweet snd funny. you add joy to people's lives, and you touch them too. love you for who you are. thanks for everything kae! :) God bless!

thanks shawn. no matter what, you're still the 'sort of' leader of our gang. (yes, OUR gang) you goon.. i have drank the blood already ok. :) heez.. but yeah. funny guy... dont be small boy anymore ok. i'm not the small gurl. you're the small boy. =D be blessed and of course i'll get As for both my maths amen. :) so that means you already owe me a treat at nydc. hahaha...

thanks ber... :) you've been a great friend. always add laughter to my life. you're really cute lah, and i treasure you alot as a friend. dont stress yourself out over the exams and whatever else okae. life's too short to spend being depressed. smile.. love ya lots!!!

thanks evan.. hahaha i really treasure the times i have with you. got to know you alot better after we joined choir. and i'm really glad about that. thanks for everything. you're a real sweet babe. :) God bless!

thanks joelle for everything... you're a great blessing to me and i really love you alot! been friends for so long but its only after last year's camp that we got closer. :) and i really thank God for that. :) love you so much precious babe! muakses!

thanks lynn kok. haha you are one hyper funny lively babe! haha love your dances.. you're really cute and funny and you add so much joy to my life ever since i got to know you. i praise God for having found a friend like you, and God bind our friendship!

thank you sheena.. we've known each other since kindergarden man. hahaha.. you're really funny and full of nonsense. always laugh with you on the bus.. or actually, anywhere.. as long as i'm with you i'll always laugh one. you're a great friend!

thaks denise for being such a dear. your encouragements mean alot to me, and i thank God for giving me a friend like you. you're really precious and you have made an impact in my life. thank you so much for everything you've done! love you!

thank you lydia.. you've been a dear. so cute and cheerful. i enjoy you presence. it is great getting to know you, and i just pray that Daddy be more and more real in your life! may you be blessed to be a blessing!

thanks charis.. even though i seldom write nowadays.. (been really busy muggin' man..) but i still love you so much! it was so great working with you in the Link, even though that was quite a short period of time. but i really cherish it. you've taught me lots too, and yeah.. i really love you alot! you're so precious! Daddy loves you so much so never give up! i love you too! heez..

thanks nick, for always seeing the best in me. :) you are one *sharp and quick* dude amen..? hahaha but whatever it is God still loves you lots! you're a great friend and since you've been so nice and are even in my burfdae video, i've decided to stop kicking you! heez..

last but not least, i just wanna thank everyone again from the bottom of my heart. its been a pleasure to be friends with all of you, even those not in the video. :) love you all so much and thanks for being my friends yah. its really appreciated. :)

and for all the sec4s or those taking the 'o's this year. dont stress ok. God is there. He always is. you can turn to Him anytime. He's a great God lah ok. :) thank you all again! i really had a wonderful and spectacular burfdae this year, all thanks to everyone! hugs and kisses! do well for the 'o's, then we can slack slack for quite some time. :)

thank you everyone!!! i love you all!!! heez.. =)

love,
~BOK~
thanks again!

haha and thanks, jonathan..(josh's brother) for being in the video even though you dont know me. hahaha well i dont know you too! but its ok. i'll pray for you to grow taller soon! but dont worry still cos you're handsome! hahaha..


WE WILL DANCE ; 4:05 PM






argh... i'm so pissed!!! bleh!!! my stupid computer cant play the video thingy that john gave me as a burfdae present!!! bleh!!! so irritating!!! i just knew it was lousy man. goodness... cant even do a simple thing!

i want a better computer!!! (its already mine amen..) bleh!!! bleh bleh bleh!!! i'm irritated!!! i rushed home just to watch it and now i cant even watch it so i cant relax before i start studying!!! argh!!!

stupid computer!!! i only watched to the woei jin part then it hanged... and kept on hanging after that!!! what's the problem man?!?! sigh... -_-"' irritating computer!!!

weep... :( now i cant watch the precious video that everyone played a part in making!!! *sobs* oh my hat... sad!!! ahh!!! ah well... at least i got to drink teh bing just now. hahaha... but the lady put so much condense milk i swear she was trying to con my money. bleah.

hahaha... but its ok. at least now i'll be so energetic i can study better and then i can confirm that i wont fall asleep lah. :) -yay- but i'm still upset about not being able to watch the video... sigh!!! what's the use of having a video if you cant watch it right???

