Saturday, April 30, 2005 ;

sigh. yesterday i tried to blog, [or was it the day before?] but there was something wrong with blogger. was so angry man. (: but i wanted to blog lah, so i blogged on my friendster blog. you guys can check it out if you want. (:

anyways, i suddenly forgot what i wanted to say.


*oh please don't go.
let me have you
just one moment more.
oh all i need,
all i want is
just one moment more..

is that too much to ask?



WE WILL DANCE ; 7:10 AM




Tuesday, April 26, 2005 ;

okay. damn pissed off. some bad mean baba went to tag on joy dearie's board and said she was a bitch and whatever nonsense. using my name! like what lah!

but oh wells.

"vengeance is mine, says the Lord."

bleh. whatever taht person lah. she's the bitch man.

hurhur i went swimming alone today. cos i didnt manage to wake up to meet sam and guan.. [oops] hee. sorry lah.. =( i know you all still love me one. (:

but yah. after that went to westmall. (: bought my strawberry ice blended, heh. nice! then fun and blim came and we had dinner.

after that they went home and i went shopping with sam. (: love her lah! hee.

anyways, past few days have been great too. jamming.. blah. (: i got to eat m&m peanuts. woohoo!! star wars one leh. [like so haughty lor.. nonsense.]

wahh i bought goggles today. so cheap manz! $10 only lor! thats less than peanuts to me. but its quite good quality lah. ((:

anyways, i'm going to the library quite abit nowadays. (: reading is good for you! wheee! (: and i love living in jurong. super for shopping! ((:

*babes. beach alert. we must go soon! (: hurhur.

i want to drink packet milo. :)

i think i might be going out with my sis later. ((: yay. i shall try updating more often. (:

WE WILL DANCE ; 9:33 PM




Sunday, April 24, 2005 ;

I love Eleanor Tan Yi Ling so much! ((:

WE WILL DANCE ; 10:30 PM






((: in my absence of blogging i have been enjoying life like whatever. ((: yes. i
am blessed.

and i know that i'm blessed even though i may never be "good enough" for them. that's their problem.

i really enjoy spending time with Np cg Dare graduates. and of course the
whole Np cg lah.. (: hurhur.

but i do miss the old "gang". ALOT.

i feel so loved by the church. ((: auntie anne's pretzels for lunch. (: in the two best flavours - sour cream and onion and cinnamon sugar.

haix. i know i'm righteous despite the screaming of stfu in the face of the weird
old foreign man living in my house.

[i dont wanna go somewhere if i know that You're not there.]

Jesus really loves me. i'm thankful.

WE WILL DANCE ; 10:13 PM




Saturday, April 23, 2005 ;

belleee
ding
sam
guan
beishan
fun
becks

thanks Daddy for blessing me. (: i love my Np cg too, and everyone i know. thank You AbbaFather. ((:



WE WILL DANCE ; 1:15 AM






Devotional from kenneth copeland website, April 19
Be of Good Cheer

"And now I exhort you to be of good cheer."–(Acts 27:22)

What do you do when you're in a really perilous situation?If you're like I used to be, you cry out to God in desperation.

One afternoonwhen I was squalling to God about something, He interrupted me and said,"Kenneth, did you know I don't hear the cry of My children when they cry out indesperation?"

"What?" I said. "I thought you did."

He said, "No, I hear the desperation cry of a sinner because that's all he can cry about. But once you get born again, son, you ought to be crying out of faith. I hear the faith cry."

What is a faith cry? It's calling things that be not as though they were (Rom.4:17). It's what the Bible means when it says, "Let the weak say, I am strong"(Joel 3:10).

The Apostle Paul knew how to use the faith cry. That's why in Acts 27 he exhorted the men on that battered, sinking ship to "be of good cheer." He was telling them to start acting by faith. Can't you imagine what those sailors thought when he said that?

"Listen to that stupid preacher. We're sinking and he says be of good cheer. We've thrown everything we have overboard and he says be of good cheer."

