i can't wait for the CNY break :)

wednesday's a half day, thursday and friday are off, then weeekend here we come! :D and then you know what, the monday after that is off too because the centre is closed :)

time to sleep until Mr. Sun shines down with a vengeance on my butt!
time to watch dumb B-grade movies on HBO starmovies cinemax till late!
time to have nice dinners which can stretch to any time :D
time to visit the grampys again!
timet to get a tan maybe
time to take nice slow strolls around the neighbourhood
time to shop man!
time to maybe do a sleepover :p there's always time for a sleepover..
time to do my nails again
time to buy new pillows! i want the softy kind ok.
time to bake muffins hee
time to go out and just do nothing! man that sounds good.

ok. it's just five and a half days :D hahahahaha but a break is always good :) yes, a break will do me good. a break will do me good. romans828. a break would be good :)

if you would just..
let your guard down
see the beauty
taste the sweetness
of unending glory

if you would just..
let your hair down
feel the cool wind
love with a freedom,
you would be soaring

if you would just..
let it go now
dream with a passion
live to your fullest
know satisfaction

then maybe,
life would be beautiful
nothing would scare you
you would find refuge
you would find.. you.

o yes yes, like we so look forward to having our kids fall and hurt themselves too. we become teachers for the sole purpose of wanting to see them fall and get hurt. yes, we love to see children in pain.

like for heaven's sake, we spend more time with your child than you do. what makes you think we love them any less. scroo you man.

*lets out frustrated scream*

i wanted to stick the ear thermometer up your nostrils and sit you in front of the kid who sneezed and puked simultaneously. wah i really love you man. *&^%$!@#

anyway, me be the only one to had gotten a 'A' for the assignment i was last complaints about on mine multiply. many praise have be to our God. i knowed i sure to doesn't deserving got these result. amen.

it's times like these i really love the age old HA cheer where we as facils ask the campers if they're ready by yelling in a sing-song voice, "ARE YOUUU READDYYYYYYY" and the united yell comes back to you like, "EVERRRR READDYYYYYYY"

because yeah, i just asked myself if i was ready to face the year :D haha and the cheer was the first thing that came to my mind :)

sometimes things get sssoooooooo gooooooooood that it's just a tat bit freaky :) but in an awesometremendoustotallycantbelieveit way. you know how it sends shivers down your spine? haha am i the only one? or as cherri wanhua rach celeste say, "the bubbly feeling" :)

yesterday joy shared with us singers about making mistakes and what you do when you make one :D hahaahha we gave our answers but she said there was more. so to be honest i was huddled there expecting an answer so holy and biblical and spiritual that the rapture would take place when she told us what it was.

"laugh. just laugh at yourself."

haha it drove me crazy. i suddenly really understood what is meant by "power in simplicity" and it blew me away. i mean come on, let's all be really honest. who doesn't sometimes once in a while fall into thinking that the people you see on stage are actually more holy than you and stuff like that. come on.

hahahahha i admit that i do and so sometimes when i'm with them and i realise again that they're just like everyone else and they have like madcrazyfunamazingnormal sides to them, it makes me smile. we're all just as forgiven. ok how did i get to this..

so she said to laugh. so i laughed. ahahhahaha but after awhile when the Truth started to sink in, boy when it sets you free it really sets you free. i can't describe how free i felt! it's like i went mad at dinner.

but really :) so you make a mistake. and how does that compare to the entire worship session? how does it compare to your life? how does it compare to whatever's going on in the world right now?

IT'S SO SMALL!!!

okay for those in the band i guess you'd know. sometimes it's really easy to fall into condemnation when you make a mistake on stage because i think i just stumbled the entire arrow ministry and i just screwed up the whole worship and now i bet the entire arrow knows that i suck as a singer.

haha o come on man. as if they're looking at you. HAHA :D come on!! so you made a mistake :) well, it's not as if standing there condemning yourself is gonna undo the mistake right? it's not as if feeling guilty would make the mistake less wrong.

you play a wrong note. you sang totally off pitch. you tripped while dancing. maybe your heel broke! ahahahhaha okay that's actually damn funny. hahahahah maybe i won't wear heels next time just in case. haha haha :D

yeah :) just laugh it off. if the singer beside you saw, then laugh together lah! a member of the congregation saw? lagi best! laugh with him/her also! i mean after all, worship's meant to be enjoyable right. it's not as if we're all stressed up when we enter God's presence.

haha when the Truth started to settle in for me, suddenly it felt like total CHEEGABOOM inside. and i thought, hey why not right. it's so easy. and at least it feels better than going "wah shucks i was flat again" or like "o man. i have got to be the worst singer in the music ministry!"

yes, we practice. yes, we work on our songs and techniques. yes, we spend entire journies listening to one song on repeat mode to make sure we've got the lyrics imprinted on our very brains. yes, we study our songs!

but apart from all that, it's not that we're prophecyinghowtospell bad things into our lives, but come on lah. we will make mistakes one! so why be so hard on yourself when God isn't even blaming you?

goodness, i bet He was laughing too hard at the "o no" look on your face to even remember your mistake lah.

:) simple truths blow.my.mind like CHEEGABOOM!!!

and today! today pastor was sharing abit about isaac and ishmael right :D how ismael was a mistake. and suddenly i saw it. it made me so excited i almost stood up in the middle of service and screamed haaa :D

okay see.

ishmael = mistake
isaac = laughter

abraham and sarah thought they could do it by themselves and thus, ishmael(mistake) popped into their lives. but what happened after that? fire and brimstone? the ten plagues? (was it ten? haha)

no! after ishmael(mistake) came isaac(laughter). AND God promised to establish His covenant with isaac! hello :D are you getting it yet? hahahaha i don't know how else to explain.

and and okay i remembered that there's a verse in psalm which says something along the lines of having God anoint me with the oil of gladness above everyone else, so i just went to do a search online and guess what! i found three verses in the bible (so far lah haha maybe there's more but i haven't found) which speak of the oil of gladness!

Psalm 45:7 (New International Version)

hold me Dad
hold me like You'll never let go
cos i need to know

when it feels like
the whole world's against me
like the world's crashin down

that's when i need to know
i really need to know
that You'll never let me go

so hold me now
till i know
that it'll be alright again
hold me
and wipe away my tears

Psalm 34:19 (New Living Translation)