you know today, as pastor was praying for us after the service and all, it suddenly felt as if God was letting me watch a movie.
i swear it's the best movie i've seen in my life.
i saw that scene in The Passion, where Jesus was hanging on the cross, bleeding and beaten beyond form of recognition, crying out, "My God, My God, why have You forsaken me?"
and you know how it is in movies when they show a scene that happens concurrently to the scene that they just showed?
concurrently to Jesus hanging on the cross, i saw God, ripping out the gates of hell like how samsom ripped out the gates of the philistines. i then saw new meaning to the phrase "the gates of hell shall not prevail against us".
then, as the roman soldier poked his spear into the side of Jesus and the water splashed out onto his face, God smashed the gates of hell on the ground and commanded with a voice that was full of victory, "LET MY PEOPLE GO!"
"but He brought His people safely out of egypt, loaded with silver and gold; there were no sick or feeble people among them." psalm105:37
:) haha thank you samson for sharing your story!
WE WILL DANCE ; 6:01 AM
so i remember one night, i think about a year ago, i was lying in brother's bed at about 4am, there about. he was in thailand i think, and his bed's just beside the window, which slide open so you can just push everything to one side and the opening gets really big and you can see almost the whole sky.
and i remember staring up at the sky and thinking to myself, golly, those people are right when they said that the sky is the darkest before dawn, cos by gum the sky was really pitch black!
and likewise, the only other time i remembered seeing that many stars in the sky was the time when the entire singapore had a blackout :) haa i remember that!! had to hold a huge candle and walk down twelve flights of stairs to fetch the sister :D
anyway :) i remember being inquisitive, probing God with questions about why He had to make it such that the sky is darkest before dawn, why not a few hours before, why SO dark, why this why that why to everything about the issue.
wasn't really expecting an answer because i thought it was just some random question floating around in my brain, the retorical kind which you think of just cos you're bored those kind.
but suddenly it's like i could literally hear a voice whispering in my ear, not that it wa creepy or anything but yeah, woah.
and it said (not exactly but as best as i can remember) that the sky is always darkest before dawn so that i'd be able to see the beauty of the sunrise to its fullest extent, to see the complete drama of His art work :)
for me to know that, at the darkest points of times in my life, all i ever have to do is to lift my head high, and i'll see a sky full of stars, full of the Lord's promises for me and toward me, to remind me that hope is still and always will be there.
in fact, i realised, i don't even try with my own efforts to lift my head up high, because in psalms it is promised to me that Daddy Himself is the Lifter of my head :) the One who holds my head high.
isn't my Jesus so beautiful? :))
WE WILL DANCE ; 3:31 AM
:) my favourite verse for now.
thanks Daddy, for 'forcing' me to read my daily devotions :D heheh You knew how much i need it, every single day. thanks man!
Isaiah 55:11
So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; it shall not return to Me void, but it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.
:) thank You Daddy, You even remember the prayers that i forget, the prayers that i think will never come true, the prayers that i even lost faith in.
actually come to think of it, prayer is talking to God. and you know how powerful that is? doesn't matter where, doesn't matter when, doesn't even matter why. God hears, God knows, God remembers, God fulfills.
and in fact He doesn't just make it come to pass, because the Bible says that "it shall prosper" and yeah, that basically means that everything i tell God will happen and will be fulfilled in a really really really goooood way.
it's mind-blowing to think how a God so big and so magnificent would actually come down to my level just to talk to me, just to hear my prayers.
do you even know how much i actually mean to Him, for Him to do all this just for me? do you know how much He loves me for my words to mean so much to Him that He would actually remember them?
come on. it's like, as much as i love the favouritest of my kids, i know i'm definitely not the best teacher, and as best as i want to love them, many times i don't even remember alot of things about them.
but think about it. i'm not a perfect teacher but God is the epitomy of Perfection! there is a reason to why He is called the Lord of Lords and the King of Kings you know!
and can you imagine? once the word goes forth from your mouth, God hears and keeps it in His memory. even the softest sigh or the littlest comment, the smallest complaint. everything. He hears everything.
i don't even listen to everything my mom says! or my closest friend, or favourite kid.
:) and He understands me.
how amazing can this get right? how cool can this God be?
sometimes we wait so long just to see one dream come true, and when it finally comes true we're so thrilled, so happy, so.. refreshed. as if your faith just soared to greater heights.
can you imagine, if you get so happy at your dream finally coming true, what about Daddy, who has been the One planning the surprise all along?
i mean, i really honestly love planning surprises for people, or even making them little gifts or cards just to see their happy faces when they recieve the gift :)
even though it takes time to complete the card or takes money to get the present and stuff like that, it makes me happy why? only because i know how happy the reciever of the gift will be :)
and throughout the process of making the card/present i get really excited too, just thinking about the person you're gonna give it too, just picturing the smile on that person's face.
how about God!
God, who is altogether lovely, who is perfect in every action deed thought and motive, who is perfect love, who is totally and completely for me, who is head over heels in love with me, who gave up His very Son for me.
can i even dare to begin imagining how happy GOD is when planning these small little surprises for me?
it's like His full time job! He spends all His time thinking of the next way to bless me, the next way to make me happy, the next dream of mine that He can fulfill for me, the next way He can prosper me.
if i, being imperfect, know how to be happy in seeing someone else happy, HOW MUCH MORE GOD! and i am the object of His love leh!!
:) o Lord! want You to know You make me happy :) hahahahahha :)
thank You Daddy for Isaiah55:11.
:) THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!
WE WILL DANCE ; 6:57 AM
I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At Your word Lord
I receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep
And I remember
How You found me
In that very same place
All my failings
Surely would have drowned me
Still You made a way
You are my freedom
Jesus You’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life
Here in my life
You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds the
Way to freedom
Truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life
And I remember
How You saw me
Through the eyes of Your grace
Though the cost was
Your Beloved for me
Still You made a way
thank You Lord, because i don't know what else to say, don't know what else to do, but one thing i do know, one thing i know for certain, is that You have made a way for me.
that much i know.
when noone else knows how i feel, Your love for me is proven real. and that's true freedom.
WE WILL DANCE ; 4:43 AM