You may feel just like those sailors did, right now. You may feel like your ship's going down. You may feel like crying out in desperation. But don't do it.

Instead, do what Paul said and be of good cheer! Cry out to God in faith and say, "Lord, I'm not going to panic. I'm not going to despair. I'm going to be of good cheer because Your Word says You'll deliver mefrom this situation" (Ps. 34:19).

Then start being cheerful. It may take more determination than anything you've ever done before, but God will give you the strength to do it. He'll give you the power to be cheerful in the middle of the most ungodly darkness the devil an bring up.

Instead of crying out in desperation, take a faith stand. Sing and rejoice and praise God for your deliverance. Be of good cheer and you can be sure God will bring you through the storm just fine!

one of my choir leaders' forwarded this to me. ((: yups, so all you beloveds, be of good cheer. we are God's elites, His precious chosen ones. (: smile today.

i lurve Np caregroup. (:

WE WILL DANCE ; 1:00 AM




Saturday, April 16, 2005 ;

dentist: woah.. this is the biggest cavity that i've ever seen,
that i've ever seen, i've ever seen..

patient: okay i get your point! you don't have to keep repeating
it.

dentist: i wasn't repeating. that was the echo.

mans. i don't know why.. i woke up at 8am exactly this morning, and after that i just couldn't get back to sleep. =( i'm quite tired leh.

i shall take an hours nap now, and wake up in time to catch kim possible!! ((: hee. go kp! i love ron stoppable and rufus the naked mole rat! (: hur.

WE WILL DANCE ; 3:58 PM




Friday, April 15, 2005 ;

it would be nice nice to have these songs in s cd. ((:

MCFLY
all about you

lifehouse
you and me

jesse mccartney
beautiful soul

yellowcard
only one

kelly clarkson
breakaway

kelly clarkson
since you've been gone

bowling for soup
almost

darius
live twice

good charlotte
i just wanna live

bowling for soup
i'm just a kid [is it by them?]

skye sweetnam
tangled up in me

ryan cabrera
true

lindsay lohan
over

busted
who's david

3 doors down
let me go

gwen stefani
rich girls

WE WILL DANCE ; 5:08 AM




Sunday, April 10, 2005 ;

wo bai tian shi mugger, wan shang shi bugger. __*

i dunno why recently i just like to use small font. anyways, damn tired.. i fell asleep during service just now, and i realised that it was the most peaceful sleep i've had since thursday.

since thursday i was having this weirdee sto-ma-chee problems.. dunno what baba nonsense lah. anything also cannot eat, cannot drink. then its damn pain lah.. seriously damn damn pain. took painkiller [the strong kind] also no help manz..

i was like.. wah laoz.. then i vomitted like how many neh neh times.. -_-" waste plastic!! haha cos i keep using plastic bag.. whahah!! non-biodegradable lehz.. sze sze sze!

yah, whatever bok. then i was having very little sleep lor.. like only can sleep one two hours kind. if not i will just lie in bed to minimise movement cos if not more pain. (: hurhur..

but saturday i was much better.. praise the Lord man! went for combined service. was so blessed.. (:

wells.. praise God i'm serving 3rd 4th for this quarter. just when i needed lots of rest. (: heh. its draining okay! not being able to eat or drink.. )= hurhur. farnie bee..

yups. anyway hor. actually tha papa roti is nice lah. just that, asher, i think the other time we take that one they anyhow make lah. cos today they bought for us again, then this one nicer ehh! yah.. woah piangs.. theres was 5 plastics bags lefts overs eh! hahahah!!

so yeah.. somemore saturday night.. cldnt get to sleep at all leh! until abt 6am? sian manz. since thurs no proper food and sleep. hahaha.. piangz. fierce can!

so yah. i go sleep now lor. =) happieness is being a nice boks of chocs. (: i'm the boks, Jesus in me is the chocs. ((: heh i just got that from Daddy. (:

[Daddy, i just thot of You. ((: ]

