okayyyyy.. more photos soon k! (: heehee.. blogger failed me once again. RARR. friendster failed me too.. =(
HAHA oh well. (: all's well. i shall go and play the guitar and make random tunes to fit my lyrics.
BYEBYE.
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:51 AM
so now we move on to blogging about what we did before service started. ((: the only sad thing is that funn's abit busy with work, and most of the photos are in her cam. (: BUT nvm! we will make do!! =D
this is my darling jingyi (HZ) and my darling guan (muffin). heehee and i love them both alot alot alot!! SUPER PRECIOUS one. (:
yupps! three glorious proverbs31 princesses. ((: i know we're beautiful. because Jesus loves us!
behold, the beautiful glorious princesses (well a handful lah) of ngee ann caregroup! =D woohoo~
yayy! finally a nice pretty pretty photo of my dearest guan and me! (: love you loads dearie! (: know that you are SOOO precious to me. (:
HAHAH this would have been a really nice photo of guan and gege, but well.. =D WHOOPS. jolene and i just made it ALOT nicer! =D
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:18 AM
SO. bad bad steve tried to bite my head off. =(
then i got angry and refused to entertain him. and he tried to lick my beautiful hand cos i'm so sweet.
BUT nvm! because i still have a gege who loves me!! =D
and a DING-dong-bell who loves me as well. (((:
and so because steve tried to bully me, he wasn't allowed to be in the photo of GLORIOUSNESS. (: so he could only take the photo. =D
so the moral of the story is, don't bully bok! ((: heehee..
ohright! =D Jesus still loves steve! HAHAHAHA.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:47 AM
((: yeah, more revelations from the playground. ((:
( thanks, ding, johnny and steve!!! oh man. thank you that, you know, you guys always come down to my place, then i don't even need to take bus home or anything.. but you all have to cab home. hee.. but i know that Daddy surely WILL bless you guys back many many times! because He promised that those who bless me will be blessed. )
okies, so we did the stunts again right. and i shared the previous revelation with them. well i got a new one. ((:
you know how when you wanna do the stunt you just have to forget everything else and jump straight into it? (:
yeah, it's like grace. you want grace, you gotta plunge straight in, all for it. even the Bible says it is better to be pure law than to be a mix of law and grace.
when you do the stunt, you have to forget everything, all the what-ifs, all the fears, all previous bad experiences.
likewise for grace, you gotta forget (that is if you weren't always from a grace church) all you ever learnt before. you gotta forget the 'law' stuffs, your past, all your failures, all your fears.
know why?
cos when you plunge head first into grace, you ARE right then and there a new creation in Christ. truly, old things have passed away, and yes, behold, ALL things become new.
and you know, with every one time that you do the stunt, you get less and less afraid, less and less affected by the what-ifs and all that.
just like the obstacles in your life. the more you go through them, the more you learn to let go, the more you learn not to fear, the more you learn to lean fully on Daddy.
and also, everyone has a different pace. you know, i took like what, one and a half hours to calm myself down and do the dumb thing (LOLLLL!!!). des took like two seconds. ding didn't take that long too.
(although she kept getting stuck and looking like some POSER MERMAID. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!)
but is there condemnation? no! at the end of the day, what mattered would be that we conquered that fear, that we overcame that obstacle.
just like our trials, does it really matter how long you take to overcome something? no. what matters is that you learn. (or that you even come out of it alive. oh oops. HAHAHAHA)
yeah. and you go at your own pace know. noone's forcing you to run when you can't even walk. noone, especially not your Daddy. He goes at a pace you can take, no matter how slow.
you know. He loves you so much leh. He won't force you to do things that you cannot/don't want to do. just as He lets you take your time, you yourself have to know that there is no rush.
time? who cares about time? it isn't as if you will die tmr. we're gonna live to be 120! we have like all the time in the world!
who cares if everyone around you has already conquered that something. you know, it isn't about everyone else, it's just about you and your Jesus. yes, YOUR Jesus. (:
so what if others look down on you. (: would it matter? because the creator of the heavens and the earth still loves you, and He is still holding your hand, waiting for you.
and hey, all the love in the world cannot by any means compare to the great great love that your Daddy dearest has FOR YOU. yeah, for you!
hard to believe that someone actually loves you that much? well, you better believe it. because it's TRUE. really. ((:
seriousy, what is there to fear. (: nothing can hold back what Jesus has set free. no boundary on earth know.
and you know what it is that Jesus has set free? it's YOU and ME. yeah, really. when He died and rose again, He broke those chains that once used to hold us back.
