okay, you know what. i have so much to talk about, about the camp, that i just don't know where to start. but basically, i miss the camp comm and the servers man! goodness! life's different without spending 24hrs with each other! i really miss that man :)

and you know what :)

as servers we really witnessed a change in the people, both individually and as a whole :) which is what i think is one of the most precious things :) you really see bonding happen, and you really see the people mature in their thinking and the way the act.

the joy we felt, seeing the revelation of never-let-go drop from each campers head to their hearts :) from them knowing it to feeling it and then living it :)

it made me feel.. honoured :) and very privileged and blessed indeed that Daddy would actually hand pick me to serve at this camp, alongside many other servers who are like definitions of excellent servers :)

these are people who are always eager to put the campers and even their fellow servers before themselves, these are people who care more for the welfare of others, who would give up their personal time to help a camper in need :) these are the people i serve with, these are the people i am proud to call family :)

amazing people like gary, samchan, yvonne, jo soh, audrey, rach, nat, charissa, denise, morely, louis wang, joseph, ping, yq, zhengfu, anil, big ben, jon poh, coach andy, coach jo, eileen, shirley, xiaohan, bridget, stella, shayna, jana, irish, minghui, edmund, zheng kai, kenn, eng chong, ian and so many more :)

man, you guys are really amazing!! i think it was beautiful to see not only the campers bonding with themselves, but the servers too :) we became family. and i like family.

we looked out for each other, helped each other even with the simple things like getting water or waking up on time :) hahahahaha or taking towel if we forgot :D HAHAHA ok thats only me but still :) thank you charissa! hahaha!

you know it's funny how people can bond so much in just four short days :) sometimes i wish everyday was a camp because we get so close and we learn to live with each other just the way we are.

but then again, if we had that, we'd take it for granted sooner or later. i think, maybe it'd be nice if we learnt to live with each other just the way we are not just in camp, but in the everyday life :)

anyway :)

i will never forget how it feels like to be thrown into an ankle deep pool of mud, and how it feels to be dragged around in it, and definitely how it feels to throw someone else into it! HAHAH o gosh :D

Daddy loves me enough to place me at the armlock station, and He loves me even more to place the specific facils there with me :) rach, drey, shirley, morely, yq, louis, anil, ben, coach andy :)) you guys are amazing man!! hahaha i swear our station is the most happening station :D

and the 5BX station! hahahaha girls, i love all of you from the bottom of my heart! :)) drey, rach, denise, nat, charissa, minghui, jo, linda :) hahahaah we had so much fun going crazy, doing the 5BX ourselves just to keep awake because we were getting so so so sleepy :D

haha and then joseph turned up and made audrey and i laugh so hard that we forgot all about our "role-play" in front of the campers for just that short while :D aahahah the stupid super bass :D hahahah! amazing.

all the late nights, all the madness from lack of sleep, all the going "aaahhhhhh" together because there exists no water heaters in sarimbun scout camp, all the "eh later need to bring file anot?" and all the "what time do we have to wake up ah", and the not being able to climb onto the double decker bed and not forgetting my most wonderful and effective alarm tone :D AHAHAHAH

and of course :) playing the water bottle game! ohhhhhh yvonne! let's get the IM and events team out again :D i promise my hand is better now and i can play it already! let's go ice-skating, or blading at marine cove, or maybe we'll just go back to minds cafe!! hahah! o you know what :D we should go play laser quest!

anyways :) ahhh! i have so much to say! goodness :) the sharing sessions; i'm so sure they sank deep into the hearts of each individual camper and server. the worship and the campfire; crazy fun and beautiful intimate moments with Jesus, beside the ones you love the most :) mission one which brought out the ugliest in the people, but which made Daddy's beauty shine through so strong it became something so undeniable. the supposed mission two which was total exhiliration and fun and madness but which brought each cluster so much closer together, which grew our boys into men, which made the armlock facils realise how cool it is to play in mud hahaha :D

command post duty from 2am to 5am with rachel chua is one of the things i'll never forget :) thank you ong zheng kai for gum, laptop, friday night lights. thank you ahpa for waking me up abit with the mad laughter. thank you kenn for letting us peep abit at the photos! thank you rachel chua for being you :)

:) its beautiful to see people loving each other even with all the ugliness. and its beautiful to see how people so different can come together and talk about just one thing common : Jesus. its beautiful to see people encouraging each other and pulling each other up if they fall. its beautiful to see people finding themselves in Jesus. its beautiful to see people opening up and becoming confortable with each other. its beautiful to see families forming :)

its beautiful, this camp :)

and i know this has been a long post but but but! this is still not all man. everything that's in my heart about the camp is just too too much and i really don't have the ability to express it all in words :)

but one thing i do know, is that this camp has been beautiful. right down to the smallest details and the (extremely) last minute changes. it has seen ugliness, but it has brought out beauty.

and, talking about letting go :)
i know You'll never let go of me, not even my dreams :) so thank You.