Daddy... *wails* i wanna watch it!!! seriously!!! they went through all that trouble just for me.. :( and now i cant even see! *pouts* weep... cannot like that lar...

ah well... guess i have to study chemistry now. =D (hey ding.. its chemistry man. =P dont you just lurve chem?) heez... yeah well anyways... ciaox!!

weeping,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 1:37 PM




Sunday, September 12, 2004 ;

hey hey everybody! haha or should i be saying yo yo yo!!! =) okae.. well anyway. *kewl* Gig3 was yesterday, and it SO ROCKED MY SOCKS!!! hahaha...

yeah, everyone looked cool in the hip-hop thingy. and the Link looked so glam in their glam clothes. it was just wonderful. really. those who weren't there, fret not. i have photos yah, and i'll send to you all when i upload. and when i'm free.. which will mean only after prelims.

so if you want the photos, you can either (1) sms me, (2) call me, (3) email me, (4) leave a comment on this blog saying how much you want the photos and why i should send them to you. =D or (5) tell me in person.

hahaha. early yesterday morning... okae maybe not so early... but still, early enough. i went over to valen's place where she did my nails for me. alicia was already there and xue ting arrived later. we all tried to curl our hair, but xue ting and me had too little hair... :) ANYWAY.. that's not the point.

later i went to meet teacher elizabeth the hot babe to collect the mckenzie office keys and the make-up for the rest of the Link babes. :) then waited for xue ting and we rushed down to mckenzie.

everyone was already there. *oops... sorry peeps. ya'll had to wait so long.* a few of them went up first, then me, xue ting and jer ordered teh beng (ice tea) and mel ordered ice milo. jer also ate some dunno what noodle thingy. but after wards when evan arrived, it got too hot so the girls went up first, leaving jer to fend for himself. hahaha.. *sorry dude*

so we went up and lazed about in the air-con for abit before shoo-ing the guys out so we could change into our glam clothes. then we started the gruelling process of apllying make-up. bleah... but yeah we all looked so pretty! :) then we ran through the whole dance once or twice before those who were in the Gig com left for YMCA.

after that a few others went to the youth room to nuah, leaving xue ting, mel, semm, jacob and me in room 2c to nuah by ourselves. hahaha.. then semm went down to buy food. guess what i got? (no prize for correct answers) =]

oh yeah.. jacob sang for us too! heez.. great job. but he was too tired lah. then after nuah-ing for a super long time, it was time to leave for YMCA. everyone looked so glam, then me and semm were wearing sportshoes. -doosh- with the glam clothes... -double doosh- hahaha... while crossing the road to get to YMCA, we(semm, lynn, mel, xt and me) saw 2 tourists on a trishaw thingy thingy and we madly waved 'Hi!" to them. gosh... they videod us lah.. on their video-cams and also waved back and shouted hi.. so pai seh i cant believe i did that.. haha but it was fun lah.

(if you were wondering what happened to the rest, Tcher beth, dora, denise and jacob took cab without us!!!) hahaha but its okae.

yeah so we reached YMCA safely.. but super hot so we were pespiring like mad. cooled down after awhile then had rehearsal.. at first i was freaking out about the band performance thingy and was almost thinking of backing out! thank God i didnt. cos i really enjoyed myself up there.. (even the smoke was super horrible)

that stupid devil tried to get me, but he couldnt. you know why? hahaha... that's because i'm a child of God and satan has NO power over me. a short prayer and a few quiet minutes with the Lord got me back to my normal self. praise God. see, i told you He's faithful. =D

soon, doors were opened and people started pouring in. we performed and everything, thoroughly enjoying ourselves. everything was great. :) i just knew that i was feeling super hot.. wonder if it was me or the temperature. haha Larry said it was the temperature.

gosh i've never worn such loose jeans ever. man.. i had to keep puling them up during all the praise songs. :) oh yeah and i'd like to thank all the wonderful muscicians and worship leaders amd of course the very important back-up singers. also those who planned the Gig and all that. it was really wonderful.

i was really touched by God that night. at the beginning of the praise and worship i told Daddy. "You know, Daddy.. i'm not walking out of this place until i am touched by You." *smiles* and yeah, i was touched. i dont know how, and i dont know in what way, but i just felt this feeling inside. (its a little bit funnaye...) hahaha.. but truely. i know i was touched.

i was just glad that i got to spend the day with all the people who are so precious to me. another prayer answered. cos when the hols first started i felt that i really wanted to spend time with those who are precious to me. actually i didnt even tell Him. He just saw right through me. :)

He is so good to me. :) heez... i'm more than satisfied with His goodness in my life. :) okae. i'm super hungry now... and my body is so NOT aching. =) hahaha..

touched by grace,
~BOK~

p/s: do you know how the actor Tay Ping Hui got his name?



WE WILL DANCE ; 12:50 PM






my God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
with wisdom, power and love
my God is an awesome God.

yes. my God is an awesome God.

He is faithful. very faithful.

and He really really loves me alot. i'm so so precious to Him.

He'd go to the ends of the earth just to be with me, when actually i am worth nothing at all.

He cares so much about even the littlest details of my life.

He even knows the exact number of hairs on my head. not just because He's God, but because He cares. He bothers.

my every tear is precious to Him. He keeps them in a bottle.

when i cry, He cries with me.

when i smile, He smiles with me.

He lifts me up from my fears and shame.

He will never leave me nor forsake me.

nothing i can do could make Him love me more. nothing i have done could make Him close the door.

through the hardest times of my life, He was there.

when i felt so alone, He was there.

when i felt like life wasn't worth living, He was there.

when i needed Him most, He was there, carrying me upon wings of eagles, to soar high over my mountains of defeat.

now this is love, that a man gave up His Son for His friend.

God is that man. i am that friend.

amazing love, how can it be?
that You my King would die for me?

amazing love, i know its true.
its my joy to honour You.
in all i do, i honour You.

