hello everyone please meet my new best friend, Darren. =)
do we look alike? ahahahhahahahahahaha
=) this one warms my heart more. eeeheeheeeee!
new best bun. Darren Chew Ze Jun!
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:45 AM
Daddy..
remember the times we danced, how we swayed to the rhythm of the beat of Your heart, Your heart of love for me?
remember the times You held my hand and told me that everything would be alright?
remember the times You picked me up when i fell, brushed the dirt off my elbows, looked me in the eye and said "I still believe in you"?
remember the times You just let me cry in Your arms while You stroked my hair?
remember the times You held on to me, even when i struggled and tried to escape Your embrace, You still held on to me?
remember the times You just sat beside me to hear me sing, then turned around to tell me my voice is beautiful?
remember the times You just let me ramble on and on and on about things that weren't even that interesting, but You smiled and let me go on anyway?
remember the times You sang me to sleep, and just continued singing even though i'd already fallen asleep?
remember the times You healed my broken heart and washed away my hurt?
remember the songs You gave to me, the songs that touched lives and changed hearts?
remember the times You took my breath away?
i know You can do it again.
noone said it would be easy, but YOU said YOU believe in me. that's all i need to know. You believe in me. yes, You believe in me.
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:47 PM
=) been abandoning the blog for quite some time now. but it's really not on purpose! i blog more in multiply now, but i always use the cross-post option but then somehow they never appear here so oh well.
anyways. nothing much has been up recently. but suddenly the word 'respect' has caught me in a different way.
respecting your leaders, respecting your parents, respecting your peers, respecting other religions, and even respecting people you don't know.
it's like it just suddenly became so important to me. guess it's got something to do with growing. heheh though some people do think i've become stuck up when i tell them it isn't too nice to be doing this this that that.
but really, it's from the heart. i myself have come to a stop when joking about certain issues. cos i realised that it just isn't funny anymore.
i mean, sensitive issue, but yeah, especially when it comes to religion.
who's to say that Christianity is like how big and how wonderful. but i never really saw it that other people from other religions do think that about their own religions too.
as in like, obviously since i'm a christian that to me it's the best religion in the world, but today it hit me that well, that's the way humans are.
that if we as christians want people to respect us, then who are we to not respect other religions? because to others, their own religions are also the best.
and i always used to make fun of other religions, joke about this and that, then it suddenly hit me that, man i'd be so pissed if i heard someone laughing like that about my God. and i don't want them to do that!
so what gives me the right to laugh at their god, to laugh at what they believe in and have believed in all their lives? that'd just make me a reeaaaalllllyyy rude person.
but oh well. =) fooood for thought!
and one thing. worship indulgence. (: 2007's gonna be so so so good. praise Jesus for acceleration, praise Jesus for dreams fulfilled, praise Jesus for promises and praise Jesus that He is faithful.
i WANT Your blessings, i WANT Your high life, i WANT Your favour, i WANT the dew of Heaven and i recieve, i lambano (howtospell) , i take it by force! THANK YOU JESUS, cos this (and more) is what You died to give me. ilu.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:01 AM
heart's cry.
Lord i'm here
to sit at Your feet
to behold
Your beauty
Jesus, all my fears they fade away
when i see You
when i see You
You're the One thing that i need
Your presence is all i'll ever seek
overwhelm me with Your love
till all i see is You
all i see is You
i really wanna worship You my Lord
You have won my heart
and i am Yours
forever and ever
You will love me
Lord i give You my heart
i give You my soul
i live for You alone
every breath that i take
every moment i'm awake
Lord have Your way in me
then sings my soul
my Saviour God to Thee
How great Thou art
How great Thou art
let Your presence fall on me
let Your Spirit fall i pray
let me be refreshed
let me be restored
only You can really heal my heart oh Lord
oh i want to know You more
deep within my soul i want to know You
oh i want to know You
to feel Your heart and know Your mind
lookin in Your eyes stirs up within me
cries that say i want to know You
oh i want to know You more
and then i hear You say,
I believe in you
yes I believe in you
everything you are
everything you are becoming
I believe that you are made for greater things than this
greather things that what you're doing
you are made for greater things
there is noone else like you
noone else as beautiful as you
(:
so what could i say, what could i do, but offer this heart oh Lord, completely to You.
WE WILL DANCE ; 6:04 AM
no one and nothing at anytime shall EVER touch the Lord's Anointed Ngee Ann.
for we are as a Tree planted by the Rivers of Living Water, and our roots go Deep, very very deep, and our leaves are green and fresh and they Never wither.
All that we set our Hands to do Shall Surely Prosper, and in All that we do we will Surely Prosper, for the Lord Himself Blesses All that we do and touch.
the Lord Himself is Ngee Ann's Shield, our Glory, the Lifter of our Heads. when we cry out to Him, He will Surely answer for We are the ones He so dearly Loves and gave up His life for.
