Friday, July 29, 2005 ;

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, i cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate
and the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? You say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers! I need to know why!"
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming Your word!

My future and all I wish to relate
Hangs in the balance and You tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign
Or even a 'no' to which I'll resign

You promised, Dear Lord, that if we believe
We'd need but to ask, and we shall receive
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry
I'm weary of asking. I need a reply!

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
as my Master replied again, "Wait."
So i slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
and grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting.. for what?"

He seemed to kneel, and His eyes met with mine
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.."
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun
I could raise the dead and cause the mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be
You'd have what you want but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint
You'd not know the power that i give to the faint

You'd not learn to see through couds of despair
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence is all you can see

You'd never experience the fullness of love
when the peace of my Spirit decends like a dove
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart

The glow of My comfort late into the night
The faith that I give when you walk without sight
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
from an infinite God Who makes what you have last

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee
Yes, your dearest dreams over night would come true
But oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you

So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know Me
And though oft my answers seem terribly late
My most precious answer of all is still.. "WAIT."

WE WILL DANCE ; 11:57 PM




Tuesday, July 26, 2005 ;

i like today. (: even though BMGT lecture was a TOTAL bore. ahahahha but still, i had like, FUN with diana and yong ming.. and vanessa and sungmui. ((: yayy!

omgomg.. how come when xiao ding dang talk to hello kitty, hello kitty didnt reply? then how come when mickey mouse talk to xiao ding dang, he didnt reply? AHAHAHA!!

ookok. breathe. oh man. ah hah!! omgomg damn funny.. and it was so xing ku because cannot laugh out loud but i really wanted to laugh out loud loud!! so funny!! omgomg i love my class yah. ((:

TB33!!! woohooo!! then after that had BMGT tutorial and laugh like mad again.. oh no.. ((: with diana barretto sy!! and bee wong. and that stupid vanessa and sungmui who are so bored in tutorial..

and must call me to chat. hahaha crazy lah!! ((: right in the middle of tutorial lor pls!! hahaha!! so "er xin" man!! eeks!! ahaah!!

yeah and then after that we had BMGT meeting. omgomg laugh until i nearly died.. really man. ((: i've so much favour, really praise God. (: yayy!! i love lah. (:

then after that i wet shopping at westmall with diana and bee wong. (: i'm really blessed lah, praise Jesus!! bought one ear ring, a bag and swensen's ice cream for my dinner. ((: HEE!!

then.. reached home and felt so loved. ((: hee. i am so loved lah!! can't wait for the poly event this saturday! damn excited! ((: hahaha.. yayy!!

oh anyways i'm so super happy!! i'm going for choir practice tmr cos i'm healed already!! yayy!! and i'll be serving on thursday too!! will sing extra loud!! omgomg so happy!! hahah yayy!! ((:

cant wait for tomorrow and thursday and saturday!!! yayy!! poly event!! yayy!! choir prac!! bible study!! omgomg!! i'm so excited!! i so cant wait to serve!! ((:

anyways.. ((: hahaha i love my life!! so much so much!! thank You Jesus for every single thing! i am so superly blessed!! so so intensely loved and abundantly blessed!! love life man! (:

love You Daddy God!! ((: thank You so much!! ((: woohooo!!!

WE WILL DANCE ; 9:03 PM




Monday, July 25, 2005 ;

((: okay, first day of school after the common test week. not bad, but i was quite tired. had this stupid dumb ulcer that was so pain.. but don't care.

anyhoos. i was actually not late for lessons one, but i waited for beewong and the teacher walked right pass me and i was like oh shucks. and she was givin me this look, like what lah?!

anyways, BCA was okay. the crazy beewong wave so big at uncle huang when he came into class. so paiseh! ahahah but diana that kuku girl wasn't here today cos she went to sentosa.

she's gonna be bringin sand back for me, leaves back for beewong, seawater back for uncle huang and coconuts for sungmui lor. whahah!!

then.. had lunch with beewong. nice chicken rice. oh and i like finally did my excel thingy.. the unit L one. yayy!! which leaves me with like, from E, F, G, H, I, J and K i think. ahahah shucks!

wth.. i better start yah. :D hee oh by the way!! i passed that dumb BCA common test! praise God man. i didn't even study for it cos i was sick. lalala..

