Saturday, August 28, 2004 ;
hahas... today was quite a fun day. anyways... the other day.. i think thursday.. yeah we had chem practical lah.. then for sub-science our experiment required us to soak filterpaper in this weird solution and then drip cobalt something something onto it.. then after that must burn and collect the ashes lah..
wah.. then i thought so fun. happy happy go and follow the instructions.. exactly.. dripped 5 drops of solution and 2 drops of the cobalt something something.. so it was quite dry lah.. then after that.. didnt have metal thongs so just use the normal wooden test-tube holder mah.. wah piang.. the stupid filter paper... because it was so dry it caught fire super easily... *sigh*
so yah... the whole thing was ablaze.. haha i think i nearly set the chemistry laboratry on fire man. -_-" hahas... cos nearly dropped the burning paper at the bunsen burner there.. OOPS.. but yeah... i flung everything into the sink. =D hee.. then on the tap and there was the "pssstt...." sound.. (or however you spell it.. haha never mind..) sigh.. then they all laughing at me... -_-"""
so after that must re-do right... so to prevent the filter paper from catching fire so easily, i soaked the whole piece with the solution.. so it was super wet and flimsy.. hahaha.. then dripped some cobalt thingy thingy.. then burn liao but nothing happened. the ash was supposed to be green.. but i think it was QUITE black.. -doosh- then realised that i had to put MORE cobalt something thingy.. so okae fine... soak in solution and soak in cobalt thingy something thingy.. haha but yeah i finally finally got the green ash. but the test-tube holder is pretty burnt.. =)
by the way.. ammonia really really really stinks.. haha at first me and giacinta were doind one of the qualitative analysis questions.. then had to test for gas. but like nothing like that.. so we tried to smell abit abit lah.. then hold too far from the nose cannot smell.. so held it about 5cm away... no smell.... 3cm.... no smell..... a little nearer...
~WAH SEH!!!~ smelly like hell kaes.. the stupid thing.. then we both suddenly burst into coughs.. haha quite stupid lah i know.. (whoops) wah but really stinky.. like, sheesh... one of the stupidest things i ever did.. (besides throwing the book down to ber lah.. that's a different story all togather. ahem...) hee.. but i really dunno why i did that.
anyway.. :) september is coming. i cant wait. totally. haha although its prelims month.. but then got Gig3!!! :) haha.. cant wait!!! and xue ting's burfdae.. and shirleen and josh and eleanor and grandpa.. and Daddy!!!! =D ~yay.. happiness...
oh well.. :) sort of slept through service today.. =( oops... was really drained man. but i still wont miss out. the Holy Spirit will teach me. :) Daddy will teach me. He will guide me every step of the way, and He'll be with me through it all. forever. cos His love endures forever. and he is forever faithful. hallelujah!! :) and its so comforting to know that i'll always be that 'butterfly'.. i'm never gonna change back into a caterpillar ven though i still do 'caterpillar' things at times while i'm a butterfly..
okae.. confused?? haha its like.. i'm born again right.. so even when i sin(do things then un-born again people do), i will still be born again. i'm still a righteous child of God.. i'm not a sinner just because i sin. just like sometimes butterflies sprt of crawl.. that doesnt make them any less butterfly than they really are. that doesnt change the fact that they are butterflies, and it sure doesnt make them caterpillars.. cos they're still butterflies. haha..
i'm forgiven eternally. a new creation. a child of the King. sin has got no hold on me. i walk by faith and not by what i see. amen. :) and you know what... sin doesnt stop grace. grace stops sin. dont focus on trying to live a holy life. focus on God and His finished work. then you will naturally lead a holy life.
and when you do sin, which you will.. dont harp on it. remind yourself that you're forgiveness and righteousness is eternal, then move on. harping on your sin will only open doors for the devil to get you. just tell yourself you're forgiven eternally and move on. put the past behind you. :) God still loves you. you can never lose your salvation no matter what. once saved forever saved. our God is a faithful God.
Jesus is my one and only. :) make Him yours. let Him lead you. dont try to lead Him. He knows better than we do, His ways are higher than ours. by trying, you're stopping His grace. stop trying, let go.. God will be faithful. He will make a way for you.
i've had more than enough experiences to know that God cares and that He is and always will be faithful. even if its just the tiniest details of your life. and you know why? its cos He loves you. just three simple words. He loves you. He loves me. alot. and alot is an understatement. just know that He loves you. cos He really really does.
i mean, to give up your only son?? for someone who might not even return your love?? wow.. that's gotta be some amazing love man. and well.. that's just like the love of God for you! :) be excited. rejoice. He wants you to be happy. He has given you the right to enjoy. :) use it. really.
=0 oh wells... i've talked myself happy again.. but that doesnt change the fact that i am sleepy.. hahax.. okae.. i'm off then. :) blog again soon.
no more in condemnation
clothed in righteousness i stand,
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 1:14 AM
Thursday, August 26, 2004 ;
sianz... haha hmmz... wonder if this colour font is okae. but never mind.. i like it... man.. somehow i think my dad shouldn't have gotten broadband like, now.. hahas... its getting me addicted!!! and that's -BAD- i should stop coming online.. stop blogging.. argh..
but oh well.. since i'm already here. hahas.. just type lah. i'm running out of pens again. need new blue and black pens. and of course coloured ones too.. but coloured ones can wait till after 'o's lah. :) i'm a patient and understanding girl one. hee..
sigh.. not going for choir prac... my mom is so unhappy.. i know not why. gosh... okae never mind. i know its for my own good yah. if not i'd have to leave the house in half-an-hour.. then i wouldn't have time to finish my work and revision. although i'd much rather go for choir.. but oh wells.. priorities priorities..
man i dont know why but today i was so super tired. i seriously could not stay awake in physics and blah... haha.. serious.. i wasn't even aware that i had fallen asleep. haha even giacinta gave up on waking me up. -oopx- i really wonder if it is because i'm getting too little sleep or too much sleep.. i just know that after 'o's i'm going to sleep and make a guiness world record for the longest consecutive hours of sleep. hahas... not joking. although studying is considerably fun, its super draining.. haha just like what me and charis were talking about.. studying even makes you lose weight. hahas.. kewl huh.
woah i'm really gonna have to take this september hols seriously. dont care if i have to go back for consultation on my burfdae. it wouldn't matter. i'll just go back to school. serious man. i know i need this. hahas.. so those people in sec3, please work hard man. build up foundations properly, then you wont have such a hard time in sec4. although i really am enjoying myself lah.. :) how not to when my each and every day is God-given?
anyways... this is for ShuYing..
