MY HAND IN YOURS ;

Sunday, September 10, 2006 ;

=) ngee ann OH ngee annnnnnn.

to my dearest most darling caregroup, the caregroup that is so close to my heart, the caregroup that Jesus loves THE MOST, the caregroup marked by the undeserved favour of Daddy, the caregroup that i call MY FAMILY.

((: words can never never express my full love and gratitude towards all of you.

yes the present was MIND-BLOWING. =)

but you know, it's really not the presents, but the PRESENCE that counts. ((: you guys are awesome you know that. =)

i was talking to steve before dinner, and he asked me to move over and just look at all of you, and he asked me what i saw.

"greatness"

and i meant that. =) from the bottom of my 'Jesus-is-at-home' heart, i meant that.

and looking at all of you, talking to each other, playing with each other, having fun and getting to know more of each other, loving each other, growing with each other.

i couldn't help but tear.
(okay so actually i didn't tear.. i cried. hahahah)

jokes and laughter aside, my greatest birthday gift has been to be so privileged, to be able to watch all of you grow and experience your breakthroughs and accelerations, and most of all to be there, growing with you.

=) i can never thank all of you enough, and no, once again, it's not just the present (though the present is like wwwoooooooohhhhoooooooooooooooo~)

frankly, just the dinner would have left me the HAPPIEST and MOST JOYFUL birthday princess in the whole wide world, plus the fact that the Sweetest Lover of all was holding my hand THROUGH OUT.

=) but ngee ann family i want each and every one of you to know. I LOVE ALL OF YOU. and NO, NOT with my own love. and i don't EVER want to love you all with amanda bok's love.

i don't want to short change any of you. loving you with my own love would be such an insult to your royalty.

i only ever want to love you all with my Daddy's sweetest love. =) the Love that will NEVER run dry, the Love that is ALWAYS patient and always kind and never jealous, always there to care and heal.

it has been one of the most amazing journeys ever, that i've taken since i've stepped into the doors of New Creation Church.

=) entering Ngee Ann caregroup makes me not even regret taking Business Studies and failing and dropping out after year1.

(: IF that was the only way to meet you guys, i seriously would go through all that 'trauma' all over again.

=) for you guys, i would take the pan pac lift a thousand times, i would walk into the 6th floor that was utterly cramped full of balloons, i would try my best not to embarass by not screaming too loudly when i see a xiao qiang.

and Jesus will be there for me too. =)

thank you, each and every one of you, for being there, for being around, for the simple things like even just bothering to laugh at the (sometimes awesomely dumb) things that i say.

for evan, nic, ming, zhengheng, steve.
THANK YOU for going with me to the hospital that time when Gramps was admitted. i can never tell you enough how grateful i was for your PRESENCE. =) and yes, Jesus was there with us. love.

for nic, evan, rach, ming.
=) it's not that i love you all more than the rest, BUT you guys find special favour with me. (: guys, your futures are just so so so so bright. the road ahead may get rough, but Jesus will be there for you. know that you are IN His nail-pierced hands, and yes rach, when things get stormy on the outside, He simply closes His finger over each of you and protects you from all harm and danger.
how much the four of you have really impacted my life and made a difference to me, only Daddy truly knows, and He will reward each of you when we go Home, for you have found Favour with Daddy because you have blessed His baby darling princess oh so much. =) continue being yourselves, making an impact in the little things, living your high lives that can and will only get higher and brighter and better.
i pray and proclaim double portions of favour into each of your lives. i thank Daddy that He pours His wisdom and love so so much upon your lives. individuals called for nothing but greatness. NOONE and NOTHING can take that from you. ever.
love you all. really really really.

for nic.
hahahah for all the laughs you've brought into my life. =) thank you. bro you've blessed me in ways you may never know. how blessed i have been to see you grow, to see you start this journey of serving. =) thank you for daring to be open with me. there is MORE TO COME!

for evan.
belonging E. oh my loves. =) psalmist princess. yes that's what you are you know. sweetest himechan, you have made such a difference in my life. and Jesus and i, we love you for who you are. =) thank you for sharing my dreams. ;) we shall ride on wings of Love, and see His mighty wonders come to pass in our lives and the lives of the royalty around us.

for rach.
belonging R. sweetie pie i am so glad you're in my life. =) how different life would be without you! i can't imagine, and i don't think i even want to. princess, thank you for always being there for me. as silly as i am, thank You, Holy Spirit in Rachel, for being there, for caring for loving for hugs. i love you.

for ming.
hahahhaha what time is it now ming ming? =D
hey bro =) woww i have seen you grow at SUCH an acceerated rate these few months, and i am amazed. bro, i'm really really proud of the Jesus in you. (: all the joy you've brought to my life is recorded by Daddy and He sits at the edge of His throne waiting eagerly to POUR His blessings down on you, dear ming. =) you have blessed the one in whom He is well pleased, and thus you have found favour with Him. (: remember ziming. your's is a life CALLED TO GREATNESS. favour surrounds ziming like a shield. in the coming days, Daddy increases your sphere of influence. =) love you.

