Friday, May 16, 2008 ;

SAVE YOUR BLOODY MONEY BOK!
IT'S NOT EVEN SMART ANYMORE, JUST LIKE, BASIC!

from next month on,

- no cabbing to work (because i'll wake up on time every morning)

- only cab when it's really really necassary

- which means less late nights unless we drive out

- perhaps i should just get the massage package and stop splurging on individual massages

- don't buy anything until you absolutely heart it like heart it like
reallyomgdivinefromheavenheartitlikenothingintheworldcouldbebetter

- but i really need to repair some of my heels so that's a truly worthy cause, cos if i repair them i won't need to buy more! :)

- eat cheap? HAHA (byebye O Tapas, Timbre, NYDC, bombers... ... ...)


okay you know what. it's just this month. because i had to pay for camp and the stupid passport :( thats already half the salary gone yah. okay lah, i'm not that bad with my money alrights. hahaha i buy stuff for the parents and the home from time to time! :)

anyway 2am dessertbar is so good so good just that we should probably go down a lil earlier and get the sofas :D
O Tapas really depends on who you go with and what for haha cos actually it isn't that bad. o and very importantly, what time you go!
Timbre is still a favourite :) no questions asked if the Goodfellas are on that night :) it'd be mildly hilarious if like say, babu morely and i go together or sth.

and gosh the random plan for Phuture which totally didn't work out in the end. HAHA what were we thinking! and to think who they met there that night! if i'd been there it would have been extremely tickling.

:) life's been alright i guess. actually i pretty much came here to complain but once i started typing i realised i've not much to really complain about haha. been good, projects are still tiring me out here and there, as is schoolwork.. but it'll pass. c'mon bok, like four more mths officially? three more minus practicum mth.
WE CAN DO THIS!!!

haha gosh. sometimes i'm not sure if i should be thankful or irritated with you. because you always tell me that you wanna meet but you never do. 'oh i thought i wanna ask you out for dinner' or like 'oh i thought i could go with you' and i've never rejected you flat in your face!

i just leave the deciding to you but it seems you just never decide.

:) perhaps i should give up waiting.
because why should i.. why should i wait when i'm not even sure if you're worth it.

sure, i love it when you go 'eh we go together lah' and i smile to myself when you go 'oh i thought i could go with you' but. but. i dunno.
yeah, i wish we could sit downstairs again, just us and the dumb beer, with you playing with my hair and asking me dumb questions like 'what would you do if a guy just suddenly kissed you?' and i sort of wished you had but whatever. it's just a girl thing. is it? or it's just a bok thing.

you know what. i'm going crazy and i need to sleep.

GOD! yes i want a relationship even though i know i'm sorta not ready for one because i kinda suspect i'll make him my world and not You. but i want! maybe i just want that security of always having someone to meet, someone to call, someone to talk to, after the whole friends incident which still affects me from time to time but doesn't make me cry all night anymore.. but i just want lor. hahaha aiya only You can tahan my nonsense anyway :) at least.. i'll always have Someone i can pour my shit out to and who won't mind.

times of refreshing man.
feed me and give me water.
Lord i thirst and i hunger.
only You can satisfy
only You, my Sacrifice.



"time for bed, sleepyhead.. you got a big day tomorrow. tell the story to me some other time. get some rest and i'll do my best to shoulder the sorrow, no room for sadness in your beautiful eyes.. it's gonna fine, i know, you're gonna be fine:)"



okay love.
i believe in You.

WE WILL DANCE ; 1:17 PM