babe.. :) it's really been a pleasure being your fwen and all. i'm just glad to have been able to help. really, it was nothing. love you alot, and you're my sister in Christ, and a great fwen as well. and you're Daddy's beloved. special and precious. always praise Him no matter what happens, for His ways are above ours. He has your life completely planned out, and that means whatever happens it will turn out for your good. :) praise God huh. =D love ya!
this is for Guan..
hahas babe.. i really miss you. serious. sigh... havent seen you for how long? goodness.. dont even know how you scored for chinese 'o's... in case you didnt know, i got a c5 and i'm re-doing. hahas but i'm thankful. :) hahas and i got distinction for oral/listening!!! haha praise the Lord! love you sista.. cant wait for after 'o's when we can spend time together again! -muackx-
this is for Sam..
hey dearie.. :) i know i've been super extra kranky these few weeks.. really sorry. cos i've been like kinda stressed and stuff lah. but hey.. :) 'o's gonna be over soon! hahas.. we can pig out and still lose weight amen! *grinz* love you alot babe. :) we study hard for His glory yah.
this is for Jo..
eh.. hahas long-time fren. :) precious to me! haha i havent passed you your burfdae pressie from the gang leh babe.. so sorry... hee.. you'll be going for Bible Study this friday? haha.. miss you too... seems like i'm missing everyone.. love you tonnes!
~sad sob~
oh my hat... haha english extra lessons were fun today.. haha had quite a crazy time with sam, shifong and giacinta. haha going hysterical over spinning webs from butts.. oh man..
"she can spin webs from her butt-that's amazing!"
haha.. oopx.. then shifong ate giacinta's sweet ans sam ate my sweet.. haha crazy us.. but it was fun lah. then the sentence thingy.. oh man.. about the fat woman. haha i'm seriously gonna use it in my essay one day. :)
anyways... haha here'e the lyrics of one of the songs from the first disc of the absolute worship cd. its called "on my own" by "bawrlow girl". haha but i changed some of the lyrics lah.. of the chorus.. actually it was: oh God You have to save me
You're my last and only hope
when my right answers fail me
i cant seem to make it on my own
somehow i think mine is better.. haha... :)
cant believe that i'm here in this place again
how did i manage to mess up one more time
this pattern seems to be the story of my life
should have learnt this lesson by the thousandth time
cos i promised myself i wouldnt fall
but here i fall again
i guess i'm not as strong as i thought
all i can do
is cry to you
oh God you have to save me
you're my one and only hope
when all my answers fail me
i will never make it on my own
always thought that i would be strong enough
what made all of them fall couldn't take me down
then i thought that i was above it all
i have learnt that pride comes before the fall
i cant promise myself that i wont fall
cos here i'm falling
i know i'm not as strong as i thought
all i can do is cry to You
yeah... anyways... anyone wants to borrow it just let me know yah. :) and i think i should start listening to the second disc already. haha.. okae then i have to go now.. to study!!! :] yay~~ yup yup.. be blessed abundantly for our Lord God Almighty loves you extravagantly!
loved extravagantly
blessed abundantly
favoured extraordinarily,
~BOK~
p/s: haha okae actually the font was light pastel orange.. it was so nice... but couldnt see properly against the background of my bloggie.. haha so yeah.. had to change it.. but oh wells... purple is nice too! :)
WE WILL DANCE ; 6:29 AM
Wednesday, August 25, 2004 ;
hahas this is farni. in the last blog entry i said i've fallen in love with 'absolute worship' rite.. haha i should make a correction. its fallen in love with the first disc. :) havent even listened to the second one yet. (yes there are two discs inside...)
haha anyways i realized i havent blogged in a few days. have been too busy. haha really. i'm serious. i really study ok. that's a true fact of life. i even planned out a time-table thingy which is really good yah. :) haha even rolling(ok ok.. roland..) said so. hahas i really wanna rap for him on teachers' day! "keep roland roland roland roland ANG!" heh heh.. then 'i believe i can fly' for mr kamal. :)
i hope teachers' day will be fun. i HOPE. at least i can go home and rest before choir. oh yes um babes...? (xue ting and sam...) haha please lah we really should go home earlier. we need rest one. and if i'm not wrong parents are starting to complain... yah so in conclusion we should go home earlier and not ~chill~ outside the rock for too long. although i know its mighty fun. but hey think about it.. we can have all the fun we want after 'o's yah. can even go for supper everyday with you all lah.. if you all want. :)
and the really great thing is that time flies.. and 'o's will be over in the blink of an eye. yeah.. so just hold out a little while more. its possible. and anyway come september i wont be able to go Bible study anymore. will be mugging at home.. yeah.. seriously.. sigh.. haha but actually i kinda dont mind studying nowadays... its sorta fun. and i realised how much i missed out last year. haha..
-oopx-
haha so i messed up biggie last year... but there's still hope man. i'm never done for till God says i'm done for. but that will never happen lah. :) cos my Daddy God wants me to enjoy heaven on earth. =D and i will because He has made me a success! praise God hallelujah!! :) man its so cool to have a God like my God. He's cool..
haha... and He gives me eternal joy! hee.. anyway rite.. these few days literature has been the funnest its ever gotten. haha did i add that's only cos we're not really having lessons? haha its like we're watching 'my best friend's wedding' cos it has some link to our text or whatever.. frankly i'm just watching it to watch it.. not cos of literature.. whoops..... heh heh.. gosh but its not really my fault you know.. i used to love lit kaes.. until fat face came along... ok i'm sorry... sigh.. never mind.
anyways.. shuying.. yes you have a Teenzeal Gig T-shirt. be thankful babe.. there were only 250. heh heh.. and please sign up by this saturday. vacancies are going-going-gone. unless sean and stan decide not to go.. then we'll have two extra tickets! hahas.. (why wont they go.. actually...? sam IF you know please tell me.. cos i canNOT find any reason not to..) besides.. they already have tickets!!! haha okae i should breathe..
-inhale.. exhale..-
ok i'm cool.. everythung's cool.. haha.. gosh i'm like getting so tired these days.. must get sufficient rest.. and try not to burn midnight oil. [oei yong jie!! go offline lah!! then go and study!! then sleep early lah..] hahas.. oh yah.. and drink more water people!!! water is healthy!! besides it has ZERO calaries!! haha not that we'll get fat lah cos i bind that in Jesus' name and its quite impossible. and anyway water tastes nice mah.. hee..
sighs... sam please rmb to come over after 'o's to do my bloggie thingy yah. haha hate to admit but its quite boring.. -_-" (wonder who says that about their bloggies one..) at least i face reality yah.. haha..
oh my hat.. just remembered this real stupid thing me and ber did just now.. haha oh my hat... i wanted to pass her this geography book lah. (its pure geog. so i dont need it) yah anyway.. so she took the 334 here after her ~REMEDIATION~ hahax.. [soo keong!!!]