HAHAHAH okayyyy!!! i know i'm really cheong hei~ =D
i really should sleep now. ((: got interview tmr somemore! ((: heehee. yes, like Han said, it's not them seeing if i'm okay for the job, but ME seeing if the job is okay FOR ME. =D
HALLELUJAH.
i love my cgl. ((: and my whole cg. and ALL my friends, yes, ALL. ((:
praise God for everything, yes, everything. ((: even failure. (: cos then i learn alot. (:
THANK YOU DADDY DEAREST!
YOU'RE THE SWEETEST!
WE WILL DANCE ; 1:01 PM
i was worried about my future, what i'd do, what if i failed, would i be a success, would i be good enough..
Ephesians 1:18
i pray that your hearts be flooded with light so that you can understand the wonderful future He has promised to those He called. i want you to realise what a rich and glorious inheritance He has given to His people.
i was worried that i wasn't good enough, that i wasn't pretty enough, not slim enough..
psalm 139:14
thank You for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous - and how well i know it.
i was worried when people looked down on me, i was worried when the world called me a failure.
1 Corinthians 1:27-29
27 instead, God deliberately chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. and He chose those who are powerless to shame those who are powerful.
28 God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important,
29 so that no one can ever boast in the presence of God.
i was worried that all my efforts would fail me, that everything i did wasn't going to be enough for me to meet the mark..
2 Corinthians 12:99
each time He said, "my gracious favour is all you need. my power works best in your weakness." so now i am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may work through me.
i was worried that i wouldn't last through the night, i was worried i wouldn't be able to hold on any longer..
psalm 119:5-7
5 in my distress i prayed to the Lord, and the Lord answered me and rescued me.
6 the Lord is for me, so i will not be afraid. what can mere mortals do to me?
7 yes, the Lord is for me; He will help me. i will look in triumph at those who hate me.
psalm 94:18-19
18 i cried out, "i'm slipping!" and Your unfailing love, Oh Lord, supported me.
19 when doubts filled my mind, Your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.
i was worried that i wouldn't have enough to last, i was worried that my supply would run out..
psalm 104:27-28
27 every one of these depends on You to give them their food as they need it.
28 when You supply it, they gather it. You open Your hand to feed them, and they are satisfied.
2 Corinthians 8:9
you know how full of love and kindness our Lord Jesus Christ was. though He was very rich, yet for your sakes He became poor, so that by His poverty He could make you rich.
2 Corinthians 9:8
and God will generously provide all you need. then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others.
i was worried that my sins would cover me and eat me up from the inside, and i was worried that Daddy wouldn't love me anymore cos i'm just so bad..
Roman 8:1-2
1 so now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.
2 for the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you through Christ Jesus from the power of sin that leads to death.
Romans 6:6
our old sinful selves were crucified with Christ so that sin might lose its power in our lives. we are no longer slaves to sin.
i was worried that i wouldn't have enough faith..
Luke 17:6
"even if you had faith as small as a mustard seed," the Lord answered, "you could say to this mulberry tree, 'may God uproot you and throw you into the sea,' and it would obey you!"
((: this is very effective. i shall continue soon! =D
WE WILL DANCE ; 5:26 AM
WAH LAO. I WANT MY TEH TARIK. RARRRRRRR. what's up with everyone lah. =(
WE WILL DANCE ; 3:27 AM
heehee.. just some random photos.
ber's birthday!
my pretty feet! =D
BOKKY JING GUAN
poor dunst.. HAHAHA. he was the 'table'..
princess amanda, princess ber, princess charissa! ((:
SO GLORIOUS!!! =D i love. more photo taking pls. (: jing! faster upload the photos. ((: heehee.