John 3:16
For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him, should not perish but have everlasting life.

if you are not a christian and would like to receive Christ, say this little prayer and mean it from the bottom of your heart.

Dear Lord Jesus, thank You for taking my sin on the cross. thank You for dying on the cross for me so that i might have eternal life. You are my victory, You are my divine favour and health. thank You for loving me. from now on, i am a precious Child of God, and the devil has no more power over me. You are the victory in me. thank You Jesus for loving me. i love You too. Amen.

there. a simple prayer to change your life. Jesus loves you so much. you have nothing to lose and all to gain. after this you would want to learn more about God's wonderful blessings for you. you could come down to New Creation Church at suntec tower 4 where we have four services. 9am, 11.15am, 2pm and 4.15pm. its at level 3 yah. its a great church, believe me. =) i've been there. heez..

remember! Jesus loves you alot! be blessed with the blessings of Abraham and Sarah!





WE WILL DANCE ; 12:11 PM




Thursday, September 09, 2004 ;

thank you john thank you john thank you john thank you john thank you thank you john thank you john thank you john thank you john thank you john thank you john than you john thank you john thank you john thank you john thank you john thank you john tahnk you john!!! =D heez...

gee wheez that was super nice of you to cycle all the way from God-knows-where just to lend me the pullover!!! heez... thank you!!! heh heh. nice pullover too! yay i like it!

have a great time over at josh's place okie? hahaha its so cute to think of a rabbit and a racoon spending the night together! =) hahaha... okae sorry but hee...

anyways this is the third time i'm blogging today, so yeah... haha i'll be off now. hahaha leave me comments okae cos i'm very bored... =) heez... tataz!

~BOK~ muackses.


WE WILL DANCE ; 8:05 PM






hiak hiak... just got some "visiting" money from my gramps... $20. =) shopping will be much funner tomorrow.. :) praise God. i love my gramps. everytime she comes to visit or i go visit her i'll get cash. wow... :) but of course that's not the reason why i love her lah... -_-" i'm serious.. :D i love her for her...

she's a real cutie and a dear. haha she used to sew blankets and pillow cases and bags and pencil cases for me. :) and i still have every one of them. safely kept in my cupboard... :D love her so much.

anyways.. haha i was just talking to teacher elizabeth amd yong jie.. haha so funny.. i'm so blessed lah. :D really really.. then teacher elizabeth and i were talking about 'passion' and how we cried so hard... haha... super cute man that babe... :) and she's the best teacher anyone could ever have.

hiak hiak.. i dont know why i'm blogging again but yeah.. i really should be studying lah. Daddy give me the determination!!! :) i really really need it. and only You, God, can give it to me. i'm leanin' on You Dad.. :D

haha He's so reliable hor. :) haha can trust Him with anything, anytime.

i think i'm quite high now. haha talking so much... i think yj is kinda suffering... having to read all i have to say. hahaha... and valen too cos i wrote her two super long letters! haha ok maybe three... =D hahaha... yeap i'm definitely high. but downstairs got some stupid constructiony thingy. so noisy! and dusty. bleah... hahaha..

ok lah i shouldn't blog so much so long. very hard to read right. i know. but at least i leave paragraphs... :D not like jer liang lah. hahaha.. but there's no denying how inspiring his bloggie is. i learn so much from it everytime i read his entries. :D (thanks jer)

-beesh- i did something totally stupid with my mom. hahahahaha!!!! i dont think i shall put the details here. haha its really too overboard dumb. hiak hiak.. trust me that is so NOT the usual me. :) *cross my heart and tell no lies!*

beepz... think i shall go now lah. really too hig already. i have to find some way to contain my highness!

-pause-

oh hallelujah!!! thank You Jesus i just knew You loved me like, head over heels... :) my mom just gave me thirty bucks! i believe xue ting is also getting blessed. :) she wants money too but just now she didnt dare to get from her dad. well i say now that she is blessed. :D that lovey babe! hahaha but i'm still older that her! (blehx babe! ) haha..

okaes now i'll really be off. :D

soaring soaring,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 6:46 PM






bleh bleh bleh... i'm stuck at home rotting while my band is jamming... -_-" (evan, josh, brendan, larry) sigh... and its not like i've not been studying. i have, just that.. i dont know man. my dad just doesn't want me out. just like that. yeah... so i cant go out.

unfair? well... haha that's life. you just have to get used to it i guess... ah well.. haha just got off the phone with xue ting babe.. haha we talked for exactly one hour nineteen minutes and fifty one seconds. =) heez..

thank God for free-incoming man. anyways... my cousin and aunt are watching Passion at my place. i would rather not watch it again... haha if not i'd be crying my eyes out one more time. whoa... i just know that while i was watching, the only thing running through my mind was this song:

before the world began
you were on His mind
and every tear you cry
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only Son
and everything was done
so you would come

come to the Father
though your gift is small
broken hearts
broken lives
He will take them all
the power of the cross
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come

nothing you can do
could make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done
could make Him close the door
because of His great love
He gave His only Son
and everything was done
so you would come

yeah... and the tears just flowed like a waterfall. hahaha... :) ah well anyways... its ending soon. but it'll forever be in my heart man. super touching. i was sobbing like nobody's business. hee.. =D somehow i cant think of what to say. though i know i wanted to say something... bleh!