*moo*
ANYWAYS... yeah then she was too lazy to come up and i was too tired to go down so we were like talking on hendphone.. then she suggested i threw the book down and we were laughing about it being killer litter or whatever.. then everytime i nearly throw there will be alot of people walking pass... haix favour means favour lah. haha.. ya then when i finally decided to throw.. that goon had to stand on the grass patch where i was going to throw.. like want to kill herself lah! haha and by the way.. SHE was the one who asked me to throw it onto the grass so that it wont make a loud noise.. haha that toot gal..
yah so it was super pai seh.. then when i finally threw, i hid from the window lah.. (duh!! why show your face to everyone. later kena charged for killer litter..) haha then she was like screaming into the phone.. (i have no idea why...) man.. then we were laughing like crazy.. [sometimes i wonder.. that seems like all we ever do. haha no lah.. joking.]
*baa*
haha anyway we discovered it was a lousy book cos on its trip down it started to fall apart and she had to run about all over the grass picking the pages while wailing into the phone that she was getting weird stares from the passers-by. hahas!!! i think we're quite crazy. and i think her phone bill this month is gonna explode.. like, i have free incoming so its okae.. but she called mah. then we talked for so long.. -oopx- haha ber ah.. you want me to help you pay some? haha i really can leh.
gosh.. i'll really miss these crazy times with swiss people once we graduate. haha but i'll still have Teenzeal peeps yah! :) ber come to church with me after 'o's leh.. :)
[shawn you'll finally stop teasing sam about her height..] hahax.. sorry sam.. and ber.. =D but i will NOT say you're cute lah ber.. haha if not your head will get even more 'tua jia' than it already is. :) hee..
anyways.. i have to go now.. although i havent quite finished all i have to say. i might come back later depending on the situation.. but for now.. its ~adios!
You raise me up..
~BOK~
~beepee....~
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:58 PM
Sunday, August 22, 2004 ;
haha.. hahaha... muahahaha....!! :) my dad finally did the necessary stuff with the computer!! praise the Lord!!! its now um.. (what's that?) oh yah.. um the windows xp thingy? i dont know. the most recent one lah i think. wah praise God praise God. this is good. :) now this stupid computer wont keep hanging. :)
and you know what? the most "cause to be happy-ful" thing is that the night before, friday, just a while before Bible Study started, i was complaining to my section leader, Leanne about my computer being so sucky. :) God is good amen. even if it is about the smallest things in life that He shows care and love, thats only like a raindrop to the sea of all His love for us. =D
anyways.. i realised horr.. that my bloggies are very VERY... how to say? very.. weird? haha John also pointed out to me. haha.. its like some are so encouraging.. then some are like.. haha oopx.. (must vent my frustrations mah..) but yeah. dont pay any attention to those 'bad' ones yah.. they're not good. please horr dont go learn from there. especially the language. haha i apologize for my misconduct. (hee.. sorry john. yeah i'm trying..)
:) but i'm still loved amen. see.. Daddy is so great, so full of grace, so merciful. even when we fail and fall short of His glory rite, He will never ever condemn us. :) He will stick true to His covenant. He remembers our sins NO more. =D hallelujah! and you know rite, He is willing to bend down to OUR level of faith. He will teach us. He will be patient. yah. dont worry about a thing in life kae. :) just live life in the knowing that you have a great great God looking out for you, loving you.
anyways.. Gig3 is coming....! :P heh heh heh.. its gonna be a mountain-moving worship session filled with His awesome presence. those who are going, praise God. you will, WILL, walk out of there a changed person. changed for the better. those who arent... hmmz... what can i say? too bad? haha no lah just joking. next saturday Teenzeal still can sign up. so come to Teenzeal! :) if you want to come then call my phone yah. but only from 7am to 7pm. if not call my house or just stick to sms. hee..
~the joys of free-incoming~
oh wait. ermz... haha actually free-incoming is not that good anyway lah. so dont go get yah. trust me. its not good one.. really really. so dont get free-incoming okae. :) those who have free-incoming already will surely agree with me one. :D
haix... i just realized... now that my dad did the stuff to the 'darling' computer.. everything is gone. please people. :) once you see me online send me whatever pics you have kae. :) and songs also yah.. (josh.. :D hee... send me THAT song again yah. *pinkie*) i miss it already lah! :) wonder when that QUEENIE VALEN is going to visit my blog. she hasnt seen that super old post i posted for her. haha.. she says "when i go online..." which is like.. never? haha.. (oopx)
man i'm hungry lah.. havent eaten since... Bible Study!!! oh my hat. no wonder.. haha actually i would have forgotten if i didnt go think about it. haha.. but its okae. where's all the maggi mee gone to...? (gosh i have this farni feeling that my brother ate it all?) hmph! and left none for me! what a great guy... :'( but i still love him alot lah.
Jesus.. make me the man that You want me to be... haha i'm listening to the 'Absolute Worship' cd. :) i have fallen in love with it. haha...
actually i'm quite sleepy yah... :O yawn.. hee.. fell asleep during chemistry mock just now. then realised i only had an hour left to complete it. sigh.. haha.. i only woke up cos i got a call from Lydia. haha.. (thanks babe..) God sure has His ways. :)
anyways... :O i'm getting sleepier.. :O yah.. :O nearly couldnt wake up this morning. :O *yawn* :O shall go now.. :O later still gotta study. :O haha:O tataz! :O
:O...