WE WILL DANCE ; 4:45 AM
i wanna know
whoever told you i was letting go
of the only joy that i have ever known
girl they were lying
just look around
all other people that we used to know
have all given up they wanna let it go
but we're still trying
i'm glad we're on this one way street
just you and i
just you and i
i'm never gonna say goodbye
cos i never wanna see you cry
i swore to you my love would remain
and i swear it all over again
i'm never gonna treat you bad
cos i never wanna see you sad
i swore to share your joy and your pain
and i swear it all over again
some people say
that ebverything has got its place and time
that even the day must give way to the night
but i'm not buying
cos in your eyes
i see a love that burns eternally
and if you see how beautiful you are to me
you'll know i'm not lying
sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye
but even if we tried
there are some things in this life
won't be denied
((: it's a special song because of who sings it to me. (: yes, my sweetest Daddy. (: i really do love Him you know, cos He's just so irresistable.
He never even had to swear
but He did it just for me
WE WILL DANCE ; 4:10 AM
you can call me stupid. but i still know that my God is in control. my awesome God who always loves me is still in control.
He is still working things out for my good.
i don't care about anything anymore. but i know that my Daddy loves me. no one can ever take that from me.
no one and nothing. ever.
His love for me is forever. His love for me is my constant in the chaos.
i will never know how much He truly loves me.
now pray, pray with me, pray for me.
(: Jesus. You are in control, because there is really nothing i can do now but to wait and see my victory.
love me.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:43 AM
i will not be afraid
i will not be dismayed
i am not alone
Your rod and staff they comfort me
i cannot be defeated
i cannot be destroyed
i am not alone
my God You are with me
my God You're with me
(: thank You Daddy dearest. You are really the sweetest, and You are truly the only One worthy of my heart. (:
i call
You answer
and You came to my rescue and i
i wanna be where You are (:
truly, a wise man may fall seven times, but he will arise again. he WILL arise again.
Psalm 139:1-18
1 Oh Lord, You have examined my heart and know everything about me.
2 You know when i sit down or stand up. You know my every thought when far away.
3 You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. every moment You know where i am.
4 You know what i am going to say even before i say it, Lord.
5 You both precede and follow me. You place Your hand of blessing on my head.
6 such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to know!
7 i can never escape from Your spirit! i can never get away from Your presence!
8 if i go up to heaven, You are there; if i go down to the place of the dead, You are there.
9 if i ride the wings of the morning, if i dwell by the farthest oceans,
10 even there Your hand wil guide me, and Your strength will support me.
11 i could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night -
12 but even in the darkness i cannot hide from You. to You the night shines as bright as day. darkness and light are both alike to You.
13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body adn knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 thank You for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous - and how well i know it.
15 You watched me as i was being formed in utter seclusion, as i was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before i was born. everyday of my life was recorded in Your book. every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
17 how precious are Your thoughts about me, Oh God! they are innumerable!
18 i can't even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! and when i wake up in the morning, You are still with me!
((: how precious. truly, how precious.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
16 always be joyful.
17 keep on praying.
18 no matter what happens, always be thankful, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.
truly, the joy of the Lord is my strength. (: my joy, the joy that my sweet Jesus died to give me, doesn't depend on circumstanaces. it is always there, always there in my heart together with Jesus. (: because He loves to see me smile.
Father i thank You for everything and everyone in my life today. (: truly, i am prosperous. truly, i am blessed. truly, i am favoured and loved. ((:
Ephesians 1:18-23
18 i pray that your hearts be flooded with light so that you can understand the wonderful future He has promised to those He called. i want you to realise what a rich and glorious inheritance He has given to His people.
19 i pray that you will begin to understand the incredible greatness of His power for us who believe Him. this is the same mighty power
20 that raised Christ from the dead and seated Him in the place of honour at God's right hand in the heavenly realms.
21 now He is far above any ruler or authority or power of leader or anything else in this world or in the world to come.
22 and God has put al things under the authority of Christ, and He gave Him this authority for the benefit of the church.
