MY HAND IN YOURS ;

Sunday, January 07, 2007 ;

HM6ix part eight.

in a flash, it was already our third and last day at camp. rach and evan and i were adamant to stay awake instead of 'wasting time' (so to speak) sleeping.

ahh by the way, most of the photos are from the third night. =) streetwear night where i've got to say that i was really proud of my poly cluster, being so excellent and all. ((:

anyways, at about 7am (by then it was already the 4th morning cos we really didn't sleep the whole night) a small group of us went over to charle's room.

at first we were just going crazy, due to the highness caused by serious lack of sleep. consequently after that, i knocked out on the floor while rach, evan, zhengheng and yongjeee went to the balcony to just sing.

and so i was left sleeping on the floor while they were having their own praise and worship in the balcony.

at breakfast, they were sharing about how powerful it was, the little session that they had, no guitar no music, just voices, just a pure expression of each individual heartsong.

they told me how they'd literally felt dew forming on their arms, but when they looked and touched their arms, it was totally dry, and they all felt it together so it couldn't be imagination.

they told me how the anointing was so so so strong on them at that moment that yongjeee actually like, got slained. and very nearly did evan and rach as well. (by that time zhengheng had gone back to his room)

=) i tried to be happy for them.

hahah to be honest, I WAS SO UPSET. i mean, you guys just go outside and have some praise and worship, and just leave me sleeping, on the floor? oh my god!

(: yes, to be really honest, i was jealous, i was disappointed in them, i was angry, i was irritated, i was pissed off! (: i mean, really! i'm not gonna hide anything now. that was really how i felt!

managed not to think about it for a couple of days i guess, but soon after when i was on the phone with rach, we were just sharing about camp in general.

nothing very specific, mostly just jokes lah. hahahah! (: laughing and laughing like two mad people. though after that we did get down to sharing abit.

it was so good. ((: talking about Tim's sharing in 840, talking about the praise and worship sessions, the messages, the personal revelations..

suddenly, i felt it. this icy cold on your skin, so tingly and so cold, so wet and yet at the same time so calming and so peaceful.

and i just knew, deep down i just really had this knowing. (: this is the dew of heaven, and this was what my brothers and sisters felt in the balcony that morning.

i managed to whisper it to rach before i broke out in sobs, she likewise. (: and seriously, at that moment we both learnt something anew.

Jesus loves you way too much to ever shortchange you.
and His timing is always perfect.

WE WILL DANCE ; 7:13 AM