bowling is so fun lah. ((:
guitar is so fun lah. ((:
cooking is so fun lah. ((:
life is so fun lah. ((:
Jesus loves me. i look forward to a new day everyday cos i know every new day His glory unfolds, filling my eyes with His treasures untold.
at the same time, i will enjoy my today. because my everyday is a gift from DaddyGod to make me happy cos He loves when i'm happy.
praise Jesus.
He found me. He didn't leave me there.
He chose to love me.
He chose to rescue me.
He chose to give His life.
For me.
WE WILL DANCE ; 5:31 PM
* guan's oreo cheesecake is nice enough to sell.
* i LOVE guitar.
* i miss coming to john's place with the old gang.
* can't wait for Np B cg outing tmr.
* my cabbage does NOT look like char kway teow lah. =D
* ((: sticky porridge, terriyaki chicken, mince chicken omelette, luncheon meat. =p
* red wine. sauvignon 2001.
* sore left hand fingers. =D
* shawn. [requested for his own name to be listed out here. HAHA.]
* the b-i-b-l-e, it is the book for me...
* prayer boy - again.
* umm.. flu?! =D
* BBSS..ssss... hurrhurrrr.
* shop and save.
* soya sauce? dark sauce? ahahahah!
* bride / birds
* let's jazz up the song man! =D
* guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar guitar. thank You Jesus for one. ((:
sleepovers and gatherings are quite impossible to be boring when you're with the right people. ((: yayy. i am SO loved by Jesus.
WE WILL DANCE ; 2:03 AM
on sunday, steve asked me.. why do i care so much about being right to my mom.
well, i have an answer.
if the whole world hated me, if nobody liked me.. if all my friends left me one by one. it wouldn't hurt as much.
but this isn't just anyone man. this isn't just someone i met on the streets. it's more than that you know. this is my freakin' mother.
her acceptance, her unconditional love, it just means more than friends, more than grades, more than material things.
and sometimes, i just need to know that i am her daughter in whom she is well pleased. i just need that assurance.
sometimes before i leave the house, and she tells me that i'm gonna have a good day, and that everything will be alright. and i really believe that.
when she told me that i did well despite my suckshit results, i felt so loved i wanted to cry, cos i realised that what i was feeling then was quite a foreign thing.
i guess sometimes, friends aren't everything, though i try to convince myself that they are. at times i just need to know that she loves me for who i am, and whatever i do she'll always love me.
i guess i just don't know anymore.
Jesus, love me now, more than ever before. i need You.
cos i can't do this on my own.
` why are tiled walls so much harder than concrete walls?!
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:47 AM
wells. i think what shawn said is true.. it's irritating [to some extent] when you're bored and free and you go and visit blogs and find that nobody has updated. so i shall update.
just fyi, this is gonne be a super random post lah. have too many thoughts in my head and i don't know where to start, so i'll jusst blog everything out.
i just want to say that sometimes, no matter how much you don't like making decisions, you just have to, and it's just freaking inevitable. i mean, how old already?! just make up your bloody mind lah pls. a simple question and all you can say is "oh i don't know" or "huh.. umm.. anything.. :/" .
like, hello. that's why i'm asking you right!! just make a stupid decision pls. you can't have people deciding everything for you your whole life man. it's just stupid. it just doesn't make sense. OMG.
okayy. moving on..
heh i'm sorry f0r being biased, and well, no, you can't sue me cos everyone's entitled to my opinion. but anyway, i'm sorry but i just don't like girls' school girls.
yesyes, i know. it's just a "me" thing. and okay, not ALL girls' school girls.. just most, okay. and it's just my point of view, so if you don't agree go away. ((: and i said most okay, not all. just most.
ahhh my table is in a mess again. i want to clear it up before school starts. and yes, when school starts, i thank God that i am a motivated and hardworking student who completes and understands all tutorials and who listens attentively in all lectures and tutorials. amen.
i'll be in some new classes and i so pray that there isn't politics again. as in like, again. omg. politics.. gosh. the world could do away with it. why on earth do we want to teach students about politics. sighh.
as far as i know, the longer you can keep away from politics, the better. it isn't of much use getting involved in stuff you can't control.
anyhow. sometimes.. some people are just super irritating pls. until you don't even want to talk to them or even look at them. but you have no choice. and you just feel like you want to burst and lash out at them majorly. but oh wtf.
never mind. she's just as forgiven as me. and i'm forgiven much. and loved much. and i'm the righteousnous of God in Christ. hallelujah.
hmmm. they've cancelled practices all the way till the third week of november. so yah.. more time to spend with.. other people. hahh. whatever.
anyhow. never mind. i forgot what i wanted to say. never mind. i'll be off now.