23 and the church is His body; it is filled by Christ, who fills everything everywhere with His presence.
my Daddy has promised me a bright and glorious future, and my Daddy is One who cannot lie. (:
2 Corinthians 12:9
9 each time He said, "my gracious favour is all you need. my power works best in your weakness." so now i am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may work through me.
((: my Daddy's gracious favour is mine for the taking. always.
1 Corinthians 1:27-29
27 instead, God deliberately chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. and He chose those who are powerless to shame those who are powerful.
28 God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important,
29 so that no one can ever boast in the presence of God.
failing doesn't make me a failure. Jesus is my one and only true success, always and forever.
(: oh see His heart of love towards me, see His overflowing heart of love. love for me. ((:
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:47 AM
when i felt like all hope was gone
when my heart was so broken, so torn
when noone saw the tears at night
when i really couldn't see the light
You broke through my night
You fought my fight
You carried me through
always holding me tight
how do i begin to thank You
how do i begin to express
all the gratitude deep down in my heart
You know i never want us to be apart
so hold me now
and wipe away my tears
teach me to feel again
teach me to hope
bring me higher
as we conquer together
it's just You and me
Jesus
just You and me
WE WILL DANCE ; 1:11 AM
i don't know what to do anymore, and i don't know what to feel. i only know that my Daddy dearest loves me. i just need some time. please be patient with me. i just need time.
but i still believe everything will be alright.
i have Jesus.
oh Daddy. help me smile.
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:15 PM
today i learnt that you don't always have to see eye-to-eye to be great friends.
today i learnt that i think too much.
today i learnt that my sweet Jesus is really all i'll ever need.
today i learnt that noone can satisfy me, make me happy, love me, make me so contented, give me true security. noone but my Jesus.
today i learnt that i am really too precious to be taken for granted.
today i learnt that i should really start to treasure myself for being me, because i am precious the way i am.
today i learnt that Jesus really does love me.
today i learnt to appreciate the people around me a little more than i did yesterday.
today i learnt that it is not that hard to let go, because my Jesus, the One who loves me and only me, has gone before me.
today i learnt to slow down a little more.
today i learnt the power of words. the power of MY words.
today i learnt to give out of love.
today i learnt that nothing can defeat or destroy me. nothing can break me, because everything can only make me stronger.
today i learnt to listen.
today i learnt that with Jesus, all my walls come tumbling down and i have nothing to fear.
today, i learnt to learn. and i am thankful. ((:
myJesus,myOneandOnly.
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:23 PM
YOU'VE GONE BEFORE ME
i will not be afraid
i will not be dismayed
i am not alone
Your rod and staff they comfort me
i cannot be defeated
i cannot be destroyed
i am not alone
my God You are with me
my God You're with me
i'm standing in You
believing in You
i see the walls come tumbling down
my God You've gone before me
to save and restore me
i know the battle belongs to You
You are the fortress that i run to
You are the Rock in which i stand
You are the shelter through the tempest
You are the hope in which i stand
((: i just love this song. (: my everything is nothing when compared to You, Daddy. (: it's all done for me, and indeed, You have gone before me. (:
LOVE.
every week i do the same thing, over and over again, until it's a routine, and i am reminded of what we used to have, which might have been nothing in the first place. but it's abit hard to forget. Jesus i need You.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:25 AM
eeyerrrrr... YOU THINK YOU WHO.
lol okayy enough. =D ANYWAYS. work was good. ((: praise Jesus for everything man.
ohright. i lost my inspiration to blog. -_-
another time. RARR.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:36 AM
will blog about crazy O soon, when i find the time to do so and when SPalex and everyone else sends the photos over..
will be leaving for work quite soon. facilitating for ping yi sec. barry's doing the Start Right talk. oh my hat lah.. it's really at the other end of the world for me..
