MY HAND IN YOURS ;

Thursday, December 28, 2006 ;

HM6ix part four.

day two of the camp was games day for us. when i whispered to Samm my Hamm during lunch that i really didn't feel like going for games, i meant it.

somehow i seriously wasn't looking forward to running around and getting dirty and sticky and smelly. although as a soccer player i usually like that. hahah i don't know..

i was just thinking, why couldn't we just skip the games and have a longer praise and worship? why couldn't they just cancel the games and let the camp groups have more snuggle time? why couldn't they just cancel the games and give us free time so that i could just spend time with my roomies?

after changing for games and reporting at the ballroom, i received more news that drowned my already almost-non-existent enthusiasm.

we weren't gonna be playing the games as the Levites. i wasn't gonna be with my camp group. because they'd split the Levites up, and i was now in GAP.

i was so upset! besides the one and only sharing that we had as a real group on the first night with Coach Han, the Levites had never really gotten to spend any quality time with each other at all.

so i just thought to myself, what's the use of having a camp group if you don't even get to do anything in camp with them?

only happy thing was, Rach was in GAP too. the not-so-happy thing was that (and this post is really a brutally honest entry) i didn't know most of the GAP people very well and i was.. kinda tired of always having to be 'The Hyper Person' who initiates conversations all the time.

cos sometimes, you just want to be talked to and not be the one to talk. hahaha or is it just me? =) i don't know. hahah but never mind. ((:

anyways as i was saying, i was being really bitter and complacent.

but can i say, when the games started, when i submitted to my leaders and just went ahead with the games instead of complaining and complaining, everything just turned around for me.

it was amazing, the Favour that saw me through. (: GAP made my day really awesome, they made the games really fun for me.

i experienced SO much favour until Coach Han personally asked me to think up of new cheers for GAP, and to teach the entire GAP, and to lead them in the cheers as well.

how awesome is that, and how totally undeserving is it for someone who never even wanted to participate in the games in the first place. and i, who knew all the hard work that they Games Comm went through. =)

but it made me realise that, God can come through for you in any situation. and yes, He truly makes all things beautiful in His time. =) just for me, He did it just for me.

it made me realise once again how undeserving i am, yet the willingness of the Father to bless me against all odds. i saw once again that He is more willing to see me enjoy than i am to enjoy myself.

time and time again He has proved faithful and willing. (: like what i talked about with Yongjeee on msn.

'the things He would do just to make me smile'

WE WILL DANCE ; 5:07 AM