Jesus loves me more than you ever could.
WE WILL DANCE ; 5:54 PM
((: i was looking through the song book from my old church.. and i found this song that i remember i used to love singing so much. (:
Spirit Wings.
----------------
G Am
Some birds live in cages, they never learn to fly
C D7 G Am D
And like those birds I've never found my wings
G
But Lord, Your love released me
Am
So i can see the sky
F D7
And now my heart rejoices as I sing
Chorus :
G
Spirit wings
Bm C
You lift me over all the earth-bound things
Am7 C D G
And like a bird my heart is flying free
Bm C
I'm soaring on the song Your Spirit brings
G C G Am D
Oh Lord of all, You let me see a vision of Your majesty
G C D7 G
You lift me up and carry me on Your Spirit wings
G Am
Now when I'm feeling lonely, I just look to You
C D7 G Am D
And soon my heart is soaring high above
G Am
Everything is clearer from Your point of view
F D7
Lifted up on spirit wings of Love
((: nice song. oooh i had a ramli burger for my lunch/dinner. ((: and i'm gonna have ice-kacang for dessert. yayy! ice-kacang kosong. HAHAH cos i don't like the stuffs inside. =D
okay my laptop is half recovering now. at least i can upload photos on my blog. hrrmphh. friendster profile and friendster blog still cannot. =( ohh well. hee.
praise God anyway. well lately i've lost the inspiration to blog. hmmmms.. i'll blog again when it comes back lah. (: between then and now, i'll be posting up photos and lyrics [hopefully with chords]. ((:
*alltheloveintheworld.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:37 PM
((: gege and me! you know ahh, my mama says we look more alike than me and my real brother. heheh funny yah. ((: but do we really look alike? (:
me and ah funn. ((:
charis, my hot date!! well.. actually we haven't dated yet but oh wells. =D yayy anyways. (:
and here's jo and i, again. ((: this time we're at the "The Cheese Prata Shop" near her place. ((: damn nice banana prata pls. (: but still not as nice at the bukit timah one. (: woohooo!!
anyhow.. these photos are actualy quite old. cos funn hasn't sent me quite a few.. esp the beach photos.. oei babe! faster! very very very long already ehhh... =D
*everyone pls laugh at shawn's prayer boy. damn funny LAH. =D
wells.. X-istence was quite okay i guess. but like whatever. i guess it wasn't that bad lah. heh.. thanks ash and anne. (: nahh. i wouldn't give up that easily. to be able to teach and influence is something i wouldn't give up based on one not-that-good event. ((:
anyhow. just to say..
Jesus always loves me no matter what.
nothing can keep Him away from me. (:
WE WILL DANCE ; 4:11 AM
((: omg. we like jumped right in the middle of suntec pls!! how embarrassing lah! ((: oh wells.
yayy! me and jo dearie, at bible study. yahh. the day that she and everyone else ganged up to bluff me. HAHAH. ((: but never mind. still love!
anjo and me outside the Rock. ((: we have almost the same specs wOrXxXxXx!!!
the four of us in 97 on the way back after bible study. eh you see that girl behind fun. wah lao eh! she's peeping at us loh. i have exposed her finally! the babuseng girl. =x
yayy finally some photos. dont know whats wrong with my own laptop. but i'm using sam's now, cos we stayed over. ((: yeah, like - again! =D oh well. you can't come. your loss. bleh.