HAHA a few more stops would be pasir ris then i can go and visit johnathan and shawnie prawnie lah.. oh man! now i know how they felt the other day while going back from my place.. hahaha!
anyhow. i think i slept my monday away since i couldn't go out. =( but i guess it was a good thing. (steve! the fatigue has finally worn off!)
okayy. please pray for favour. HAHA because i'm abit blur about later. but oh well. all of Jesus none of bok. (:
that's how i always want it to be. (:
ohhkayyy. maybe the fatigue hasn't worn off yet!! AHH. i am still tired for no reason! haiyohh.
hurhurr. hallelujah.
okay my sentences don't link at all. perhaps i should go and freshen up. bathe in COLD water!! woohooo! *put ice* HAHA siao!
okokbyelahbyelah.
WE WILL DANCE ; 6:07 PM
it is an ungodly hour and i shall let the randomness take over.
` crazy olympics was really crazy but i seriously enjoyed myself with all the cheering even though the four of us didn't participate in any games. ((: THANKS GUYS FOR BEING SO EXCELLENT!
` you see, i told you i think too much.
` yeah, i don't need to wait for anything because even though all things may not be good, they will still work out for my good.
` some people never change?
` teeheehee ben and jerry's chunky monkey! ohhh clarissa i love you. ((:
` I WANT MY DATE WITH JING AND GUAN TO COME NOW. NOW NOW NOW. =D
` i need my tan.. i feel so pale. HAHA.
` baking please? (: samm, des, guan, ding. the original four bakers, right? hurhurr! umm. chocolate pie?
` haaa i want my new white shirt.
` super excited for my first facilitating job this tuesday. (as in it isn't the races of X-istence)
` oh HAHA ding you weren't there when i saw steve's-handsome-friend. and and and wiggly-fingers-man!!
` ((: yeah. being happy is a choice.
` i want to let my hair down and run in the rain again!
` HAHA derrick!! pork chops right! super kuku lah. and still try to con people somemore!! =D
` i want to know You more. (: reveal more of You, Lord, until all of me is hidden in all of You.
` ehhh i realised 921 hasn't been cam-whoring for so super long it feels weird. haha! not just 921, but everyone! cameras pls! =D
` i want big sunflowers.
` too see Your lovely face ever before my eyes, this is my prayer, make it my one desire. (: that in my secret heart, no other love compete, no rival throne survive and i serve only You.
` i want to lead worship for cg more! (: it's been so long..
` don't lose it. =)
` in pastures green You lead me down to lie. by waters still i shall abide. (:
` steve is right. fatigue doens't wear out so easily. hehe.. i should sleep more. ENERGIZER BATTERY IS ENERGIZING NOW, WE GO OOH YEAH, YIPPIE YIPPIE YEAH!
ohhkayy Miss Bok is off now. (:
BOOM DYNAMTIE.
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:14 PM
don't need to wait for the sun to shine
don't need to wait for the clouds to clear
i'll still sing
i know that my God You're so good
don't need to wait for the waves to still
don't need to wait for the storms to calm
i'll still sing
i know that my God You're so good
i praise You
You are for me
i praise You
yes You love me
i praise You
You are faithful
i praise You
You'll see me through
Your goodness, Your mercy, shall follow me all my days
yupps. i'll still sing. (: all may not be good but everything will work out for my good and i can have a hope because i have my Jesus.
i know i don't understand, but neither do you mom. oh well.. it is still my heart's desire to be the best daughter for you. always has been.
WE WILL DANCE ; 6:04 AM
ahh. (: taking a short break from making the cheers thingy. =) i'm enjoying it, but at the same time i am really really tired.. haha!
oh Jesus.. i seriously need You to teach me personally to STOP PROCASTINATING. hehehe.. =x whoops. but yes, i reeeaallllyyyyy need to learn that. =D You should know best yah.
so anyways.. was abit sad actually, because today's the last day we help the tapes ministry and i've become quite "attached" to them!
(: somehow i just love the stock-taking and slotting the CDs into their packets and everything!
hahah when i told patricia i'd like to come down more often to help cos i really enjoy it, she kinda looked at m as if i were mad. LOL. =D
so anyways. (: THANKS guan and jing. ((: once again, you princesses make my life ever so beautiful. (:
thanks for the fun, thanks for the open-ness, thanks for being so real, thanks for the silly jokes and the laughing-at-alex-because-he-is-just-too-CPSM-for-words. (:
haha i seriously need sleep. =D whooops. oh and Jesus, teach me personally about BETTER TIME MANAGEMENT as well. teeheehee!
like, i KNOW that today's gonna be along day, but i still stay up all night the night before.. haha and because i procastinated, once again i won't be getting half the necessary today.
