it's not fair Lord. why is this happening, why does it have to be like this, when will my miracle come, when will it be my turn, why him, why her, why not me, why must it be this way, how come it didn't turn out the way i thought it would, why this why that why why why...
"sshhh.." He whispers.
:) "life doesn't have to be fair before you can enjoy it."
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:47 AM
:) it's happening again you know. remember how you were with the rest of us back then, getting all upset because we never could understand his actions and how it seemed that they were getting more important to him than us?
well, now it's you.
okay, it's not that i'm blaming you because maybe this is just how it is. maybe this is just part and parcel of life and what we will all have to go through.
hahah, though if you look at it a lil' differently, don't you think it's kinda scary? how it sorta.. 'steals' you away? you know how we're feeling now, i know you do because you were there previously.
honestly, i miss you.
and yes, like what you boldly admitted to me a few months ago (maybe even longer) (which i truly appreciate your doing so by the way), i am jealous.
yeah, maybe we're still quite alike anyways. but it's like, i really truly honestly feel like i'm being replaced in your life.
gege, i really miss you.
and i want to stop guessing with you, because i am tired. you're not the only one with problems in this life. being the main victim doesn't make you the only victim, you know what i mean?
sing with a four stringed guitar, just sing.
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:01 AM
but, i cry too.
don't you get it?
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:09 AM
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away
maybe one day i'll break away from you
and all the love we once knew
if for once you'd stop looking at you, yourself, and your problem
you'd realise you're not the only one suffering.
being the main victim doesn't make you the only victim, you just choose to see it that way :) i'm fine if you don't trust me.
WE WILL DANCE ; 8:59 AM
so, have you watched Pilot of the Currybean?
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA HOGS YOU ARE QUITE FUNNY TOO!
WE WILL DANCE ; 10:31 AM
"when i heard 'hi dear' i was like, woaahhhhhh..."
"like it means so much to you?"
"oh it sure does"
:) maybe one day then.
and i so need to get a tan please. and even more so, a goooood and loooooooong massage. thank You Jesus :)
WE WILL DANCE ; 12:45 PM
you would most probably get pissed off when you read this, but i insist you have to know, and because i'd rather you be pissed off at me for forever rather than have you go deeper and deeper and deeper into this shit until it is too hard for you to even try to get out.
no. i would even sacrifice our friendship to make sure you are safe from jerks such as these. but then again i know my God will not allow that.
you should know that ever since all that started, about two months ago, i sometimes hate to go out with you because you're so distracted you're not even yourself, sometimes it's like you're not even there with me because all you do is stare and stare and try to find that thing.. that person..
can i just... just remind you of something?
"enough is enoug"
you said you understood. i wanted to trust that you did. because i don't want you to get hurt. because, partly myself to blame, i have had a bad feeling about this guy ever since i first saw him, and i really really really regret not telling you. at first i thought i was just being a bitch, or just that i didn't know him personally.
now i know it's not.
i don't want you to get hurt because i know how it is to be hurt emotionally. it's way more complicated to fix than physical hurt. it takes way longer to heal. i know you know that too. so do yourself a favour.
get out now while you still can. hear it from us. you know we care. you know we love you. you know we want to protect you. and yes, we really do.
you know he's not for real. sorry for the harsh reality but it would benefit you to know. you may not think so now but in time to come i hope you will understand why i have to be so brutally honest, why i can't be more.. 'lenient' with this.
because i will NOT be lenient to ANYONE who tries to be funny with you.
sorry if this hurts, and i don't mind if you're angry. because i'd rather piss you off like hell than see you go have your heart torn to pieces, to see you puke your emotions all over the floor and then try to put them back together again.
and i do love you.
WE WILL DANCE ; 9:03 AM