WE WILL DANCE ; 2:25 PM
aaron bok is the sweetest brother ever.
i love aaron bok. ((:
WE WILL DANCE ; 2:04 AM
i am peeved with blogger. somehow i cant upoad photos. i am upset. =(
anyhow. the hols have been great so far. ((: hmm. the only thing that i wished for differently was that i could have spent more time with jo while she was back.
but oh well. (: no loss, still. Daddy will multiply. i thank God that i even have a friend like joellelimshuli. ((: one of my dearest darlings since p4. (:
anyhow. hahah. i know i said i'd find a job this hols, but aiyahh. ((: nvm. heyy i was still provided for every step of tye way.
but i'm gonna be helping out HATC for two events in the last two weeks of hols. shucks lah i wanna do camps. ((: *instructors oei*
okay yeah anyways. ((: since last night i've been painting the cupboard in the livin room. hehe. the mother's so happy about it, she even asked me to start painting the walls. whoaa. ((:
who knew left over postal paint from sec2 and a bathing sponge could do so much huh. ((: despite not the little things!! heh.
yeah well. been sleeping alot the past few days, and i swear that my body clock's back to normal. really. i woke up at 7.30am today, when actually i set my alarm to ring at 11.30am. hee.. i slept at around 12am last night.
yayy. i'm not an owl anymore. ((: random thoughts below.
` stranded halfway in PIE
` adidas sneakers
` long john silvers
` purple jelly bean thingys
below, part of my thank You list.
` thank You for my family
` thank You for each and everyone of my friends
` thank You for a nice home
` thank You for the puffy clouds
` thank You for providing
` thank You for my phone
` thank You for loving me no matter what
` thank You for purple jelly bean sweets
` thank You for my eyes to see Your beautiful creation
` thank You for my laptop
` thank You for flowers
` thank You for pink and purple and orange (:
` thank You for the gift of tongues
` thank You for television and cable
` thank You for water
` thank You for strawberries
` thank You for smiles and laughter
` thank You for You. ((:
alltheloveintheworld*
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:04 AM
((: today i went out for breakfast with my mama. ((:
it feels like such a long time since the last time we had such a nice time together. ((: since we've not quarreled for the entire day. (:
thank You, Daddy. ((:
i really loved it, spending time with her. (:
well, so we had a light breakfast, then we went shopping! ((: and wow. she like bought me three tops and a skirt pls! ((:
hallelujah. ((: thank You Jesus!
and she nearly bought me a 4th top too. hahaha but the aunty didn't want to give us one more collar off, so we ended up not getting it.
hee. but i think i'll be going back to get it, cos i really liked that top alot! (: $12 is cheap lah. (: its worth it.
anyhow, after that we went grocery shopping, then we went to buy breakfast for my brother. haha. we had to rush home cos it was going to rain lah! (:
after that, i decided to pack my table. (: yes, i was successful. haha yayy! now it's so neat. ((: ooh and i made this satay stick thingy and hung all my ear-rings on it! ((:
it's pretty! my mama said so. (:
oh, and HAHA. we're going to sell loads of stuffs to cash converters lah! ((: HAHA!! and i'm going to get all the money. hee!
well, after that, my mama was so excited to see my results. i nearly wanted to die lah, cos i failed both POA and MAEC.
but, praise God, seriously. when she saw my results she said it was good loh! like, what right!! praise God leh!!
even after i told her that they actually suck shit, she still encouraged me, saying that, hey it's not my fault cos i've never taken them before.
whaoo... UNdeserved favour? more than that man. God is just SSOOO good i tell you. really.
and yeah, i'm not sad about the results actually. i'm just sad that i didn't do better then mama would have been happier. but oh well..
praise God man. really really. ((:
anyhows.. im going to sleep now. (: serving 1st and 2nd tmr. hehe.. waking up at like, 6am. whahah. hallelujah. i WILL wake up. amen.
i command my body to wake up when the alarm rings. (: and i command my body to walk in divine health and favour. ((: praise God.
Daddy's angel.
me.
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:35 PM
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Each time He said, "My gracious favour is all you need. My power works best in your weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power Christ may work through me.
Since i know it is all for Christ's good, I am quite content with my weaknesses and with insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
"you are deeply loved by Jesus, amanda bok. no man can take that truth away from you." you are always carried by grace and love divine. you know that He loves you, always and forever, eternally. and that is a love that does not depend on circumstances.
things may look bad, they may not go your way, and it might seem as though everything that is happening is not happening in your favour, but bok, He loves you. and through it all, Daddy is still faithful. He will carry you through the storm.