=p eeheehee! aiyahh.. =) just thank God for new mercies every morning okay! hahaha! yeah, i'm someone who seriously needs all that mercy and more. (:
OKAYY I AM JUST SSOOOO UNDESERVING, BUT SO WHAT!! BECAUSE OF GRACE, THE BAD THAT I DESERVE I DON'T GET, AND THE GOOD THAT I DON'T DESERVE, I GET IN SUCH ABUNDANCE THAT PEOPLE CAN'T HELP BUT BE AMAZED. ((:
and all that is true because i have Jesus. =D
jealous already? AHAHAHAH.
okayy back to work now! actually it's not really 'work' lah, because i'm enjoying it. and it makes me smile because it makes me think of how great my tomorrow will be. (:
nooneelsebutYou
cosonlyYoucansatisfy
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:00 AM
you know, i'm so excited! indeed this is MY year of acceleration! =D come, run with me!
i was just listening to Sara Groves. (heehee yes she's really good) you know how in my last post i said that i realised being a leader isn't about you shining for yourself..
and that the thing is that you push those under you up above, so that they shine right.
well, remember the Sara Grove song! we are the moon, with no light on our own. i cannot shine without You, noone can.
which just, when put simply, means that leaders are just those who are ever pushing you to see more of Jesus, pointing you back to Him when you lose your footing at times.
heehee. ((: oh wells, that's just what i have gotten fresh. (: MORE MORE JESUS I WANT MORE!
yes, i have great expectations, and i know beyond the shadow of a doubt that You will exceed them ALL. (: and by so much more.
and truly, NEVER underestimate the power of prayer. you might think that your prayer is not as good as, say, coach angie or like andy or han or whoever.
but then you're forgetting the fact that you have a Jesus, a sweet perfect Jesus, who is even right now at the right hand of God making intercession FOR YOU. (:
FOR YOU leh!! do you know how exciting that is? at least for me lah, if you're not excited.. i really am.
to know that whatever prayers i make become PERFECT prayers, to know that because they are perfect they WILL be answered. i don't know about you but it comforts my heart.
(: it makes me happy because i know that i am far from perfect, and that the prayers that i make in and of myself are bound to be.. lousy. reeaaalllyy lousy. =D
IF it were that God only chose to answer good prayers, mine will surely be the last on earth that He will ever want to pick lor.
BUT!! Jesus, MY INTERCESSOR, is sitting beside God now. and you know all the prayers that i make? ((: Jesus sits there and takes out all the bad and the lousy and the un-needed parts.
(: but you know, He doesn't stop there! after taking out the yucky stuff, He adds His fragrance, His perfection to it. ((:
that is why when God sees my prayers, it is the perfect prayer, but only because Jesus first did all that! (:
heehee i just love my sweet Jesus. thank You, my Daddy dearest. (: i really really love You too.
oh my Lord, i am HUNGRY FOR MORE. i will not let the boundaries of humanity hold me back anymore.
it's You and You alone.
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:48 PM
thank You, Daddy dearest, for such a wonderful time of fellowship with GUAN and JING. ((: these are two sisters whom i really hold so dear to my heart.
princesses. (: i am so glad that you were willing enough to just allow me to sit there and cry my eyes out, because at that moment, it was really what i needed.
i thought that i could just make myself busy with everything and forget all this, but nahh. it just got me more tired than ever.
to bottle up your feelings is one of the worst things that a person can go through (at least, to me).
and i am just so glad that the two of you were there. i know that it is not coincidental, but God-incidental. i couldn't think of better people that i could have shared with.