for jolene kang.
my now-belonger-once-belonging! =) sweetie, know it or not, you've been such an awesome figure in my life. (figure? hahahah i didn't know what other word to use, sorry) you've impacted me more than you know. and i love you for who you are, yes, Jesus and i.

for weelock.
hey sister!! =) sis, trust the Jesus in me. (: you're here for a purpose, one that is not defined by man but by God, the One who created you and truly knows your every heart's cry and desire. let no man define who you should be, but live to be wee lock, the wee lock that was created to live the high life, the wee lock called to reign in life and be so much more than a conqueror, the wee lock who has no shame because he has been crucified with Christ. =) sis i love you and thank you for being you, for being in my life. (:

for alicia fun.
sweetest, you truly live up to your name. =) i lovelovelove you and oh how i miss you so! when IMF (internationally ma fan) (oh shit okay DONT sue me ok. joke only. JOKE!) is done, and when my 3mth temp job is done.. actually wait. why should we have to wait so long just to spend time? =) it's our heart's desire and Daddy will MAKE THE TIME FOR US. because nothing is impossible for the One who loves me the most. =)
sweetie, thank you so so so much. i know i've been like one of the worst friends ever. constantly being bitchy and all that. but really, thanks for sticking by me always. =) i am so grateful to the Jesus in you for never giving up and never letting go. =') i love you leh dear. i love you.

for amy.
mummyyyyyyyyy! heeheeee. thank you. thank you for the sweetest sms-es, though short, i know you mean them. thank you for being there, for mothering me, for being so gentle in your ways of correction. =) i thank Daddy for giving you the supernatural wisdom and patience to be able to handle a sheep like me. amy mummy, mummy amy. (: you have made a difference in my life, you have left super pretty footprints in my heart. (: love.

for derrick johnston.
hey thanks man. hahahaa i realised i 'teo-jack' by you lah! hahahah "so bok, what would you really want for your birthday?" the question you asked me like, if i remember correctly, quite a long time ago. i'm not sure if that was part of the cg's plan, but thank you. =) thank you for being a part of us, for wanting to be a part of us. (: i want you to know that ngee ann Family wouldn't have been the same without you. thanks man. you're an awesome brother to have. (HORRNNNNNYYYYYYYYY) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

for derrick BIKE and roy!
brad pitt! rick!! omg. =) you know, i just love you brothers so much. as much as we don't really talk about alot of 'serious' issues, you guys have no doubt made a difference. =) rickk, thanks for always being so willing to pick me up with you bike. you're really a blessing, with you rides, your funny stories and your hair and everything. =) roy!! my gosh you so handsome. ahahahha ok no that's not all ok. (: your open-ness, your willingness to recieve and be taught. (: Daddy sees, and Daddy will honour. thanks guys, for being in my life. enjoy your time with NYP cg now. =) let them bless you, and HEY! BLESS THEM TOO, just by being youselves. =) cos you two are blessings in themselves. (((:

for guan.
sweetie pie. your sometimes-silent presence has ALWAYS made a difference. =) i want you to know that k? i love you.

for denise.
hey babe. =) thanks so much for everything. you are truly a blessing to me. so much of Daddy in you that i see. =) your daring to be who you really are has made much impact to me. heehee, it's been a looong time since the Teenzeal God's Chosen days. =) and i'm thankful that it wasn't someone else, but YOU, who has always been there. love.

for Creature.
hey. though you seldom join us, i know you want to and that's what counts. =) ngee ann Family wants you around as well. we really do. thanks for being a creature to me! for being so patient, for the laughs, for everything. =) i've enjoyed having you in my life, Creature! =) hahaha and Daddy and i will continue enjoying. love you bro.

okay i know right now there are some stones waiting to fly at me cos i just missed mentioning 43856489569823975 names.

but EH! my blog lah. hahahahahah! NO. KIDDING OK! =) even if i don't mention your name here, your name is GRAVEN in His heart.

imagine Daddy, holding a hammer and chisel, looking down with tear-filled eyes and a tear stained face at His most beloved on the cross, then driving the hammer and chisel into His heart to carve YOUR NAME on it.

how it hurt the Father, but oh what Joy it brought to Jesus when He saw you crouching at the foot of the cross. =)

and that was what kept Him up anyways. =) you. your life, your joy, your peace, your prosperity, your well-being.

He saw you at the foot of the cross, and that made Him hang on. =) just for you.

=) and to all the rest who made my day so special. ((((((: i'm sorry this post is so biased. but you must know that my Family is extremely precious to me, extremely close to my heart.

not that you all are less than them ok. but if you so shallow to think that way then................... HAHAH aiyah please.

Jesus loves you whether or not your name is mentioned here LAH. =) don't seek approval from me. it's worthless one. cos i'm worthless. and my only worth is Jesus. =)

okay. this is such a wordy post! hahahah if you've read all the way to here, thank you. =) thank you for making a difference. (:

Jesus loves you all ok. i will post my 10th September 2006 photos soon. =) thank you everyone, for being around.

thank You my Sweetest Love. =)
You know how grateful i am, how thankful i am.

HEY! THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING!

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