i'm tired.
i'm really tired God. i really don't know how much further i can stretch, and i really can't tell how much longer i can hold out. i know it's not about me, i know You'll be there when i fall but sometimes it just gets hard.
it's not helping that i've to take the dumb tablets like three to four times a day. it doesn't help that i constantly wake up at 5am with sinus. it doesn't help when you have irritating classmates who think everything's just a big joke. it's not that fun to have 16hr days three days in a row God.
i'm sorry i know i'm being really mean and pessimistic but i'm just tired.

enough is enough, right?

so here goes.

go on and cry. let it out if you need to. I'm still here. have always been. yes, it's Me holding you now, looking silly holding that bucket under your chin to catch your falling tears.

there now, My dear :) don't you feel better already?

because when noone else knows how you feel, My love for you will prove so real. and when noone else cares where you've been, I'll run to you with outstretched hands, and I'll hold you in my arms, always.

now sleep, Sweetie, because tomorrow is in My hands :) remember, your whole world is!

o, and of course, I love you sweets :))