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 2:42 AM
Thursday, August 19, 2004 ;
oh man.. have i mentioned how much i hate my comp?? its totally retarded. i'm serious. gosh... it could hang 5 times in 7 minutes. how pathetic is that?! oh my hat.. cant stand it cant stand it cant stand it!!! yeah but anyways... a new and much better one is coming my way. :) that one was made specially for me. :)
sigh.. today. took cab to school man.. cos i woke up at 0620hrs.. supposed to leave home at like 0625hrs.. haha. oopx.. i guess i should learn to sleep earlier, or maybe just get more alarm clocks ba. :)hee..
my throat is so not sore lah.. haha just caught a glimpse of singapore idol. quite sad yah. i really dont like that cocky guy lah. that.. is he indian? i'm not racist lah, just dislike his attitude.
i found that most of them can sing pretty okae. but they dont have enough power in their voices. its weak. but at least they can carry a tune lah hor. :) i shall not be mean.
oh yes. hallelujah! i passed my most recent a-math mock exam. :) heh heh.. none of my efforts amen. it was all God. i got 45/80. ok maybe that's not impressive to you but then i'm happy with it and that's all that matters. too bad for you if you're not happy. :) i'm happy. praise God. man.. i've been failing since sec3! hee... thank You Jesus!!! love You so much!!! =D
(sheena!! :p thanks for being a great fwen yah.)
during chem prac, me and giacinta broke the plastic container containing solution S. hahas cos i put it near the edge of the lab table(oops) then she accidentally knocked it off, and there was a huge crack at the bottom all the way up to the side. but then the stuff didnt flow out.
well at least not until i opened the cap to use the solution.. -_-" i forgot about the pressure thingy. haha so everything started flowing out. anyone's normal reaction would have been to cap it back lah, so that's just what i did. haha well.. next time if you crack some bottle thing, learn a lesson from here. if you wanna take off the cover, do it like at the sink or whatever. and do not force the cap back on after you've removed it as the pressure will make everything burst out. i just praise God we didnt dity our uniforms. the yellow syain of potassium dichromate v.v hard to remove kae. :)
haha at least i didnt burn my hand while boiling the acids again. the other time i accidentally made this burn mark on the table cos i forgot the boiling tube still hot then rested the bottom part on the table. haha the mark is still there! :) bok's mark..
oh yeah. and then today me and giacinta did another smart thing. :] our boiled solution thingy wasnt cooling fast enough lah.. then no time left. so we were like running the boiling tube under the tap water. eh it really works horr. :) then the thingy very fast cool.. :) so we could finally continue with our experiment. =) ~yay~
actually the title.. haha.. was cos i was pissed with the comp... bur aiyah who cares lah. its ok now rite. :) i'm serving tmw! :)smilees...
i miss valen! :( alot alot.. and anjo and alicia.. alot. and charmiane and charlene.. i miss my whole gang too! maybe leave from choir will be a good thing. i hope. dunno lah i still love serving. oh well.. i just know that whatever it is, its God's plan and i will enjoy it! :)
anyways.. today during p.e. we played this tennis thingy..(charis! =P haha..) yup! its super fun!! :) really. just that we didnt have much space lah. then cant like, smack or whatever you call it. cant hit hard.. that was the only un-fun thing about it. but on the whole tennis is a super fun game. hope the cher lets us play again next week. :)
-phone vibrates-
-recieves message from john-
-reads message-
-replies message-
yeah i'm back. :) gosh i'm getting backaches.. its coming.. (i shall not comment further)... man.. somehow i feel like quitting school.. BUT that's not going to work. besides, it was just a passing thought. haha.. school's fun amen.. haha praise God. i just cant wait for Teenzeal camp yah. :):):)
[hey shuying. trust me, you'll be there with us. all of us.]
whoever wants to go, just tell Daddy God. somehow, i dont care how, He will make a way. He will provide. He will grant you the desires of your heart. because He loves you and wants always to see a smile on your face. :) see you ALL at camp yah. :) or before taht lah. haha the way i talk like as if camp is tmw or something.. hee hee.. but i really cant wait lah. :)
but anyways i have to go. and sleep. so that i dont have to waste money on cab fares.. (not that i dont have enough lah) but yeah.. need to rest also. :)
safe in His arms,
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:35 PM
Tuesday, August 17, 2004 ;
hmmz... today was not too bad. considering i finally figured out the basics of the basics of a-math relative velocity. :) heh heh.. (if you think its pathetic, just shut your face)
anyways..but i felt really gross after school for a while. broke out in cold sweat and whatever.. -_-" but yeah, i'm fine lah. Jesus took my sickness, and in exchange He gave me divine health! :)
oh my hat.. i just realized that from the moment i reached home(and after showering and all), i was studying none-stop till start of singapore idol!!! praise God! that's very amazing.. i mean.. it's me. haha..
but yeah. God is good. all the time. :) *and in the darkest night, His light will shine..* =D haha love that song. :) oh yeah! and i also like this song from the 'absolute worship' cd given to us on national day by the wonderfully blessed Teenzeal leaders! :) it's called 'be near' by shane barnard and shane everett. :)
by the way.. has anyone ever heard josh's 'pinkie song' and his 'u said i made no sense' song? goodness... they, although super cute and super funny, really make absolutely NIL sense. :) (sorry josh) but the pinkie song and the pinkie song2 had me laughing non0stop for like, 5 mins or so.. LoL..
oh yeah.. haha actually my main purpose for coming here was to put up the lyrics for desmond. :) sorry dude. take so long. :) but here it is..
into Your hand
i commit again
all i am for You Lord
you hold my world
in the palm of Your hand
and i am Yours forever
Jesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
the reason that i sing
(with all i am)
i'll walk with You
whereever You go
through tears and joy i'll trust in You
and i will live
in all of Your ways
Your promises forever
i will worship
i will worship You(x4)
yup yup.. :) finally hor. :) sorry lah. been so busy with homework and studies.. haha.. and i've also applied for leave from choir.. in september, mid-october and november. sigh. gonna miss it so much.. but what to do.. studies are a priority. and whatever it is, its all for His glory amen. :) and also must honour parents. :)
okies then. have to be going. i need to sleep. if not tmw will be a goblock.. or should i say.. goBOK. :D haha.. nitez ya'll, and be blessed! take from Your Daddy God of much more. :)
soaring over mountains of defeat
for He carries me on eagles wings,
~BOK~
ever victorious woman of God.
drawing coninually from His well of redeeming grace.
enjoying life.
loved by God, the beloved of God.
Saved By Grace.(my future license plate thingy!)SBG5577B or something.. hee.. =]
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:41 AM
hmmz... today was okae. except i really wasnt feeling well after school for a while. -_- even broke out in cold sweat.. -_-" but i was fine. and i still am! praise God..
i finally got down to doing the revision thingy in the e-math textbook.. goodness the 7.2 one i super super long i tell you. 38 questions, most of which have parts from (a) to (z).. man..
but yeah. i guess if i really tried i could do it. i've only completed two so far though. but at least i tried and got started.. i'm still a little blur bout a-math relative velocity thingy. that is just plain gross.. *sigh* but what to do.. just have to force my brain to absorb all the information it can.
i'm just glad that it'll all be over soon. people.. remind me to push myself to study yah. thanks. if not i'll just slack. i'm here only because i had to reply a very important e-mail ok.. not because i'm too free.
the moment i reached home i went to bathe then sat down to study lah.. amazing i think, for someone like me to actually do that. really praise God! but at least i finished in time to catch singapore idol and get some load off my chest. that really felt good. oh my hat.. that whispering guy.. hopeless..