Jesus never fails. ((: love to all!!

WE WILL DANCE ; 5:27 PM




Saturday, July 23, 2005 ;

yayy okay i know i haven't been updating but yes, i'm still alive. been sick since last saturday but i'm fine now. yes, praise God.

had my first full meal just now. my first full meal in 8 days. wahh.. hahaha. okay at first i couldn't eat cos i plain had no appetite.

but then after a few days my throat got inflammed!! then it was damn xing ku. like even swallow saliva also pain until can cry kind.. sian.

so never eat lor.. drink water also drink very little.. then super weak and bo lut.. sighh.. hahah sounds so sad right. ahaha!

but anyways.. i'd just like, eat some rice lah, drink some soup lah.. then here fever there giddy. aiyoh i hate being sick man. then normal weather still will feel damn cold..

then.. thursday i went to see doctor lor.. so sian.. haha he said nothing wrong, but still must give medicine.. so i had like, giddy pills, vitamin pills, throat inflammation pills and my Mac extra lozenges!!

but the kuku doctor never think!! my throat so pain, he give the tablets so big lor, then how i swallow!! so babi.. but never mind lor. then cos my throat so pain, i keep eating the lozenges..

supposed to eat one per day, end up two days i finish all 6 man! powerful!! the stupid giddy pills lah.. eat 2 then don't need already. waste money..

haha aiyah but i hate the vitamin pills leh. so big. damn hard to swallow.. at least the throat inflammation pills very small, so never mind. (:

but though my throat still damn pain, i don't care lah. 8 days never eat, i'm so damn hunry. then today my mama cook the food so nice.. wah laos. just eat lah. don't care the pain..

then after i eat finish, my mama ask me whether i want apple, then i say don't want lah. then she crazy lor, tell me "if you never eat anything then always will like that lah!"

like hello lor. i just finish my lunch. sitting right beside her somemore. wth..

aiyah don't care. my throat.. is healed lor. i don't care man.. 8 days never eat seh!! hahahha cannot tahan. ((: my throat is not pain. (:

praise God. (: Jesus loves me!

WE WILL DANCE ; 5:38 PM




Wednesday, July 20, 2005 ;

"that one lah!"

fcuk you. you better learn some manners before i slap you good and proper. remember, your age don't matter to me. i'd slap you all the same.

don't think you're so big.

WE WILL DANCE ; 12:27 AM




Friday, July 15, 2005 ;

bok HATES poa to the bones and more. but, grace grace.

yayy we give our thumbs for bloken engrish. *

beaching tmr before campOOs. ((: loves!

WE WILL DANCE ; 11:04 PM






POA common test in like, 3hrs.
praise the Lord.
i still feel lke sleeping..

grace grace!

and i have no mood whatsoever to revise.

WE WILL DANCE ; 1:06 PM






Daddy.. =(

i'm hurting.
if he doesn't care about us, i don't care too. but i know You care, and that's all i need to know, and that's all i need to hold on to.
help me be strong, cos i can't hold out much longer. it hurts to have a dad like that.
Daddy, help me, really. i'm hurting inside. wash out all the hurt with Your love, Daddy. wash out all the hate too.
help me lean on You, and help me let go.
help m trust in You.

