Dare 2 Play 4 was today :) and it felt like D2P3 was just a couple of months ago! pam and i were just laughing at the MGS scary backstage and toilets, and really, it didn't feel like a year ago. but i see myself today and i remember myself back then :) it has been such a good journey man.

but today was fun lah :) amazingly fun. hahah i seriously enjoyed myself on stage! and though i confess i sang wrongly when we did Solution, but haha i'm so glad i remembered what Joy shared about laughing it off.

i was so involved with the youths at the side i was standing on until i literally forgot to turn back to sean and look at his hand signals or was it pastor dan, and you know what. because for set piece we usually do that part ( i think it was bridge? ) 4 times before going to chorus...

but. smart me didn't watch out for hand signals so i thought we were doing the normal thing but nnnoooooooo! hahaha as i happily danced with the kids and sang out the 4th bridge with such conviction, i suddenly wondered why mine was the only voice i heard in my in-ear.

then i realised, OMG! they went to chorus already lor! thanks!

HAHAAH i very nearly burst out laughing :) which was funny because when those youths in front of me saw me grinning goofily, they started laughing too. which was nice to see cos you know at least they don't get the impression that oh if you make a mistake you better watch out for lightning and all.

it's about having fun in the presence of God lah. you know, usually i would have been like, o man what did i just do!! and like kick myself for every note sung off pitch. but today was just.. different :)

like i felt so free. to dance, to sing, to even make mistakes. felt so free to be me. and that felt good :) because just the way i am, together with my mistakes, is how i am loved. because just the way i am, together with my shortcomings, is how i am loved.

so i sang and i danced and yes i went flat on some parts, but still i was loved and still i was free to be me and be loved as me.

and i guess that's the beauty of worship :) that's the power of praise. you go before the throne, your heart and soul bared, your guards let down, your walls broken. you go before the throne, and there you find yourself in Love's embrace. there you find rest. there you find peace. there you find joy. there you find restoration. there you find provision. there you find a supply that always exceeds the demand.

Dare 2 Play 4 :) i had so much fun on stage today i forgot to be conscious of myself :))) to be lost in Love's embrace :) man, this is what i'm called to do.