Ngee Ann shall lay down and sleep, and Will wake up in Safety, for the Lord Himself watches over us day and night and He never slumbers.
we shall Not be afraid of ten thousand enemies who surround us on every side, for the Lord is our Shield, and God is For us.
Jesus, You protect Ngee Ann so that we will be filled with Joy, so that we will sing Your Joyful Praises forevermore, and we will proclaim Your awesome Power.
Jesus, i thank You that You bless us and surround us with Your shield of Love, and You give us much greater Joy than those who have abundant harvests of grain and wine.
Jesus, forever and ever You are with Ngee Ann, You lead us and guide us, You are our inheritance and our Cup of Blessing, and You guard All that is ours. we will not be shaken for we know You are right beside us.
i thank You Lord, You have given us the shield of Your Salvation. Your Right Hand supports us, Your gentleness has made us great. You have made a wide path for our feet to keep our feet from slipping.
Daddy, You alone are our strength, our Fortress, our Saviour, our Rock in Whom we find Protection, You are our stronghold.
Lord i thank You that You reach down from Heaven and rescue us, You drew us out of deep waters. You lead us to a place of safety and You rescue us because You delight in us.
even now i just speak the blessings of Deuteronomy28 into the lives of each and every single Ngee Ann caregroup member, i speak Increase into each life, and i proclaim supernatural abundant and overflowing Favour to Crown each of us, to surround each of us like a shield.
no evil shall befall any one of us, nor any harm come near our dwelling place because the God who crafted the Heavens and the Earth is the God who protects us, who keeps us in the shadow of His wings.
NONE SHALL TOUCH THE LORD'S ANOINTED.
deal with the Lord's Anointed, and you deal with God Himself.
i plead the blood of Jesus over the entire Ngee Ann caregroup. Jesus Himself brings us higher and clothes us in Glory and Righteousnous.
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:47 AM
HM6ix part nine.
camp. (: it made me learn many things, made me realise alot of things too.
i guess many times, the way you're brought up does alot to who you are now, who you will be when you grow up.
and honestly, sometimes it's quite scary how people (yes myself included!) still think that the world revolves around them, how they still think it's their right to know every single thing, how they have the right to do anything they want to.
(: oh well.
for me, i guess i learnt that i'm not such a big shot after all. like, who says my friends can't have a good time just cos i'm not around, and who says I can't have a great time just cos i'm not with my friends?
it kicked in really real for me during camp, that seriously Jesus is always with me. that even if i walk out of service to find that none of my friends waited for me, SO WHAT?
and of course, it was so hard when it was happening to you then and there, right in your face. two of your closest friends just walking away from you, hand in hand, as if they never even knew you existed. it cuts pretty deep huh.
hahahah i know it sounds kinda silly now but oh well. the entry's are partly to remind myself anyways.
but it's like. as hard as it was, Jesus was there. with me and with them. it was just a quiet knowing, the kind that grabs your heart, and you just know that though you might be alone, everything's gonna be alright.
i guess i learnt also that Daddy is that big to ensure that you'll never be forgotten for longer than you can take.
hahah okay that kinda sounds abit weird too but at the moment i can't really think of better phrasing.
oh well. bottom line is that you will never walk alone. (: cos Jesus is always and forever by my side, holding my hand when even i couldn't love myself.
(: that's one of the things that really got me this camp. (:
i will never walk alone.
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:50 PM
it scares me how you've changed.
i do pray, however, that you don't estrange yourself from your closest friends anymore. it won't help. take the walls away.
please.
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:53 AM
HM6ix part eight.
in a flash, it was already our third and last day at camp. rach and evan and i were adamant to stay awake instead of 'wasting time' (so to speak) sleeping.
ahh by the way, most of the photos are from the third night. =) streetwear night where i've got to say that i was really proud of my poly cluster, being so excellent and all. ((:
anyways, at about 7am (by then it was already the 4th morning cos we really didn't sleep the whole night) a small group of us went over to charle's room.
at first we were just going crazy, due to the highness caused by serious lack of sleep. consequently after that, i knocked out on the floor while rach, evan, zhengheng and yongjeee went to the balcony to just sing.
and so i was left sleeping on the floor while they were having their own praise and worship in the balcony.
at breakfast, they were sharing about how powerful it was, the little session that they had, no guitar no music, just voices, just a pure expression of each individual heartsong.
they told me how they'd literally felt dew forming on their arms, but when they looked and touched their arms, it was totally dry, and they all felt it together so it couldn't be imagination.
they told me how the anointing was so so so strong on them at that moment that yongjeee actually like, got slained. and very nearly did evan and rach as well. (by that time zhengheng had gone back to his room)
=) i tried to be happy for them.
hahah to be honest, I WAS SO UPSET. i mean, you guys just go outside and have some praise and worship, and just leave me sleeping, on the floor? oh my god!