worse still the one who tried to do some techno thingy.. whatever he was trying to sing, he sure gave it a bad name. gosh.. it was plain horrble save a handful of exceptions. really pitied the judges.. and gurmit singh has a good voice. :)
anyways.. i jst applied for leave from choir.. for prelims and 'o's.. sigh.. one less thing to look forward to in my week. :( but i hope it wont be that bad. and i just know that i'll be needing all the time i can get.
but then again one good thing is that i'll be able to sit at the teenzeal area with my gang again! :) woohoo! really miss you precious people..
haha one last thing before i go and sleep. (i need rest) desmond, the lyrics.. (sorry i took so long yah.. was studying) (REALLY)
into Your hand
i commit again
all i am for You Lord
You hold my world
in the palm of Your hand
and i am Yours forever
Jesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
the reason that i sing
(with all i am)
i'll walk with you
whereever You go
through tears and joy i'll trust in You
and i will live
in all of Your ways
Your promises forever
i will worship
i will worship You(x4)
yup yup! :) finally yah.. :) hee.. i live to worship my King of Glory. He has saved me. i'll forever sing His praise. because He loves me! i'm free! hallelujah!
haha okies anyways i gotta go yah. :) anyone want any lyrics just e-mail or sms me lah. or you can call my phone! (only 7am to 7pm) muahaha... the joys of free-incoming.. yeah.. be blessed all!
soaring over mountains of defeat
for He carries me on eagles wings,
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:13 AM
Monday, August 16, 2004 ;
man... woke up feeling so giddy i couldnt even walk straight. then i went back to sleep and woke up again at 1030hrs. felt so weird. haha woman was late for lecture.. -oopx- yeah anyways... was studying all the way since after washing up.. so very sorry to those who tried calling. :)
happy birthday Jo! love you v much!
haha i cant wait for Gig3!gonna be one of the best gigs ever.. just have this feeling. so cool! and so what if its in the middle of my prelims... :) that's not going to change the fact that i will have fun and enjoy myself, and of course it wouldn't change the fact that my Daddy is going to be there! :) oh man.. He just loves me SO much!! =D
you know.. when i first got back my results for chinese, i was super disappointd. i was like, what?! c5?! then i felt so gross.. but i failed to realize that actually that grade was already very good. considering i have been failing since sec3.. i was so disappointed, so reliant on my flesh, that i even forgot to praise Him for giving me a distiction for oral/listening(which i SO did NOT deserve).. frankly speaking, i didnt even deserve the c5 grade!i really deserved to fail.
the reason why i got the grades i got is all out of His great love for me. i mean, who gets distinction for oral when you stumble on 3/4 of all the words in the passage and say 1/2 the words wrongly? haha.. i think i'm the only one. that just goes to show how great my God is.. He uses the things that are not to not the things that are! :)
well, so for those of you who didnt do as well as you wanted to for whatever thing it is.. just remember. you dont even deserve the grades you are currently getting, what more the grade you want. you get good grades not because of you or what you have done. you get good grades because Jesus gave you the good grades. He is merciful and He loves you. praise Him in spite and despite of all your circumstances. in any case, He is a good God. the goodest of all. :)
-doosh-
my brother shaved his head...
now i feel like cutting hair too.. not really cutting as in cutting short but like.. haha aiyah... nvm.
goodness whats wrong with her? just because someone ELSE put her in a bad mood she has to take it all out on ME. sigh... oh well. i didnt blow up at her at least. thank God. He really has something great in store for our relationship amen.. and the devil's afraid of that. that's why he's attacking it so much.. hallelujah. Daddy is my patience. how can i be rude to her when she's God's beloved? and how can i not forgive her when she's just as forgiven as i am?
Lord.. thank You for Your mercies, thank You for Your grace. thank You for loving me. thank You for everything. You are my life, i live for You.
soaring over mountains of defeat, because He carries me.
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 3:49 AM
aye sheet lah.. ok she really has a problem ok. how many times must i tell her. math is NOT my life. and still she insists that i should only be working hard for math. its not like my midy-rs arent proof enough that i cannot afford to neglect other subjects as well. i may have improved in math, but i did badly for alot of the other subjects that i should have done well for. and SHE was the one who was so unhappy about that ok. hello.. i've already finished the math homework lah! now what.. cannot do anything else except math is it? fine! i devote my life to math lah! and fail everything else also dont care just do math lah! as long as i get distinction for math its enough is it? fine lah! what the shit! what the f***! i mean. its not like other subjects are not important lah! i know math is important. who the mama hell doesnt know that is damn stupid lah! i know its important. but so what. it doesnt make the other subjects any less important. it doesnt make literature any less important. i already haf a shit f***ed up teacher for lit. if i dont work myself i really will end up getting an F9. and then SHE'll be the one who kills me. but then again, SHE's the one who wants me to devote my friggin life to math. so what.. she expects me to not do anything but math, and still get A1 for everything, including math. dont be a shithead mom. that friggin is NOT going to happen. shit man. what's your problem?! its not as if YOU did so well in school. you didnt even make it past secondary school may i remind you. crazy ass. b****. what is wrong with you? why keep attacking me? cos i'm not your ONLY son right. shit. i'm super pissed. shit. i cant stand it. shit shit shit. so fine.. i'll just stick to doing math. and fail everything else. that's what YOU want right. so i'll give it to you! maybe, just maybe. that would make you a LITLLE happier with me yah? i hope. everyone else is better right. except your own daughter. of course. annabelle's perfect. so is aaron. yeah.. it makes sense you know. so that leaves amanda to get the shit for everything! YAY! isnt that just so great! wow! cool huh. well shit its not. cos you're not amanda. and i am. and it sucks ok. what the hell. go ahead. just keep screaming at me. one day when i cant stand it anymore.. come on man. i'm human too. shit. maybe if you just stopped screaming everyine will be a little happier and your son would like you the least bit more. what's wrong with you? too much influence from your husband? shit. i know you're human. i know you want me to do well. but what you're doing just isnt going to help. shit why am i saying this here? not as if she could ever learn enough about computers to be able to come see this. ah shit. forget it. everythings cool. i'll just.. keep it in. everything's fine. it's all great yah. :) smile~ i'm happy. very. so, i shall go and do math! that excites me. the very thought of math puts a smile on my face! HAHA.