haha this is so crappy!!! rotting away... super bored!!! i totally cannot wait for Gig3 to come... oh man Jesus.. help time fly... actually not really lah. cos i still need study time. heez... gosh it's so hot. i feel like watching Lord of the Rings!!! hahax... miss return of the king. i cant believe i only watched it once!

i know i watched fellowship of the ring around four times... and i watched two towers around four times as well! haha though out of these eight times i only had to pay for two. cool huh. :) i'm just super abundantly blessed man. cant help it. anyways...

ahh!!! i'm still rotting. ok my brother just came back. from school and gym. the crazy toot says he's fat. but he's like too skinny. although he gets a tummy when he eats too much. which is whenever he eats lah. haha he eats amazing amounts i tell you! three huge plates of rice every meal. wow.

and sometimes i think he eats more than three meals??? haha crazy man... and he used to do dunno-how-many push-ups and dunno-how-many sit-ups everyday but then i think he got too busy and lazy... :] haha then he stopped and now he doesnt have as much muscles as before... and he complains to me about it all the time. *shakes head* but its funny lah.

and he's super vain. but its cute.. :) even my mom agrees that he's sexy. have i said that before? gosh.. haha i still say he's too skinny. but anyhow... the final decision is still up to him. :)

anyways... think i'll go mug now. =x

beloved of God,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 4:38 PM




Wednesday, September 08, 2004 ;

haha today.. i woke up at 7am. but i lay on my bed debating whether or not i should go for lessons.. haha in the end i fell asleep. but lessons were at 1pm. i also have no idea why i woke up so early. haha my body clock lah. man i cant even sleep in peace. that is quite gross.. considering the fact that i only slept at 2am.. so technically i only had 5hrs of sleep.. which is quite normal lah. (once you get to upper secondary, that is)

haha my nails are still black. like so weird.. then when typing right, at first i forgot i painted them... then i was like oh my gosh.. what's that black thing on the keyboard!! oh cheh.. my nails lah... toot. sigh i'm super bored. maybe i should have went for literature.. anyway the lesson is held by jason lim, not fat face... ok why did i not go? but then it seemed as if no one knew about it leh...

that's quite weird. so anyway i decided not to go. which is quite good also if not i would have went out. and stayed out till quite late. hahas so that justifies my not going to school. anyways... sheena is one funny gurl. she came over to my house just to give me cake and chocolate... haha and i got such a shock when i saw her at the door. like oei! what are you doing here?! kinda thing... haha then she said she was shy... -doosh-

anyways... i so cannot wait for Gig3 man. haha hip-hop. strange theme... and i totally cannot imagine the band in hip-hop. i'm just glad jen's not playing for us... if not the babes will go crazy. seriously... heez.. i cant believe alwino is actually gonna bead his hair. and i dread seeing jeff in hip-hop. really. major weird... to see like a beaver in bagy jeans and whatever. hahaha...

oh yeah.. did i tell anyone how nice banana balls are? hahaha. really nice. they taste so... nice. haha oops.. i dont know how else to describe. everyone should try man. banana balls... :) but they are abit big. heez... ok i know all this sounds wrong. but there really is such a thing as banana balls kae. ask anyone from the Link. haha.

very bored now... i dont know what to do. there are no vcds/dvds at home for me to watch. sianz.. should i go back to sleep?? haha no lah that's quite crazy. i'll only sleep that much after my 'o's... but then again... i'll probably be out most of the time so there still wont be time to sleep. hahaha... shopping here i come! =D heez..

bleh.. sheena's chocolate is melting. -_-" that funny gurl told me not to dirty my cake with my black nails. whahaha!! crazy lah! :) sigh.. i'm major bored. ah!!! anyways...think i'll blog later. or maybe i wont. haha... see first lah. i'm too bored. okies... bye!

bored,
~BOK~

by the way... Blessed Burfdae Larry! =)


WE WILL DANCE ; 2:05 PM




Tuesday, September 07, 2004 ;

empty
empty
empty
empty
empty
empty
empty
empty
empty
empty
empty...

yeah.. that's how i feel right now.. argh.. the timing.. what's with the timing? gosh..

ego freak!!! yup that's me...

now i really dont know what's real and what's not.

God.. You really have to help me.

send a bird to sing me majullah singapura or whatever..

i dont care! i just need to be enlightened!!!

and you're the only one who can help me...

but you dont even know.

oh my hat...

Jesus!!!

bleah... gross...

i wonder what i've gotten myself into. -_-''"

okae... my mood is as black as my nails now. seriously...

*screams* haha oh wait. i cant do that.. i'm at home. and its 1.19am.. i'll be waking the whole neighbourhood if i did that...

my nails!!! black and shiny. (thanks valen) looks quite scary man. i think they're way too long. they would cut my palm if my fists were clenched too tightly.

