MY HAND IN YOURS ;

Sunday, April 15, 2007 ;

if i'm not wrong, it has been about two weeks since i've gotten the proper eight hours of sleep in a day. the maximum number of hours i've had for a single day for the past two weeks is i think, six?

let's see. today, i'm just done with my productions proposal. and it's now 3.07am! but at least i don't have to get up early tomorrow :) my only appointment is lunch at 3.30pm, which is about 12hours away :)

saturday i couldn't sleep even though i was super super tired. in the end, i slept at around 5am and woke up at like 7.20am. yeah i was going for first service. :) after that i literally spent an entire day in suntec tower four :) doing publicity for our launch and having productions meeting.

friday i stayed over at cherri's. i was so so tired that when i reached her place, i bathed and fell asleep almost immediately on her bed without even waiting for my hair to dry. knocked out for about an hour before waking up and going abit mad over some productions issues until like 5.30am when we finally went to sleep. woke up at 11am and left for productions and campus which also meant i spent the entire day in suntec!

thursday after bible study, i went to grab a bite with some of my caregroup because i didn't eat lunch and dinner. reached home about 12am and went to bathe, after which i went online and started sending out emails and chatting with gary and cherri until 3am. woke up the next morning at 7.30am for a full day of work :)

wednesday after choir practice, went for dinner at the kopitiam because i only managed to grab one spring roll before that. dear dunny swaniee said i looked too tired so he blessed me with cash to cab home. :) reached home a little before 12am, bathed, went online, and started sending out ops stuffs until 2+am or was it 3+am?

tuesday after work, had productions meeting and launch practice, and filming. left office at 8+pm and went to have dinner which i didn't have appetite for. headed to starbucks with cherri, huilin, gibs and gary. discussed about productions until 10.30pm. reached home at about 12am and went online to clear some admin and ops stuff, and to manage the yahoo group hahah. selpt at 2am.

monday is my off day so yah :)

anyway, i said all that not so that you would pity me or feel sorry for me. i mean, yes, of course i'm tired, of course i feel abit worn out and sore.

but the thing is, i do have full office days at work every day. and never once have i felt sleepy while in the office :) the wonders of being in the house of God - literally in my case.

and anyway, all the productions and all is also for Arrow Ministry, also God's ministry :) and this just goes to prove right, that Daddy never never never shortchanges His servers :)

i have survived full 12+hour-days feeling totally energised and happy with a total of two hours sleep the previous night. no i don't do drugs and no caffiene has almost no effect on me.

what else but God? :) He sustains me. the Joy of the Lord is my Strength.

alrighty, i'm not saying that it's wonderful to lead a lifestyle like mine lah. also bad on my part that i keep procrastinating sometimes. but i really and sincerely enjoy all that i do :) honestly i love every bit of it.

i love being stretched while having to rush out productions to meet the deadlines and the standards and the expectations :) not in a saddistic way lah of course! i love finishing up my work in the office really fast and asking for more things to do :)

i love having June work to do when it's still only April, because i've finished April's and May's work :) i love pushing myself to see how far i can stretch those boundaries, to find out that i can do so much more than i thought :)

i love having Daddy King patiently sitting beside each and every single moment, and admiring and smiling at what i do :)

although many times i find myself irritating because of that perfectionist thing in me, which won't allow me to rest/eat/sleep until i'm totally satisfied with the standard of my work. it has to be up to my own standards of perfection, no matter how late it is, no matter how tired i am. i can even forget that i'm hungry :)

and my boss always scolds me for forgetting to go for lunch, or for coming back from lunch too early :) then in the remaining half an hour, she won't allow me to do any work and will keep insisting that i relax and just surf the net. favour or favour? :) :)

my colleagues are constantly asking me if i need any help or if i want them to help me buy anything :) esp uncle ban hong, oh i am super thankful for him! :)

thank You Jesus, for proving Yourself to be so real in my life. thank You that You take this perfectionist attitude and make it into something good. something that will benefit me and the people around me. help me put this gift to good use.

teach me to look after my body, which is Your temple, where Your Holy Spirit dwells. teach me to rest in You as i do my work, rush out proposals and designs and ideas. thank You that my inspiration is You, thank You that You are my creative wisdom :)

thank You Jesus Darling for giving me the boldness to ask when i'm not sure, to probe until i get an answer that i'm satisfied with, for giving me the courage to be real with others. Jesus, teach me to be accountable and responsible :)

Daddy King, make me a true Proverbs31 :)

alltheloveintheworld :) :) :)

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