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 1:30 AM
Sunday, August 15, 2004 ;
lately i've been thinking
i feel like i've been sinking
losing my train of thought
forgetting that life's been bought
i asked you why you loved me
and still love me today
you gently looked in my eyes
and then i hear you say
"my child you're so precious
you're precious to me
i made you with my hands
i made you to live
and now life i've given you
take and be free
i know you've been thinking
leave that to me"
lately i've been thinking
how you came forgiving
such grace you gave so freely
you pour your love all out on me
i wondered why you bother
i wondered why you care
and then i hear you whisper
into my ear with care
"my child you're so precious
you're precious to me
i made you with my hands
i made you to live
and now life i've given you
take and be free
i know you've been thinking
leave that to me"
:)yay! i wrote a song! haha its God-given. came up with all that in less than five minutes. that's definitely God. for sure cos i know i'm not that smart one. :) hallelujah! haha Daddy sure knows my hearts' desires! :)
He knows your thoughts, He knows your fears.. He even keeps your tears in a bottle. dont worry.. what ever challenge it is you are currently facing, Daddy is surely with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you amen. :)
in Christs' love and mine
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:31 AM
wait!!! :) before i sign out today.. i want this special someone to know this special something.
valen this is for you.
babe i miss you! and i love you yah. frens are frens FOREVER if the Lord's the Lord of them. forever babe. forever is forever and nothing will ever change that. i love you for who you are and who i am when i am with you. that will not change no matter how much or how little time we spend together. i love you for you. we'll always be frens, and you'll FOREVER be my dearest sister in Christ.
there. i got it out of my system. :) i meant that. every word. :) you are a great great blessing to me, and i really treasure you. you mean so much to me!
love,
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:22 AM
okae i hereby officially announce.. i'm feeling quite high again. haha.. :) also dunnoe why lah. joy of the Lord amen.. :) so happy with my new song.
haha just heard the news. ronald susilo has gotten quite far yah.(for those who blur, he's a badminton player yah) then i was like, wow... singapore? haha then after awhile i realized. oh yah.. susilo's not singaporean... hee..
ok so i'm mean but its quite true wad.. :) anyway.. just remembered.. a few days ago, i heard a fren saying that he would dedicate his time to church when he did have the time, or when he was free-er.
then i was thinking.. it doesnt matter whether you actually have the time or not. if you really want to serve God and you know beyond the shadow of a doubt what you're serving for, then everything will work out itself.
'for all things work together for good, to those who love Him, and to those who are called according to His purpose.'
see.. He will make time for you when you give Him our time. in fact, He will use your giving Him time as an excuse to bless you! see how good our Father in heaven is.
haha in any case.. i realized its quite late. and i'm serving 1st and 2nd tmw.. or should i say later... :) yup then.. off i go!
with love,
~BOK~
*bok does a dance of delight*
*twirls about a bit*
*thinks to herself,"why am i doing this?"
*now bok prepares to go offline, then sleep*
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:11 AM
Thursday, August 12, 2004 ;
gosh... today i took my 'o' level english oral exams. man.. i thought they'd set better questions than that. who knew..
when i started reading the stupid passage, it was okae.. at first. until i reached the line 'i have been a clown for ten years now'... SIGH..
but i was like, okae, that's not so bad.. at least i didnt see one.so yeah.. read read.. all about the hard and pathetic life of a clown. (haha sry shawn.. no offense to your fren).. i was like, see.. it never pays to be a clown.
then, when i turned over to look at the stupid picture, wonder of all wonders!!! :) didnt noe if i should have laughed or cried. (just fyi, i didnt do any of those two things) oh my hat. when i turned the page, there was this super horrible freaky clown staring right in my face. like hello!! is cambridge stupid or wad? nothing better to set? why of all things must set on clowns?? oh man.. the worst set of oral questions ever. -doosh-
my immediate reaction was to flip the page over again so that i wudnt be looking at the stupid clown. haha got a weird stare from the time-keeper.. -_-'' so i was like, sheesh.. act natural! act atural! ya but too bad i already caught his attention.. and for the rest of the time i was sitting there he kept giving me weird glances. *sigh*
however, it then dawned on me that if i didnt look at the stupid picture with the stupid clown, i wudnt be able to plan my answer.. *sigh* so what to do.. i had no choice but to face that ass-clown for the next ten minutes.. (haha if ur wondering whether ass-clown is the clown or the time-keeper, i'd say its both) =D
anyways.. back to my point. the stupid clown.. he didnt even look like he was enjoying himself. so i said he looked bored and whatever, substantiating my answers, the like.. talked so much crap.. haha i didnt give the examiners a chance to speak! haha think the examiners got sick and tired of hearing about clowns, so we moved on to conversation.
by the way, my examiners.. gosh. it was quite hilarious, come to think of it. the woman looked as if the whole world owed her a living while the man(woman.. it?) was so gay. i mean, try imaginig this skinny guy sitting cross legged(i mean like the girls kind of cross leg).. then with his hands on his knees. *puke*
ya anyways.. where was i~ ya.. so we moved on to converesation. 'take for example you were a teacher. do you think this job would make you bored?' so i went blah-ing away.. blah blah.. then they were like, smile abit at certain points..
then next question. 'what job, other than teaching, would you enjoy and not get bored with?' so like at that very instant i forgot how to say the word veterinarian.. -_-'' so i was like, 'erm.. ZOO-KEEPER!' cos cannot pause too long to think mah.. so must faster say.. then those two people laugh at me. i wanted to box them.
yeah.. then the next question was to tell them 'about a funny show or movie or scene that happened recently..' -deesh- okae... so like, the word funny was running thru my brain..
.... funny.... funny.... funny...
then for some strange reason the words 'fifty first dates' popped into my mind.. so i started rattling on about fifty first dates. describing the parts which i thot were funny and why.. then the two of them were laughing too. haha yeah i know... favour.. haha..
gosh.. i just know that i talked so much. like before the thingy started i wanted to pee, but after i came out of the exam room my mouth was so dry and i felt so dehydrated.. gosh.. haha to think i was even nervous before i stepped into the exam room. haha who knew i could talk so much. =D hee..
so yeah.. it wasnt that bad lah.. at least i wasnt shaking like a leaf like during chinese.. haha that one really grace grace man. :)
haha yeah anyways... hey erm.. wads ur name? haha sorry.. gobblogblog.. haha yeah harlow.. :) oopx.. really hope you dont mind me publicising your bloggie like that. :P but its a good thing you know.. :) then you can make more frens from S'pore! hee.. then next time if you come over for holiday we can give you free tours or something. :) haha... and you can come visit our church!