*doo doo dooo...*

-knock knock-




okae my brain is out.

......

lalala... this is weird... i feel weird... hmmz... yup.. this is definitely weird.

~long long pause~

=0 i dont feel like sleeping. there's no lessons tomorrow... but in any case i'll still be up by 10am... i think. i better be... sigh...

mood swinging i think. that's weird. i dont usually do that... i wonder if its stress over exams and all... i know i shouldnt be and have no reason to be... cos God's in control...

but somehow... i dont know. has anyone ever felt like this before? like you know you should be trusting God but somehow you cant let go?

sometimes i do wish God was more forceful... then He could force me to cast all my cares on Him. you know... like zap me or something. but He isnt...

and i still do hold on to cares and burdens that really shouldnt be getting me worried... its like i dont know why... but its just so hard for Man to let go and let God...

why? hmmx... actually maybe i do know why i'm mood swinging... just that... its dumb lah. and now... *shakes head and shrugs* dont know man.

i want to scream. i want to let go. but... how? so trapped in this four-walled 'prison' that we call home. ha.ha.

so we just keep everything bottled up! :] robots... that's what people are turning into. mankind is lacking emotion. lacking love. everything is just too developed. sometimes i hate development. it destroys the environment too... pollutes the air, the water... pollutes us.

and its supposed to be good. really? it doesnt really seem to be as good as they portray it to be... we wonder. lies? i think so, definitely. what else but lies? big or small, intentional or unintentional.. it doesnt matter. a lie is a lie.

lies hurt. somehow or another. they always do. oh well...

nothing matters,
~BOK~






WE WILL DANCE ; 1:48 AM




Monday, September 06, 2004 ;

haix... i'm so drained. physically and mentally. although i have no idea why. just came back from two consecutive physics sessions with mr ang. although i didnt really do much there. and they started at around 12pm.. so i have no idea why i am so tired. have been having headaches since i left home for school. but i know i'm healed and the devil cant touch me.

physics was quite fun lah. mr ang is funny.. then they were eating duck rice in the meeting room. mr ang was so afraid that our spinster principal would walk in. haha but she did not. only our fat discipline mistress lah. =) shu ying and sam's reaction really fast. i didnt even realise that the discipline mistress had walked in, and they already had their food stuff hidden under the table. or was it just because i was blur...? haha..

aaahhhhhh...... i want Gig3 to hurry up and come.. but then again i want more time to study.. haha cant understand rite.. see that's why only Jesus can satisfy. only my Daddy can give me what i really want and need. that's why i'm so satisfied and happy with my life. because it has been(past perfect tense!) made perfect and beautiful by God Almighty!

*shiver*i'm cold... why? i have no idea.. i like this shade of purple man. =) its like.. so sweet..

anyway... did anyone visit steven lim's blog? i got the address from sam's nick. whoa... that guy is one lousy loser.. seriously.. goodness i almost puked when i saw his photos.. and i finally realised he was the guy who stripped down to his gross yellow underwear during the singapore idol auditions. oh my hat.. i was like.. *eeeeww*

-puke-

ah well.. that is what i call self delusion. anyways.. i really cant take it anymore.. i need to sleep. haha it's always good to rest well before the Link meets for practices. =D but i thoroughly enjoy them. :] yeaps..

=0 yawn....

safe in His arms,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 5:54 AM






hahas hello guan...

=D i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you! :]

hee.. =0 yawn. heys babe.. really man. have not seen you for ten thousand years!!! cannot like that!!!

-_-" bleh.. miss you alot alot.

haha but then during camp we'll bee seeing each other day in day out yah. ;P cos we're roomies yeah! haha.. i dont mind having anyone else as our roomie but i must must room with you.

hee.. the rest i think to be fair draw lots lar. =) but i dont care i want to room with you. oh wait are we with valen too? haha then set already izzit? then what about alicia huh? is she rooming with us? and sam and anjolene?

haha.. my dear girl.. i miss you! haha is that the thousandth time i've said that? haha doesnt matter.. purposely say again. :) i miss you! hahaha.. ok i think i'm quite high now. abit hard to sleep lah.

how? hahaha.. go jogging. =] at 12.30am.. quite cool horr.. hahaha.. no lah.

oh you know my brother has this friend who's sur name is hum.. then once he(my brother) put his msn nick as "i have a hum for a friend. what's up with that?" hahaha!!! hum as in the oystery thingy.. hahaha!!!

when i saw it i was like laughing and laughing..

anyways dont you think its easier to read like that.. haha with all the paragraphs.. haha but its true! =D

i'm making your life easy! haha and you want to know why? haha cos you're precious to me! heez...

babe... never go for Gig3??? man... i'll like take ten thousand photos for you okae. so you wont miss out. :) it'll almost be like video. whahahaha!

anyways... hafta go now. =] and jog.. no sleep. hahaha.. =D

eh before i go i show you something cute. :)

=o =0 =O haha see the mouths are getting from small to big! hahas.. okae bye ya! be blessed!!! love ya tonnes!!!