Romans 5:3-5
We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they are good for us - they help us learn to endure.
And endurance develops strength of character in us, and character strengthens our confident expectation of salvation.
And this expectation will not disappoint us. For we know how dearly God loves us, because He has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with His love.
Romans 8:35-39
Can anything ever seperate us from Christ's love? Does it mean He no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or are hungry or cold or in danger or threatened with death?
No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.
And I am convinced that nothing can ever seperate us from His love. Death can't, and life can't. The angels can't, and the demons can't. Our fears for today, our worries about tomorrow, and even the powers of hell can't keep God's love away.
Whether we are high above the sky or in the deepest ocean, nothing in all creation will ever be able to seperate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.
((: praise God.
1 Corinthians 1:27-29
Instead, God deliberately chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And He chose those who are powerless to shame those who are powerful.
God chose things despised by the world, things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important, so that no one can ever boast in the presence of God.
hallelujah. i tell you, i just cannot study. i am so weak, and i cannot do anything.
i don't care that i failed, neither do i care why. Daddy's ways are higher than mine. He has the bestest best and brightest plans for my future. i don't know everything, i know. but i don't care about that either. (:
cos i don't need to know everything.
and you know what. (: i'm an angel, i'm more than a face in the crowd, i'm not just a star in the cloudy night sky.
i'm the reason Jesus came. ((:
no man can take that truth away from me.
Daddy's angel.
me.
* when the stars refuse to shine
and time is no more
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful Oh Lord.
WE WILL DANCE ; 3:40 PM
okay okay i'm updating now lah. ((:
i just didn't feel like blogging the past few days. no particular reason too.
anyhow, saturday was damn fun. haha. ((: campus, then dinner at yoshi~!! (: yayy. beef bowl. haha.
after that, fellowship at jurong east. then fun had to go home so we had no choice but to leave.
so we went home, then i went online, and found out that steve and ding weren't online. haha i knew immediately they were still fellowshipping.
smart me, cos i was right. i quickly washed up, packed my bag, and left the house. yah at like, 2.30am pls. ((: Jesus loves me.
cabbed down to yew tee and reached at about 2.45am. ((:
we three sat at the kopitiam and chatted till like, 4am. seriously, i think it only felt like half an hour, but oh well.
then ding had to go home, so we went back. (: sang all the way. haha then, me and ding. ((: haha we chatted all the way to 6.30am.
yes, omg. ((:
but oh well. we still managed to wake up at 10am. ((: had honey stars for breakfast! woohoo!! yeah, and we even survived sunday. ((:
Jesus loves us man. (:
oh oh and the other day. ((: me and ding went to sam's to stay over. ((: it was so fun lah! (: haha before ding arrived, me and sam had milo! milo biscuits lah, cos her milo powder had hardened. omg. haha!
and that disgusting popiah drank milk and ribena mixed. omg. and her mom drank it too! like omg! then she had stomach ache. HAHA!!
we watched muolin rouge too! well no, actually just me and ding, cos sam fell asleep when the show started. haha.
but oh well. just to say that i've really been enjoyin myself since the hols started. cant wait man. diana's coming back from hk soon! ((:
anyways.. choir won't be going on shifts so soon. haha next year. but for the next three months i'd be doing morning services. [ 1st and 2nd ]
hee. ((: oh well. i have once again successfully managed to screw up my body clock. sheesh man.. ah whatever. (: everything's still great lah.
gelare-ing tmr with fun and steve and heng, maybe sam and des too. (: holland v. ((: praise the Lord. He will stretch my dollar. Jesus is my Provider. ((:
haha. ((: i love pastor mark alot. (: really. hee. cried alot in service. i was really touched man. pastor mark. (: he's just someone who really really is so steady in the love of God.
no, actually. i should say. he is so steady in His Daddy's love for Him. ((: and yeah, he just has this gift, that he's able to be so open and so real. he is someone who can just literally slap love in your face and really make you get it.
well. okay.. i've lost my inspiration to blog. oh well. next time k. ((:
* all the love in the world. belongs to me.
`boxy.
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:14 PM