(: yes, to be really honest, i was jealous, i was disappointed in them, i was angry, i was irritated, i was pissed off! (: i mean, really! i'm not gonna hide anything now. that was really how i felt!
managed not to think about it for a couple of days i guess, but soon after when i was on the phone with rach, we were just sharing about camp in general.
nothing very specific, mostly just jokes lah. hahahah! (: laughing and laughing like two mad people. though after that we did get down to sharing abit.
it was so good. ((: talking about Tim's sharing in 840, talking about the praise and worship sessions, the messages, the personal revelations..
suddenly, i felt it. this icy cold on your skin, so tingly and so cold, so wet and yet at the same time so calming and so peaceful.
and i just knew, deep down i just really had this knowing. (: this is the dew of heaven, and this was what my brothers and sisters felt in the balcony that morning.
i managed to whisper it to rach before i broke out in sobs, she likewise. (: and seriously, at that moment we both learnt something anew.
Jesus loves you way too much to ever shortchange you.
and His timing is always perfect.
WE WILL DANCE ; 7:13 AM
i'll never give up, i will never quit because Jesus can.
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:11 AM
caregroup worship was totally mind blowing yesterday. ((:
yeah, Jesus fell afresh on us.
WE WILL DANCE ; 1:14 AM
thank You for loving me
thank You for helping me see
You're what i've always longed for
You're the only One that i need
thank You for pretty stars
thank You that for me You went so far
You never once complained
You even set me apart to soar with You
thank You for holding me in Your embrace
thank You my Father i give You praise
You always calm my storms when i'm afraid
all i ever want is to see Your beautiful face
thank You for always being there
thank You that You will always care
You never let me go
i'm so secure Lord, You make me so secure
thank You for holding me in Your embrace
thank You my Father i give You praise
You always calm my storms when i'm afraid
all i ever want is to see Your beautiful face
what more could i say but this, when in the first place this is what You've given me. (:
You leave me speechless, and i love the way You love me.
YOU touch lives, Lord, YOU touch the lives of people all over the world. it is YOU and only YOU.
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:36 AM
heehee okay everyone i know this is really troublesome but i have been wanting to change my url for really long already. and i've finally thought of something i like. =)
from now on, my url is gonna be http://www.andishallsing.blogspot.com
((: sorry for the inconvenience to all. (:
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:14 AM
HM6ix part seven! the eye liner.
tears for alex and okay you can't really see it here but zhengheng has a scary big eye! hehe ;p
right eye by Samm, left eye by me! =) i've this thing with the tears i know.
he asked for eye bags wad. hahahahahah and yes, steve asked for a scar so i gave him one!
there you go, complete with the kiam-pa face! =D
and last but not least of course, yours truly make-up artist! =) heehee i really enjoyed myself you know. =)
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:37 PM
HM6ix part six! more photos! =)
look at the baby look at the baby look at the baby!
now look at the gorgeous mother of the baby.
o.m.g. hahahahah!
okay you can't see his scary eye but i did and it scared me! LOL and i drew the eye pleaseeee.
ngee ann caregroup, the MOST FAVOURED in the entire Poly Cluster, which is the most favoured Cluster in the entire Campus Ministry. (: because one princess proclaimed it to be. ((:
still damn gorgeous after praise and worship. no, actually just praise. ;p
and larry you're such an extra. TSK!
two loveliessssssssss =)
yongjeeeee and meeeeeeeeee! correction. yongjee and i. HAHAH too bad his eyeliner smudged already. :I
one of the most unglam things we did? but who cares!
hahahha now sing with me, life without Jesus is like a doughtnut, is like a doughnut, is like a doughnut! life without Jesus is like a doughtnut, with a hole in the middle of your heart! =D
truly a Mr. Birdy! =)
(rmb the nice lamp? HAHAH)
the guys love their make-up artist. and i love these guys man! (: thank God for friends like them. (:
heheh the guys make me wanna go study make-up you know. ((:
WE WILL DANCE ; 4:01 PM
HM6ix part five! photos!
oh the way to Malaysia. =) we had the nicest bus heehee.
what a draggy six hour bus ride does to you.
and we skipped straight to Day Three! =)
why the men don't get it. hahah!
at dinner (; i love these people.
i love the superman shirt!
and boys will be boys. heheh..
my precious Hammy Sammy ((: aii lubb eeuuu worx~
sis's new tattoo (which i think is ugly but let's not hurt his feelings so don't tell him)
anyway blogger is lousy and only lets me post up ten photos at a time, so HM6ix part six will be here soon! =)
oh and ding, please pass me back the first CD. hahahha yes the one with five hundred and forty something photos. (:
WE WILL DANCE ; 2:13 PM