Monday, August 09, 2004 ;

why does my dad haf to be so mean? what, he thinks violence and all is really going to help? its not going to solve anything lah. in fact it'll just make it worse.

i mean.. you dont go and ahout at your son at 11pm for the whole neighbourhood to hear. pls lah.. pple want to slp one. why cant he be a little nicer?

okae. so my brother does have an attitude problem. but may i suggest its only because his father cares more about everything else than the family? wudnt that make it his fault?

what, he thinks just cos he's a big guy means he can do anything? what's with the threats anyway? it doesnt scare us. i dont care if he really does punch me or my brother in the face anyway. its not going to change anything, except make us hate him more. fine, strangle us, slap us in the face. what do i care???

anyway everything else matters more. what's family to him? wud it make a difference whether we were living with him or not? frankly i think not. since he always wants to ounch us in the face.. ha! maybe one day he shud just do it. then i'd know that at LEAST he's a man of his word.

well actually is he a real man? hah. i dont really think so. what husband doesnt look after his wife when she's sick? what father threatens to smash in his kids face? hello even animals dont do that.(even if they do that's not the point.)

what is wrong with this man? he's not the father i once knew. argh!! what is he like having menopause or what? even then dont take it out on my brother. or me for that matter. hello we did NOT cause his menopause..(if it is lah)

gosh he made ah boy cry kae. who makes aaron bok cry?? noone! he's just damn mean lah! my brother never cries ok. i'm serious. what is wrong with this father?

i cant blame my brother for not believing that God is such a great Father. like, with this kind of dad.. F***(sry) sheesh and i cant help him. i cant do anything but pray. and feel helpless. i hate this. hate this hate this hate this. shit.

aiyer what's wrong with him lah..its not like any amt of shouting will make my brother be obedient. even IF it really works..it'll be out of fear, not love. shucks lah.

God why??? sob. i just need him to be a LITTLE bit more concerned about us. you noe.. like to just show us abit more love or wadeva. what his heart diamond arh?? got problem.. sheesh.

i hate it when this happens. which is unfortunately.. ah never mind. gosh.. man cant he smile when he's at home? i;m not even asking him to laugh or talk to us nicely.. just smile for God's sake! smile! argh! feel like pulling out all my hair! but then again that wudnt help much.

sigh... oh wells... one day.. he'll be worshipping. ... i pray... exhale. i shud just forget about it.

sigh...
~BOK~

WE WILL DANCE ; 12:34 AM