Monday, February 19, 2007 ;

woman. i was pissed today because i just felt you could have been more understanding. he was already not very happy to begin with already. they have been on a cold war since saturday night and the last we all want is for things to get worse. i understand that you want to get to grandma's because so do i but that doesn't mean we disrespect all the other relatives. daikuma loves us, uncle paul loves us, so do jem and janice. just because your favourite cousin wasn't there doesn't mean there's absolutely no reason to stay any longer. how long did daikuma spend, just cooking for us. the least we can do is sit there and enjoy a good meal, not just rush through picking a few nibbles here and there and leaving just like that. like i said, he's already not in the best of moods. and if you want him to send us anywhere, the very least is to let him take his time, spend time with his sister for goodness sake. not that i take it for granted, but we really do visit grandma alot more than we ever get to see daikuma and family. stop rushing him through just a small lunch with his own sister. trust me, if it were you being rushed you'd be pissed too. i mean, yeah. fine. my fault. i woke up later than planned. but even if we'd gotten there earlier the food wouldn't have been ready yet. we want him to send us here, send us there, at least let him have abit of time to breathe, talk to them, let him enjoy. that's really the least we can do. i'm not saying he's right in this dumb quarrel, i'm not saying he has been right all these years. but still, he's our father and at least deserves some god damned respect. i'm not saying i know more than you or that i have any right to be telling you off, but this is just plainly what i feel. sorry for the language.

and you my dear friend. thanks. but if you're so concerned about every little what not, then take it back. i'll starve if i have to but i'll get my own. you can be rude to me, you can correct me, you can tell me you hate it when i show attitude, you can tell me everything that's wrong with me; my spelling, my attitude, my guitar playing, my mannerisms. but don't go being all uptight about a brother who isn't even yours. in the first place, you never said nobody in the world except me could touch your guitar. second, don't you ever ever think that because he bugs me to do everything for him doesn't mean he doens't respect me and what's mine. don't you ever. so yeah, you had life tough and you're going through a not so smooth patch right now, and fine you can take it out on me, but don't you fugging ever be rude about my brother, because yes, i may be rude to you, but i'm not rude about your family. so yes, i didn't warn you about being rude about my family, so i'll forget about this though it will take time. but from now on you've been warned and if you are ever rude about anyone of them ever again, then it's war. you really don't want to see me being the biggest bitch in your life ever. my brother loves me and he looks after things that are mine as well. if you can't accept that then take your shit ass whatever belongings back cos then i don't want them either. yeah, sorry for the language too.

WE WILL DANCE ; 5:08 PM