New Creation Church. its at Suntec City. level 4 above Carrefour. there are four services you know.. 9am, 11.15am, 2pm and 4.15pm. :)
anyways... haha think i've crapped enuf. my sole purpose of entering this entry was actually to complain about the clown thingy. haha but its ok. at least i got it over and done with. :)
ok then.. i gtg now. blog again soon! btw, i dont think i rmb wad i was supposed to say from the last blog.. but oh wells.. its ok lah. dont think it was THAT important. :)
soaring above mountains of defeat,
~BOK~
p/s:to those who have not taken the orals.. trust me. the last thing you want to do is to panic. please, for the sake of all man-kind, stay calm.. breathe. you have to breathe. (inhale exhale..) yes. and think out of the box yes, but dont go out of point. and do NOT box the examiners. i'm really serious about this one. i repeat, do NOT box the examiners. even if they yawn in your face..(dont worry sheena. its okae..)
ok i really should go if not i'll just keep going on and on.. haha dont know why for some strange reason i seem to be feeling so high now. cant stop talking! haha.. must be the ribena.
-doosh-
yupx.. everything's cool one. so just relax. and i know we're getting back results tmw. chill yah. :) its coming tmw, nothing we can do about it already except pray. so just relax and laugh at the pple auditioning for S'pore Idol. :) this will all be over soon and the sec4s will be havibg a blast. =D okae then..
man i just cant seem to stop lah. haha.. quite irritating but what to do. i just have to let go.
man i just rmbed something! i want to complain about TransIsland bus service! its really horrible. i'm particularly talking about bus number 187. gosh.. sometimes can even wait for hafl an hour! its exasperating! *tsk* cant stand it.. and their bus always leaks when ti rains.. man that one is really highly irritating.
hee i think i really should go.. and study! haha.. talk too much crap already. now i just want to laugh at those pple who have ~SUCH COURAGE~ to go audition and do dumb stuff on S'pore Idol. haha.. i support banana man!! =D kae then.. i'm off!
pressed but not crushed,
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:22 AM
Tuesday, August 10, 2004 ;
haha okae this isnt the thigy i wanted to share but its still important that everyone should know. muahaha!!
saints won the sandcastle building competition!!! muahahahax! and it was really praise God, cos when we first started out the whole group of eight had no idea what to do. we didnt even know how to start.
but then we just left it to Daddy.. and there.. we won. :) ok i'm not saying that the other groups didnt trust god or anything, but this is just an example. that God cares even for the littlest and most un-important details of your life. i mean, how important is a sandcastle?
yup.. He really loves us alright. :) haha and the best part was that each and everyone of us had a really great time, and we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly. :) we had so much fun, and our time was just so blessed. :) Daddy binds our frenships amen. :) i feel i got alot closer to alot of pple ytd. :) prasie God.
anyways.. i really have to go now. :)
His precious daughter,
~BOK~
p/s: by the way, the prizes were great! thanks to all the Teenzeal leaders and those who helped plan the outing! it was great! be blessed, all!
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:01 PM
i just read some pples bloggies.. dunno lah this gy from m'sia somehow found my bloggie and left a comment with his addy.. so i went to visit. and read thru some of his frens bloggies too.
well, it really saddens me that so many pple out there in this God-given world dont know the true grace of God. like how they still beg for forgiveness every night and stuff.
left some super long comments there. :) and 'preached' myself happy as usual. :) and man.. it just dawned on me how much God loves me. i mean, not that i really can know, but... aiyah u noe wad i mean lah. :) like, how He died just so i could live.. when actually my existence isnt really of much worth. and that He went thru 'hell' just so i could enjoy heaven on earth. He took my pain so that i wouldnt have to suffer. He took my curse so that i could be blessed. wow~
is that a great God or what? haha i think He's more what.. cos its like indescribable. =D
another comment on one of those bloggies was that "sometimes God still gives sickness and disease to punish us". whoa... and how ironic that the line before said "all good things are from God, and all bad things from the devil". and these are from the SAME person.
gosh. people are confused.. so i left another super long comment lah. haha.. just felt like i had to share the good news. people need the Lord, and i'm just wondering when and how long they'll take to realize that fact.
sometimes it does make me wonder whether those who are taught grace take grace for granted. that would really be sad. and it also dawned on me how important prayer is, tho it isnt the thing that changes circumstances and all.
anyway, praise God my mom got her voice back after totally losing it(i have no idea how) about 2 day ago. wow that was fast.. :) and one more sad thing.. :( i have a tan line... :( on my shoulders... :( bleah.. oh well.. haha. guess that's inevitable when you're at the beach. and when u cycle in the hot sun for i-have-no-idea-how-long. haha. my butt hurts now..
oh wells.. there isnt choir prac tmw. they decided to give us a break. :( which means only one more prac to go before i'm on leave. :( i'll miss choir.. really.
oh my hat... i wanted to say something.. but it just slipped my mind.. ah.. (makes frustrated valen sound) LoLx.. (sry arh babe) its just farni. i'll blog again when i rmb it. :)
okae then.. i have to go eat my din-dins.. :)
righteous in Christ,
~BOK~
p/s: that persons bloggie is http://gobblogblog.blogspot.com/
yupx..
pp/s: sigh... i still cant rmb what i wanted to say... -_-"
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:53 PM
Monday, August 09, 2004 ;
sometimes i dont know anymore.. whether pple are in a ministry to know pple and be known, or whether they're really in it for God. and its quite sad.. cuz like.. the reason why we even exist is Jesus. He is the air we breathe.
serve Him cos He loves us, not because.. 'just because'. that's a lousy reason to be serving. in fact, if you really think that way, then i feel that you shudnt be serving at all.
pple shud get their priorities staight. i mean.. that's just how i personally feel lah.. its no point doing something 'for' God when the focus isnt even on Him. then it'll just be empty works. it wouldn't be as powerful or fruitful as you'd haf wanted it to be.
maybe i'm just too sensitive.. but that's just what i've been feeling lately. i'm not saying i'm right.. but somehow i just haf this feeling that pple are starting to lose their focus on God.. like, i think their just too caught up in other stuff.
like for me, i've learnt never to belittle myself you know. whatever it is, God has a plan for my life, a purpose for me. one that only i can fulfill. its my calling. noone can walk it out but me. if He has called me to do something, then i'll do it. and not out of self pride or other foolish reasons. but plainly because i know that He loves me. He gave me that special calling because He loves me and knows that i will enjoy doing what He has called me to do.
it wudnt matter what pple think or say, whether against me or for me. nothing matters except God. He is the reason i live, the reason i sing. He is my reason.
i am more precious to Him than heaven. He left there to be in my heart. he feeds the birds and clothes the lilies. how much more me, Hos precious beloved daughter.. i'm always reminded that whatever i do, i should always look to Jesus. He is the alpha and the omega. the author and finisher of my life. its never over until He says it is.
even if i dont get what i want when i want it, it wouldnt matter. even if the whole world goes against me it wouldnt matter. cos i still have Him, and that's all that matters in the end. and anyway challenges only mean that its gonna get better. Daddy will restore a thousand times more! plus the fact that my now is so beautiful.. made beautiful by God Himself. :) so no matter what happens, i dont really care. i'm just gonna enjoy, cos He's given me the right to do so.
rejoice pple. your God is for you. noone can be against you!