WE WILL DANCE ; 11:46 PM




Tuesday, April 05, 2005 ;

sze sze sze.. i do not like this. my mama needed the windows to be done, so she called this company lah. then you know.. those "workers" [nothing against them, really.] are usually those ah bengZ kind..

sze sze sze.. so even now as i type, my house is full of ah bengZ. hurhurhur. okay so maybe not full of them.. but you know.. in that sense. and because of the construction, there's a whole lot of banging and drilling.. and that horrible 'burnt rubber' smell which i so totally hate.

and also, cos they're doing all the windows on the left side of the house, they can see each other once they pop their heads out of the windows. so, being typically "ah beng" [once again, no offence..] , they think it fun to pop theyir heads out of the windows and shout across to each other.

like double you tee eff..? heh. how considerate at ten o'clock in the morning huh. the worst part? they're "ah bengZ".. [no offence. heh.] i mean.. eeeeyer.. i dont like them in my house, really.

they cannot walk past me without staring. what's up with that man!! like seriously.. haiyer. and we actually have to pay for their services. gosh.

my gawd! my mom just said the dumbest thing ever! like, ever!! [in bitchy slang] she told me that those "ah bengZ" kept staring at me and asked me if i smiled at them.

excuse me, mom. that is an insult, to the max! like hello.. totally man. sometimes i just so do not get parents. come on lah! they're so uncouth! eeee.. my gosh..

i cant believe this. its just gross. and they even want to charge their phones in my house! like wth!! you're supposed to be working here.. sigh.. and i havent had breakfast yet.. [whines..] heh.

anyways, i didnt go blading ytd.. :( a fact for which i truly regret.. i dont know. i just couldn't drag myself out of bed - again. i know not why. sigh. but in any case my feet were not hurting.. so yeah.

today should be going down to third place to nuah in the afternoon/evening.. taboo! ((: and thursday, movie marathon at beeleeem's!! yayness!

anyhoos. damn those people are sucksers! they are smoking in my home. what. they think just because they're workin here they own the place? hell no! wah lao eh. this is damn shitty lah.

yucks.. -_-" the guy walk past and smile at me..! okay so my mom is insisting on sitting here with me. i shall blog again mater or sth. sigh.

to hell with "ah bengZ"!!! BLAH!!

WE WILL DANCE ; 10:19 AM




Monday, April 04, 2005 ;

everytime i try to walk normally i tear the wound on my heels, which explains why they "aren't healing". so maybe i shall just hobble around until they "really heal". sigh. they hurt alot. :(

wait. everyone knows i'm already healed right? i was just saying that cos it sounded funny. but yeah, i am healed. ((: more than you know.

WE WILL DANCE ; 6:30 PM






i was just reading shuying's blog, the entry about mryong leaving for cambodia, and it did remind me about the time we went to send jo dearie off.

and yes, shuying, the airport is cold. it is heartless. and yes, there's a blueness that lingers. its just a sad place. and i don't like it much.

but seriously, is it really just part and parcel of life to have people you really love and treasure just leave like that? is it something you really have to leave behind?

i hate when people leave, even if its for a short time, cos you can never be sure that things will be the same when they come back. its just so scary.

i, too, saw jo trying her best to be strong, trying not to show that she really was hurting inside. and that only made it hurt more.

after reading shuying's entry my mind went kinda blank. its like i felt so much but couldn't express anything in words. maybe i kinda wished i had been a nicer person..

*anyhow.. i dont know if this is some kind of cruel joke. but he isn't home. why..? i know you're hurting, but we all are. why are you making everything so hard?

WE WILL DANCE ; 3:13 PM




Sunday, April 03, 2005 ;

well. blading tomorrow, okay so maybe cycling, depending on my feet. but still, alot of fun. ((: and much more bonding. praise the Lord, my feet are fine. thank You Jesus, for a great time today. and Daddy, why don't You do valen a favour? ((: no more english tuition please. hur. yups, i'm off. ((:

*i make my Jesus smile.

WE WILL DANCE ; 10:05 PM