MUACK
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 12:35 AM






hahas.. today was really fun man. :) served for first only.. cos i'm currently on leave.. so i didnt get to see my little judson boy... aww... :( my mom said he's changed.. sad! but at least i have photos so its not that bad.

man. suddenly i forgot what to say. like everything just suddenly slipped my mind... -_-" (and no john i am not drunk.) haha that boy ah.. he has been trying to convince me that i'm drunk ever since saturday night. cos i told him i had a few drinks at my cousins place.. haiyo.. its not even real wine lah.. :) just wine cooler and baileys and khaluar.. :)

do you know how nice baileys mixed with milk and khaluar is? =D although khaluar and coke was abit sweet.. we were just missing some vodka... okae i should stop man. :) and my j10 cousin was mixing all the diferent kinds of whatever for me. haha and woman bok got drunk on like ONE glass.. *lousy* muahahaha...

i should stop talking about this. really. haha though its quite fun. but anyway... back to today. =) me, shu ying, xue ting and sam went to queensway.. initially we were there to look for my sportshoes.. but i gave up looking lah cos there was no pair that i was happy with. so yah.. then me and shu ying found this shop that sold boardshorts at super low prices.. heh heh.. so yeah.. actually i wanted to get three pairs but in the end, i only bought one pair. its blue. :)

then after that we walked around somemore and sam bought a pair. really nice. :) oh and shu ying bought a cute pink skirt from the same shop as where i got my shorts from. =D then after that we walked into this wonderful shop that was selling ear-rings at like 90cents per pair. is that cool or what. (its what) anyways... whoa...

valen you so have to go there.. really man. like, wahey!!! =) and i bought 4 pairs of dangleys for $4.60. can you imagine that? oh my hat. i mean usually dangleys are like $5 per pair.. or more. wow. that's all i can say. besides that i love the shop lah. :D and that from now on i'm gonna get most of my ear-rings from there. :) haha walk in there and dont even have to worry about the price. just take what you fancy and buy. hahaha..

anyway after that we were all tired so we went to mac to relax abit.. sat there eating fries, drinking coke and talking and laughing like crazy.. as usual. nearly made sam cry man. oh my hat. she was trembling already.. but anyway.. they made me do this horrible stupid stunt.. =(

i had to say "i'm lovin' it!" to someone.. so super embarrassing. gosh.. i dont know why but it was even worse than the "manhattan belongs to me!" thingy.. i have no idea why.. really.. haix... dunno lah. dont wanna talk about it.

anyway.. later i took 51 home with shu ying.. who left me half-way to go to her ah-ma's house.. i stoned all the way back. then after that the 334 was extra crowded.. have no idea why. then this idiot fatty kept banging me and i got so irritated.. sheesh.. like hello.. keep your meat to yourself lah! goodness... anyways...

never mind. after that when i got home my father and sister were back already. praise God i'm alright with my dad now. i dont want to imagine how it would be like if we were still on cold war during my birthday.. that would really suck. so all i have to do now is to be an angel this week.. and keep it that way till the 'o's are over and done with. man i cant wait!!!

not long after had conferencing thingy with valen queenie and alicia hot babe. =) we were discussing what to wear to Gig3.. (hip-hop??) hmmz... sweetie shu ying's gonna lend me her super extra baggy jeans. hahas and i dunno what top to wear. i think my brother's gonna lend his quiksilver cap to valen and she's so happy about it. haha.. (aww xue ting.. you can call him and borrow other stuff too. =D whahaha.. you click quite well with him anyway yah...) muahahaha... oh gosh am i high again? hee..

then john hunk is gonna lend me some pullover thingy. haha.. am i missing anything else? haha.. will feel quite weird i think. but oh well.. this kinda thing is like once a life then do so must be more sporting. haha.. (whatever.... -_-") haha that was quite lame man. haha.. hmmz...

somehow i feel quite hmmz-zy now... whatever that is.. i cant quite explain it myself.. ah well.. doesnt matter. gosh i have lessons tomorrow. does that suck or does that suck? :] yeah i think it quite sucks..

yay i think september is a very good month. so many people's birthdays! eileen on the 2nd, kelly on the 5th, larry on the 8th, grandpa on the 9th, parsley and faithey on the 10th, Daddy on the 11th, joshua and eleanor on the 12th, yi long on the 14th, desmond on the 22nd.. oh my hat... that's quite alot yah.. hahax... yeap its a great month. =P

oh wells... wonder if i missed out any details.. ? my eyelids are fighting gravity.. haha its 12.09am.. aren't they mean to make us go back to school tomorrow.. in the middle of the day at 12.30pm.. sigh then so hot too.. -_-" sianz.. really dont feel like going.. but self-discipline. its for my own good. and at least i dont have to wake up early horr. :)

wah i think my entry quite long leh. think its going to reach the maximum already. whoa.... ;P so cool. heh heh.. i want to drink water... i feel thirsty.. i feel like.... studying! oh my hat! is this me? goodness.. well maybe its a good thing that i wanna study.. but not now! i'm falling asleep! haha tomorrow lah.. =]

okies.. oh one last thing.. des please msg me when you are free kaes. and actually.. no never mind.. ya des please msg me. =D miss ya dude! :) cya soon...

muackses,
~BOK~

bleh.. ...