Daddy.. ='(

WE WILL DANCE ; 3:44 AM




Wednesday, July 13, 2005 ;

A group of professional people posed this questionto a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too.That's love." Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most ofyour French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy -age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." Bobby - age 7

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7"

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old manwho are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and Iwas scared.I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8"

My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge.The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

Kids can be the sweetest little things. ((:

"Love is when my Jesus came down and died for me, even when He knew i would break His heart millions of times." Amanda Bok - age 17. ((:

WE WILL DANCE ; 3:14 AM




Tuesday, July 12, 2005 ;

sighh. we do love animals, but then, sadly, ours seem to always be mutated in some way.

the terrapins were ferocious, Bibo was mad, Tiara was too manja, Mr. Nibbles was overly panicky, and now, our snails, let's call them Slime and Slob, have astonishing mutated strength!!

this is how the story begins..

two days ago, my sister and i decided to save a couple of snails from downstairs. [they always have a high risk of getting stepped on and smashed about by inconsiderate neighbours].

we picked them up and brought them home. i carried them all the way up and along the corridor, forming a special bond between us! now they're gone, i'm sad..

anyways, we fed them well and gave them air to breathe, giving them a home in the extra golden roast coffee powder container. they were happy.

then today, my ma, my sis and i went to visit our gramps. we left Slime and Slob in their nice and cosy home, with the cap screwed on, and with a fresh new green crunchy leaf.

they were happy and ate with satisfaction.

however! when i reached home with mama, i realised that they had escaped!! [gasp] wahh.. what strength!!

and they left a trail of gob all over the table, on which they were crawling around on, and also on my sister's bag. oh dear..

my mama banished them from the house. how tragic. they were well fed and well taken care of. only heaven knows why they wanted to escape. i am deeply affected by this.

keep me in your prayers, everyone.

ahahahahha!! oh wells, twas' our cute little snailees. ((: i will miss them. hope they don't get smashed about by inconsiderate neighbours..

aahh. ((: i so love my gramps. (: "babuseng.." whahah.

oh by the way, my sister gave an account about Slime and Slob too, so do drop by her LJ to read about it! (:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/aronwy/81479.html

Jesus, Lover of my soul. *

WE WILL DANCE ; 11:49 PM






yayy! i'm going to my gramps place now! ((: lalala. ((:

anyways, i'm super excited about the upcoming poly event. it's gonna be so good man! and quite a few of my friends are going down too! yayy!

praise the Lord. (:

Daddy, You touch them and love them, and show them that You are so real and how much You really wanna bless them. and change them, just like how You changed me. (:

love love to all. ((:

WE WILL DANCE ; 6:15 PM




Monday, July 11, 2005 ;

my God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
with wisdom, power and love
my God is an awesome God. ((:

i love that song.
i love worship.
i love when the WL gets the choir to start the song.
i love chocolate coated macadamia nuts from sydney.
i love having a little study break.
i love getting all ADs for my common tests. amen!!
i love blim's cake.
i love dinnering and going home with sam, ding, de yan.
i love serving with charissa, nat and esther.
i love everything about You.
and i love that You love everything about me too! (:

Boxy* - greatly blessed, highly favoured, deeply loved. (:


BOXY ROCKS LEH. WHAT YOU GONNA DO?! =D

WE WILL DANCE ; 11:43 AM




Sunday, July 10, 2005 ;

yayy thanks sam! ((:

and she did this all without my knowing, and i got such a shock. ((: such a sweet surprise that added some sunshiney-ness to my day [or rather, night]. (:

*grins. des was totally right when he told me that "God places friends in my life for a reason.. so that in time of need, they are there to point me to Christ."

thanks des. thanks sam. (: thanks Abba. i really love all of you so much.

the one whose name is not worth mentioning will always try to shake my faith and get me out of my "beloved daughter of God" consciousness. but i wil not let him.

instead, i will stand firm and stand still and see the salvation of the Lord for me, for He will prepare a table for me in front of my enemies!

He promised me He will turn everything out for my good, and He cannot lie to me. and i choose to trust Him, because He never fails.

thanks Daddy, for loving me. You don't know just how gratful i am.

bind this family now with Your amazing love.

hallelujah.

