yeah.. that's how i feel right now.. argh.. the timing.. what's with the timing? gosh.. ego freak!!! yup that's me...
now i really dont know what's real and what's not.
God.. You really have to help me.
send a bird to sing me majullah singapura or whatever..
i dont care! i just need to be enlightened!!!
and you're the only one who can help me...
but you dont even know.
oh my hat...
Jesus!!!
bleah... gross...
i wonder what i've gotten myself into. -_-''"
okae... my mood is as black as my nails now. seriously...
*screams* haha oh wait. i cant do that.. i'm at home. and its 1.19am.. i'll be waking the whole neighbourhood if i did that...
my nails!!! black and shiny. (thanks valen) looks quite scary man. i think they're way too long. they would cut my palm if my fists were clenched too tightly.
*doo doo dooo...*
-knock knock-
okae my brain is out.
......
lalala... this is weird... i feel weird... hmmz... yup.. this is definitely weird.
~long long pause~
=0 i dont feel like sleeping. there's no lessons tomorrow... but in any case i'll still be up by 10am... i think. i better be... sigh...
mood swinging i think. that's weird. i dont usually do that... i wonder if its stress over exams and all... i know i shouldnt be and have no reason to be... cos God's in control...
but somehow... i dont know. has anyone ever felt like this before? like you know you should be trusting God but somehow you cant let go?
sometimes i do wish God was more forceful... then He could force me to cast all my cares on Him. you know... like zap me or something. but He isnt...
and i still do hold on to cares and burdens that really shouldnt be getting me worried... its like i dont know why... but its just so hard for Man to let go and let God...
why? hmmx... actually maybe i do know why i'm mood swinging... just that... its dumb lah. and now... *shakes head and shrugs* dont know man.
i want to scream. i want to let go. but... how? so trapped in this four-walled 'prison' that we call home. ha.ha.
so we just keep everything bottled up! :] robots... that's what people are turning into. mankind is lacking emotion. lacking love. everything is just too developed. sometimes i hate development. it destroys the environment too... pollutes the air, the water... pollutes us.
and its supposed to be good. really? it doesnt really seem to be as good as they portray it to be... we wonder. lies? i think so, definitely. what else but lies? big or small, intentional or unintentional.. it doesnt matter. a lie is a lie.
lies hurt. somehow or another. they always do. oh well...
nothing matters, ~BOK~
WE WILL DANCE ; 1:48 AM
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the Priceless Work of Art
intricately designed by the Maker of the Universe
psalmist princess
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trading her ashes in for beauty
here in Love's embrace
forever to stay
bought with a price that no man could pay.
now, i belong to Him.
the blessed
the redeemed
the made whole
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