=O yawn.............
















breathe breathe.. =0 hahas so cute!


WE WILL DANCE ; 12:17 AM




Friday, September 03, 2004 ;

haha.. today.. :) not bad. quite boring though.. like nothing much happened. only had the *super scary* CME prelim paper. man can i tell you the night before i was so nervous i couldnt sleep.. whahahahax!!! :D i still dont understand why they have to put CME in the syllabus. so lame! haiyo.. nearly fell asleep.. but then wantong... hahaha! she didnt even have enough time to finish the paper!!! =D

oh wells... then after that the teacher let us off for a break until the next lesson. okae, so a few of us went to the canteen to get smoe snacks.. hee.. (after thinking so hard must replenish energy) ya and anyway break mah.. wah who knows we all kena scolding from principal.. that stupid spinster principal.. so idiotic!!! cant stand her man! tsk..

break means break lor.. there was no specific instructions about what kind of break it was. toilet break or whatever.. she just said break so we go for break lor.. sheesh.. so dumb. i told you the highest powers of my school's hirachy(however you spell it) sucks.. everything so systematic. its bloody irritating! cant they be a little more flexible?! havent they heard that creativity is very important in the twenty-first century?? gosh..

*shakes head* ok enough about all the stupid sucky stuff.. hmmz.. does anyone feel that a person(no one in particular) gets super irritating when they wanna get all the attention. then they like become so super loud.. for everything but with no reason.. its like, it can be like nothing is happening but then they suddenly want all the attention so they start screaming and shouting and making a great big hallabaloo... then you start to feel abit.. tsk.. know what i mean?

its really irritating. dunno.. maybe its just me but.. yeah.. its sickening. and i do not like it. especially when they are already very loud.. then shout somemore.. even louder. argh!! like, shut up!!! crazy.. and all for the sake of attention. i mean so what if you're not in the limelight all the time? it doesnt really matter. at least i dont care. as long as my Daddy loves me.. and He always will.. i dont really care about anything else. cos He's all that matters to me.

oh well.. enough said. :) got it out of me and i'm feeling much better. =) ~yay~ sad sad... i should be at bible study...... =( oh wells... at least my parents are not in now so i can relax for a while. heh heh.. and listen to my Nouveaux disc. hahaha.. (",) haha cute face.. "and this is how i feel.." love this band.. and i love sonicflood! hee.. and of course hillsong.. and duh New Creation Church's main band!!! woohoo!!! :) happee... and also steven curtis chapman. :)

hmm later at 2030hrs there's this show called "performing as.." where people try to imitate popular pop-stars and stuff.. i'd like to see how they do it and laugh at those lousy ones.. muahahahaha..... okae i'm being mean. anyways..

have you ever thought of why the plural of tooth is teeth.. but why the plural of booth isnt beeth? or how come its not one moose and many meese.. cos like one goose and many geese.. -_-" but seriously.. how did people ever make the language? i think its so cool to like make your own language.. oh my hat... just like elvish!!! haha that is one cool language. besides tongues of course. that one is non-comparable.. :) hee..

ah well then... oh yah.. this is so touchig man.. one night i was just crying.. then suddenly heard so clearly Daddy's voice.. "don't cry, don't cry, i am here by your side.." haha unfortunately i was so touched i started crying even more.. haha i bet Daddy was smiling then. =D actually i have a tune in my head for the words He said to me.. :) hee should make it into a song.. just like my "i've been thinking" one.. hahaha..

okies.. i just remembered. singapore idol yesterday. =D i'm glad christopher and candice got in! the people who think they dont sing well.. please.. you just dont know how to appreciate. dont be dumb kae. :) and by the way i dont think that 'that daphne whatever her name is' should have gotten in. like ken said, she is not mature enough no matter how good she is, although she isnt. she should not have gotten in. really. too bad if you dont agree with me. that's your problem. =)

anyways.. i'm quite tired.. :( ber.. where are you.. i need massage man. :) hee.. sigh.... woman bok, you owe me way too many massages.. piggy.. you better give me one soon. i really need them.

trading my pain for His exceeding joy,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 8:06 PM






:) if a star fell from the sky
everytime i thought of you
there would be none
and if the moon would shine
all the time you're on my mind
we'd never see the day
i wish you weren't so far away...

~yay~ haha this song is called 'never see the day' by the band Nouveaux. anyways... today started off quite okae for me. :) missed the bus i usually take to school and thought i was so gonna be late for school. but praise God i wasnt. hallelujah! made it just in time with sheena.. =)

math was ok. :) i guess.. i find that maybe i really should concentrate hundred per cent during my tests.. then i wouldnt make so many careless mistakes and i would score better and then i wouldnt pull down the class' msg.. (sorry ya'll)

then for p.e. we played this weird game which is actually quite fun lah.. haha everyone should applause for ber!!! :) she caught the ball!!! ...and ran with it... ... hahas then foul. :) damn funny.. (but its ok ber. haha..) but i still wanna play tennis... oh well.. but todays p.e. lesson is the last lesson in swiss for forever.. quite sad man. at least we enjoyed ourselves. :) that's what matters..