(: thank you for sharing with me too. i really feel very honoured, that you would trust me enough to reveal your heart to me. (:
by His grace, i will be here for the two of you always, just as how you have been here for me. (: thank you ssoooo much. (:
love-always. =)
so anyhows i've finally realised that being a leader is really all about washing the feet of others. and it's something that comes naturally too, when you really get the revelation.
i finally understand that it's not about you shining as the leader, but more of you pushing up those who are under you, so that they shine. and who cares if the world doesn't see me.
who cares if they don't appreciate. that's what i'm there for, and i will do it willingly. and oh the joy it brings to see them shining with such glory. (:
to my darling cheers comm :
even though this was such a small thing, to me, it wasn't. and i'm really glad that i got the chance to wash your feet. it is my privilege and my pleasure. (:
you know, i have seen such favour being poured forth from this small little cheers comm. ((: it's just overflowing, and i'm really glad. (:
yupps. Jesus will preserve our voices (though actually sometimes i think it's quite fun to lose your voice) (hahah oh man. i must be mad..) and He will honour the time and effort that you put into all this. (:
love all of you man! i'd be super happy if we get to work together again in future! (:
so anyways. see, there really IS power and protection in fellowship. it is just so uplifting.
and i am glad that Han pointed out to us the importance of sharing about God-stuff and not just silly things and jokes. because now i am really benefiting from all of it.
(: i tell you, no teh tarik session is ever just a plain teh tarik session. it is always powerful and impactful in some way or another. it just depends on how you choose to look at it.
yes, POA might still be a little scary for me, but i know that He has promised me that He will never let me be put to shame. and my Father cannot lie.
(: and yes, jing. (: POA stands for Power Of Annointing. ((: thank you sweetie. (:
it's not that He doesn't want to lie, but He cannot. He simply is not able to speak anything that is not true. which means, i will really never ever be put to shame.
He is my glory, the lifter of my head. when He is the One who holds my head high, all i will see is the blue skies (blue speaks of grace) and all the happy sunshine (i like to see that as glory).
i will never look down and see all the shadows (to me, trials and problems), i will never look down and see the dust (human effort).
oohh wow! =D that's really fresh from heaven. ((: thank You, Daddy! ((: more and more, as i hide myself in You. (:
okayy so anyways. stock-taking with the tapes ministry today was very enjoyable indeed! (:
yes steve, i had a great time working with you! ((: thanks man. heehee. beef horfun. HAHA. (: chicken rice. hahah and your non-existent currypuff which in the end became a spring roll. =D
i'm glad i took the time out to help. (: i can just see so much favour from all of this as well. ((: well yes, truly, grace greatly abounds.
thank you, patricia and ailing, for being ever so patient with us, and for being so caring and for looking after us. (: even for bothering to remember our names! (: and thank you for the little lunch break. ((: that was really sweet! (:
oh well. (: what can i say. Daddy i am just really so thankful for you. i am really glad that i have You in my life. (: thank You for making my life so beautiful. (:
yes Lord, only You. ((:
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:56 AM
YOU ARE THE SUN - Sara Grooves
You are the sun
shining down on everyone
light of the world
giving light to everything i see
beauty so brilliant
i can hardly take it in
and everywhere You are
is warmth and light
and i am the moon
with no light on my own
still You have made me to shine
and as i glow in this cold dark night
i know i can't be a light
unless i turn my face to You
shine on me with Your light
without You i'm a cold dark stone
shine on me, i have no light of my own
You are the sun
You are the sun
You are the sun
and i am the moon
oh man! this song is just so so grace and so so so nice!!! i have her whole album in my laptop now. if any of you want it, just tell me k. ((:
i'm serious leh!! i mean, this is just ONE song. you should just hear all the rest!! sisterhood and i are now in love with her. or rather, her music. eeheehee. ((:
"redemption comes in strange places, small spaces, calling out the best of who we are"
"and this is grace, an invitation to be beautiful"
(: see, i told you so. this is just so beautiful man. how come we never knew of Sara Grooves before!! oh my~ her songs are really beautiful, and they're so grace. ((:
yes, we'd just be cold dark stones without Him, but He found us and polished us, and made us into beautiful, precious and valuable gems to shine for Him!! shine with His light, not with light of our own!
oh my gosh i'm just getting so excited!! can you see it? can you just see it!! all the beautiful truths somewhat hidden in her songs. =) it's just so beautiful. ((:
and yes, i know it's going to be alright. ((:
okayy i need to go and bathe and everything before i leave for dinner and choir prac. =) people!! go and get Sara Grooves!! it's the album called Add to the Beauty. ((:
OKAY BYE.
