MY HAND IN YOURS ;

Saturday, February 17, 2007 ;

sometimes i do wonder. you have been playing your guitar for as long as we all can remember, i swear to God sometimes you have so much more practice than the rest. so i pose to you ONE question. just one.

which is, why can't you, up till now, not even play one song properly. why?

to think people like, never mind i don't want to mention the name, would even say things like WOW you have improved SO much, but does she even know? because she's not a musician aor a psalmist herself.

yes, i sound stuck up. i sound like i think i know every damn thing in the world. but so what? for the sake of those lovely sheep i've got to get it out of my system.

how when you play, we can never even just flow. because you can't even play anything? and that is exactly why, as a server in a platform ministry, we freakin' need to at least have some foundation skill, some basics at the very least, to carry you through the simplest of songs.

i mean, what is so difficult about playing just four chords? yeah, you may know alot about music but if you can't flow then there just isn't any use at all, is there?

because how then shall we expect the people to jump into the flow with us to worship when i cannot even flow with you? when you cannot even flow with me? is it that hard to listen to me when i ask you to play just four simple chords?

pray tell me, what is so difficult about playing D A Bm G? i don't get it, really i don't so please explain to me if you would be so kind.

really, don't get all ching-chong emo with me. showing me attitude doesn't move me. it gets me pissed off, is all. sitting there like some emotional wreck, not talking, not even wanting to listen to anything anyone has to say to you.

anyone can see that you are by far not ready to step into the platform ministry.

i do hope, however, that your head is not quite so empty as to think that it's not a platform ministry, playing guitar for caregroup worship, just because you aren't literally stepping onto a platform.

yeah, so you have plenty of revelations, but SO WHAT.

if you can't apply it to your life, to your playing.. could i be so crude as to say, JUST GIVE UP WANTING TO PLAY ALREADY.

could i be so crude, and rude, as to say, forget about it. because with whatever encouragment i have ever given you, i might very well have been lying.

just stop trying.

STOP.

WE WILL DANCE ; 3:04 AM