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:52 AM
why does my dad haf to be so mean? what, he thinks violence and all is really going to help? its not going to solve anything lah. in fact it'll just make it worse.
i mean.. you dont go and ahout at your son at 11pm for the whole neighbourhood to hear. pls lah.. pple want to slp one. why cant he be a little nicer?
okae. so my brother does have an attitude problem. but may i suggest its only because his father cares more about everything else than the family? wudnt that make it his fault?
what, he thinks just cos he's a big guy means he can do anything? what's with the threats anyway? it doesnt scare us. i dont care if he really does punch me or my brother in the face anyway. its not going to change anything, except make us hate him more. fine, strangle us, slap us in the face. what do i care???
anyway everything else matters more. what's family to him? wud it make a difference whether we were living with him or not? frankly i think not. since he always wants to ounch us in the face.. ha! maybe one day he shud just do it. then i'd know that at LEAST he's a man of his word.
well actually is he a real man? hah. i dont really think so. what husband doesnt look after his wife when she's sick? what father threatens to smash in his kids face? hello even animals dont do that.(even if they do that's not the point.)
what is wrong with this man? he's not the father i once knew. argh!! what is he like having menopause or what? even then dont take it out on my brother. or me for that matter. hello we did NOT cause his menopause..(if it is lah)
gosh he made ah boy cry kae. who makes aaron bok cry?? noone! he's just damn mean lah! my brother never cries ok. i'm serious. what is wrong with this father?
i cant blame my brother for not believing that God is such a great Father. like, with this kind of dad.. F***(sry) sheesh and i cant help him. i cant do anything but pray. and feel helpless. i hate this. hate this hate this hate this. shit.
aiyer what's wrong with him lah..its not like any amt of shouting will make my brother be obedient. even IF it really works..it'll be out of fear, not love. shucks lah.
God why??? sob. i just need him to be a LITTLE bit more concerned about us. you noe.. like to just show us abit more love or wadeva. what his heart diamond arh?? got problem.. sheesh.
i hate it when this happens. which is unfortunately.. ah never mind. gosh.. man cant he smile when he's at home? i;m not even asking him to laugh or talk to us nicely.. just smile for God's sake! smile! argh! feel like pulling out all my hair! but then again that wudnt help much.
sigh... oh wells... one day.. he'll be worshipping. ... i pray... exhale. i shud just forget about it.
sigh...
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:34 AM
Sunday, August 08, 2004 ;
oh yeah... to all the sec4s yah.. chinese 'o's results coming out alr.. just wanna tell u all. dun give up no matter wad kae. results are temporal, but Jesus' love is eternal! His love reaches to further than the farthest star, the farthest planet.
your success is NOT. let me repeat.. is NOT dependant on results or circumstances. your success is Jesus. it wudnt matter wad ur results are. but of course it'll be blessed. whether u do well or not(and we surely will one amen) does not make Him love u any less.. or any more for that mater. He just loves you.
and anyway He has ALREADY made ur now beautiful rite.. :) even if u dont do as well as u wanted to, it wud just mean that He has better things in store for you. so relax yah. :)
and also He always wants u to be happy yah. He loves to see that glorious smile on your beautiful face. plus the fact that it takes less effort and less muscles to smile than to frown.. haha so just smile lah! =D its so easy to smile when u noe that ur Father in Heaven, the Most High God, loves u more than u cud ever imagine yeah.:) that's more than enuf reason to be happy!
rmb to always lean on Him yah. His grace is more, much more, than sufficient for you. always look to Jesus! He is smiling down on you..
anyways.. haha i really really gtg! :) be encouraged in the Lord pple! He really really loves u alot! He's head over heels for u!
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 3:03 AM
hello.. man. heyee!today's the live recording! :) -excitement- didnt go to skool today..sigh.
man... somehow i feel confused.. stuffs been happening. i dunno wad to say bout it all. but i just noe i dont like it. =/ maybe i'm too sensitive? hah.. still the same question's running thru my head tho..
'why was it me? why was it NOT me?'
sometimes feel like..argh~ dunno lah. frustrating man. i guess i shudnt care bout it all. live a happy life.. i dunno. but sometimes its hard not to care.. u noe wad i mean? wish i cud sorta turn back time. i wud haf made a much wiser decision.kept my distance maybe? sigh...think i'm just bad-mooding again. boy when will these mood sings ever stop? its irritating!
haha but then again.. my now is beautiful rite.. and Daddy has given me the right to enjoy! so i'm just gonna abuse that right! =D haha i feel better already. talked myself happi. ok so maybe moods arent totally uncontrollable..
jus haf to remind urself that Daddy has ALREADY made ur now beautiful. and that He's given u the right to enjoy. man.. if its made beautiful by God.. then it must be super extremely good lah. :)
come to tink of it.. God's goodness is really beyond words. beyond description. man.. His mercy is much more abundant man.. :)everything is Him lah.. i cudnt imagine life w/out God. people need the Lord! its like.. He gives u the grace to do something. then He blesses us for doing it. :) haha.. such grace. man..
anyways... i'lll haf to go soon... i'll be mugging! rmb.. Daddy loves extravagantly, blesses abundantly and favours extraordinarily!
~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 2:38 AM
Thursday, August 05, 2004 ;
haha today was quite an average day.. but still, its one from the Lord.. everyday is a special happy day!! :)anyways.. i'm glad i didnt fall asleep in math again... gosh i shld really stop doing that.. but really v tired lah. anyways..
haha seems like mr ang really likes our class eh.. haha.. but that goon said i used to space out/stone in his class.. haha ok maybe i really used to.. but not so un-glam as wad he demo-ed lah!! sigh...
then during chem prac.. man.. those gases are super stinky! sometimes i wish chem was all prac and no theory..oh well.. but i still duno why we learn amath. i mean like, hello.. who uses integration once u start work?? quite lame.
chinese o's results are coming ut soon! :)-excitement- haha..praise God for gd results! i so do NOT wanna re-take.. that wud be gross.. niwaes... gtg alr.. go and mug.. haha. take care u peeps!
WE WILL DANCE ; 6:21 AM