WE WILL DANCE ; 1:17 AM




Saturday, July 09, 2005 ;

aiyah.. okay so maybe my wcom group isn't that bad lah.. oh well. (: praise God lor. heh.. we were actually planning to finish it today so that kok wee could hand it in on monday.

ahhahah but guess what lah. our meeting was postphoned from 7am to 9am to 12pm lah! so irritating! argh! haha but yeah. oops i still woke up late. [uncle huang's fault! hee.]

so yeah.. end our meeting finished at like, 7pm? haix.. 7 hours straight in school is not fun. whaha okay lah, still abit fun lar.. but yeah.. bmgt or bca group would have been better. ((:

lalala. but whatever it is, praise Jesus. ((: i'm still a happy box.

tomorrow, and for the next three months of sundays, i'll be serving third and fourth. =( oh wells, i'll still be blessed lah, no matter what. (: praise God.

i so can't wait for campus poly event! wooohooo!! Ngee Ann!! =D

*intensely loved by DaddyGod.

WE WILL DANCE ; 8:14 PM






hee. i love shopping in school, and i have so much favour. ((: hee.

aahhh.. wcom meeting tmr.. =( favour Lord, and grace grace too. lots of it. (:

whahaha poor uncle huang can't win me! lalala!!

I love NpB cg!!! ((:

*see. you don't wanna listen. it's always about you.

WE WILL DANCE ; 3:03 AM




Thursday, July 07, 2005 ;

i think i'm finally over you.

*you want me to tell you, but when i do, you don't wanna listen..



WE WILL DANCE ; 4:20 PM






why'd you have to do that man.. don't we mean anything?
and now i wanna cry.

*is everybody going crazy
is anybody gonna save me
can anybody tell me what's going on
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong

WE WILL DANCE ; 12:42 AM




Monday, July 04, 2005 ;

ahh. (: forgot to add this.

i really love my mama. praise Jesus for her. praise Jesus for love. praise Jesus.

hahah and yes lah, i love my PBL group too. ahah and my BMGT group and i still don't know why ernest must hold his head when he thinks. whahah!!

WE WILL DANCE ; 2:39 PM






*pick me up when i'm feeling down.

blessed day again. met charissa and ah nat, took 106 down to church together. lovelove! (: bakin' boys cookies provided for breakfast. praise God.

pastor prince is back! wonderful service on revelations. cool man. (: kept falling alseep at the first part of service, and charissa kept poking me. ahhaha then she fell asleep too!

we went to wash face lor. wow. hahah service was really good. i'm so glad pastor prince is back. (: i stayed awake after that! whoo! hahah hallelujah.

went home straight after service. was damn drained. took 97 and basically slept all the way. reached home, slept even more. no lunch, no dinner. just sleep. whahah..

yeah, and breakfast was one bakin' boys cookie and lots and lots and lots and lots of water. whahah. praise Jesus.

anyways, saturday's campus was good. i went straight home after campus too. okay so maybe not immediately lah, but i didnt eat dinner with the usual peeps.

wells.. suddenly i don't really know what to say. sometimes i think i think too much. (: how silly.. am i the only weird creature who spends like, most of her time thinking?

oh whatever.. Jesus loves me and that's all i'll ever need. He is more than enough for me. for now, for ever.

*ephesians 1:17-20

WE WILL DANCE ; 2:00 AM




Friday, July 01, 2005 ;

=D yes. when i need to go shopping, Jesus is my wealth. hehahehah. it may not seem like it now, i know. but well, i'll never limit my DaddyGod. He is limitless. ((: and He is mine! thus, i have everything.

what's His is mine. ((: so i can shop whenever i want! amen! hallelujah! ((: praise the Lord man. i am so loved by Jesus!

anyways, i had such a wonderful time with Guan today. (: praise the Lord. thanks hons. (: i really loved that we could spend time even though we're both busy. love you major!

hee. i am so blessed and intensely loved. ((:

praise the Lord!

WE WILL DANCE ; 11:31 PM