haix... the whole day was fun. especially after school when we were going to leave. today we had to clear all our books from our desks.. i had no problems lah.. but then there are people like ber... filz.. SAMUEL... whahahahahax!!!! LoL.. man.. people use cardboard box enough already.. samuel arh.. the box also burst man! haha!! ended up using those black garbage bags.. sigh** man.. but it was hilarious. then cannot carry out to the main road cos the bags will burst. so we put all the books which were in the garbage bag onto the OHP trolley. hahaha!!! (um of course without the OHP lah...)

damn funny man. then the taxi came immediately. whoa must be me lah. :) but anyway that's beside the point.. the taxi driver was super super funny!! haha such a cute old man. =D then me and ber at the back laughing non-stop.. haha.. he was talking about his son for awhile lah, then samuel asked him if his son was in sec3. then the uncle was like "sec ge pi lah!" haha... then after that he told us that once he drove a media corp artiste then the fella said he should go act. then samuel asked him why not? then he was like "yan ge pi lah! ... .." hahaha!!!

man.. that was the funnest taxi ride ever.. funny uncle. ya but oh wells.. haha my mom just gave me cash to buy sport shoes. :) *rejoice* but only $50.. -_-" haix better than nothing lah. :) ^grin^ oh yes... todays chemistry practical was also fun! :) hee.. i always seem to have fun during chem prac. :) haha giacinta knocked over the whole bottle of solution S.. so my whole paper is a little greenish. but its ok.. :) and i made this scary bubbley thingy that nearly overflowed out of the boiling tube.. oopx...

sianz.. tomorrow got CME prelims.... -_-" lame^ who has cme prelims for goodness' sake!!! oh my hat.. and it takes the first two periods.. which means no more chinese lesson.. haiyah! their really dumb to take away such an important lesson.. just for cme. aiyer! cant stand my schools' authority people.. the people on the top of the hirachy really suck. except a few..

anyway.. saw mr kamal's son today. man.. he may be young but i tell you ah.. ha is totally charming! haha.. so cute so handsome!!! haha for a moment then i couldnt take my eyes off him. and ber has found her true love.. (besides samuel, that is) =P ahh... cant get him off my mind!! =P ermz mr kamal's son i mean.. hee.. then after that before leaving, sheena and me saw mr gan's son. haha he's also very cute. :) yay saw so many cute people today! :) happee..

haha ok lah.. quite tired.. shall go study chemistry! :) (eh shawn.. what's the difference between alkanes and alkenes?) whahahahax!!! (xue ting.. what is produced when alkenes are burned in excess oxygen?) whahahahahax!!!! oh my hat.. i'm getting high... again.. whahahahax!!! :) anywas... just for the sake of saying... my life is spectacular spectacular!!! :)

set free to be me,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 6:53 AM




Wednesday, September 01, 2004 ;

bleh.. haha took a cab down to school with ber today. was abit late. haha but at least i had a good rest last night.. reached home quite late. about 8.10pm.. oops.. cos went to buy teachers' day pressies with wan xian, shu ying, tomg tomg and ber at westmall.. and before that we were eating at burger king. (got coupons mah)

yah then find find find.. i was so so sad. cos the pink wallet thing from the happy house shop place.. (precious moments actually) is gone.. sam should know wad i'm talking about.. the pink long one that i thought was a pencil case at first.. (oopx) so saddening!!!

...weep... weep weep... :( it's very nice leh!!! then me and ber went to ask the shop lady and she said there was no more stock. and that she doesnt know when the new stock is coming in. SIGH~ is this sad? or is this sad? SIGH!!! i should have bought it the other time! when i actually had the cash! but i didn't and now.. it's gone!!!

oh well.. i'll find it someday. =) i pray.. oh come on Daddy.. :) it's nice. really! haha.. haix.. anyways... it's teachers' day today! blessed teachers' day to all teachers' out there! haha it's so noble of you all to sacrifice so much amd pass down knowledge to the younger generation. =D

after school ended, 4e1 did a performance thingy for our teachers. :) it was super last minute.. haha we sang 'best in me' by Blue.. haiyoh so high man.. "cos you bring out the best in me...." haha but its nice and meaningful! :) then we went back to class and cut cake for the teachers and ourselves.. :) i ate strawberry!! :D ~smiles~ *smiles* hahas.. YAY!!

after that stayed back in class for a while.. watched the people play game of the generals.. :) and listened to music. JET!!!!!! =D hee... (john i'll pass you the cds on thursday or something.. hee!) oh yeah and by the way.. talking about burning cds... shawn!!! where's my LP cd??? you ah.. never keep your word man!!!

yeah... anyways. then i went to meet xue ting to go mckenzie office for a Link thing. :) haha had a great time there!! :) yay~ really had so much fun! but then got so much static!!! :( wah.. very pain man.. then dont dare to touch anyone.. haha.. but still.. it was great. :) anywyas.. i gotta chao now.. :) might come back and blog later. :) hahas but for now, tata!

precious princess,
~BOK~


WE WILL DANCE ; 7:16 AM