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:52 AM
yes yes yes i'm blogging again. hehh so sorry but the boredom's just really getting to me. ehh perhaps next time i should just start working immediately huh..
oh Daddy.. only You know how badly i really want to go for LDW. only You will understand my frustrations. and only You will never ever shortchange me.
oh Daddy dearest.. help me to see things the way my leaders do, and help me to enjoy choir practice tmr even though now i'm still abit bitter about this. (oops)
but Daddy i believe that You have better plans.no matter what, i will choose to honour my leaders, and You will honour me. (: thank You for understanding k. it really means alot to me.
and Daddy, help me to remember that the LDW is not the only place that i can learn and recieve. You also will teach me personally, and You will come down to my level and be ever so patient with me.
You will never leave me stranded. and i thank You, Daddy, for teaching me patience, and for giving me a bigger and more understanding heart. i love You and i thank You so much for loving me. ((:
anyways i had a great day at valen's place today. (: heehee i do miss my meatbun girl alot. =D yesyes valen, headache!!! hahah. (:
oh well. once again Daddy, remind me that You will NEVER shortchange me. ever. so i should just stop being bitter than i can't go for LDW already. aiyahh. -_-
okayokaygoodnightbyebye. (:
REPLIES TO TAGS *
ms cherri-perfect-ann : oh princess. (: that is just so sweet. ((: ahhh why do we have to serve different shifts man. =( oh wells. anyways dearie, i'm really glad for you in my life as well. (: SEE YOU AT CHOIR PRAC!!! =D
renn : alrights babe. =) will do so soon enough. hehh.
jing : ((: thanks for always encouraging me sweetie. you really mean alot to me even though sometimes i know that i do take you for granted. but seriously, i'm so thankful that Daddy let us cross paths. and yes, next week the few of us babes must go out, and then we'll organise a cg outing!! blindmice!!! =DDD LOVE.
kimm : my darling royal twinny! ((: ohh i really miss you alot!! we MUST go out together soon. ((: with esther too yeah? ((: love you many many! =)
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:49 AM
taken from semm's blog!
true - bold
i wish it were true - blue
I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. (glasses)
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (usually)
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor evrywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes. (very seldom)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast/unclear. (sometimes)
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling. (two)
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look. (LOVE)
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings. (not alot, but i do have them)
I have a hidden talent tummie show.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. (unless something bad happened)
I have a lot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future. (guy-girl twins!)
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. (love it)
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I study for tests most of the time. (but last minute!!)
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the wrong people.
I adore bright colours. (green, pink, orange...)
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse. (ridden)
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (sometimes)
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical, the better.
I collect alot of dust on my books.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I have ridden an elephant.
I love chocolates & crowns!
I am really emotional! (depends)
oh this just shows how bored i am. lalalalaxzxzxzxz~~~ byebye! and oh yes, i will be blogging super regularly for the next 7 weeks lah. =D unless being a teacher takes up too much of my time. heeheehee!
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:17 AM
(: Daddy, you really never fail to surprise me. ((:
you know, i like when people share their problems with me you know, not because then i'd feel so big about knowing that "oh man you're stil having that problem?? grow up won't you??"
but it's because when they share with me, and i let the Holy Spirit in me talk to them, not only do they learn something, but i learn too!
((: and it just excites me to know that there really is something so full of heavenly righteous wisdom in me. ((:
Daddy dearest, only You can know what this dear princess is going through now, and only You know how hurt she really is. Daddy, help her to forget, Lord, and heal her hurt. (: love her, Daddy, in a way that she can appreciate. (:
princess. you know you are precious. friends can really piss you off sometimes, i know, because i've pissed quite alot of my friends off at one point in time or another. (oops!) but you know you still love them. ((: and Daddy still loves you. nothing's ever gonna change that, dearie. and nobody can take that from you. nobody. ((: i love you man!! =D
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:04 AM