MY HAND IN YOURS ;

Sunday, August 27, 2006 ;

maybe i shouldn't have bothered, cos now that i read it it really affected me although i know i shouldn't let some stuff affect me but it does.

maybe.... we just wanted to have fun and enjoy each other?

sometimes i think i think too much. okay let me correct myself. sometimes i know i think too much. and many times i also think i know too much.

it's kinda hard to express alot of things, kinda hard to supress alot of things.

but i have to learn somehow.

and please my dear. you aren't the only one having a hard time.

just because people don't show it doesn't mean they're not really tired, doesn't mean that they're really as happy as they seem.

sometimes i don't know anymore.

anyways, i really don't know. don't know how, dont' know when, don't know why, don't know what.

i just don't know, God.

and that's why i need You. i really do.

i was reading all my august posts in babu's blog, and it suddeny struck me, i want to be that hungry again.

no, maybe i want more. there are so many things to clear up. so many things to settle. so many so many things.

but i'm so tired Daddy.

let me sleep on Your shoulder again? let me rest my head in that perfect spot between Your shoulder and neck, and just let me cry. let me fit my fingers between Yours, let me cling to Your arm, let me rest my cheek against Yours.

all over again. all over again let me feel the tingle down my spine of when we used to run at the beach with the wind in our hair, hand in hand, with the sand between our toes and the sea water on our skin.

surprise me again, or rather, open my eyes to see. those daily surprises where You came from behind and hugged me, where You would come from behind and just take my hand.

it's so hard to live in this world, to live in this world without You, without Your presence, without having You around me constantly. without me being conscious of You.

hold me again. woo me again. =) i love that feeling. heee i promise i won't play hard to get this time. (:

*exhales.

okayy. You made me feel better already, just by sitting here with me and watching me blog. =) it's just You, You know. it's like, no one else could ever make me feel this way.

something so simple, a mere presence, the mere act of sweeping my fringe into place, and You capture my heart again, make me a blushing little silly giggly girl again, make me fall in love again, make me a princess again.

somehow when You're around, i just can't take my eyes off You. =) yes, You've won my heart.

(: thank You, Lovey Poo Poo. You always always know how to make me smile. smile and mean it.

=) thank You for wiping my tiredness away.

sing me to sleep again, tonight.
i miss Your sweetest voice whispering in my ear, how much You love me, how much You've missed me today, how much You loved seeing me smile, how beautiful i am to You, how much You want this moment to last forever, how You never want to let me go, how much it thrills You to make me smile. (:

woww. how could i not love You, You silly irresistable Poo Poo. (: there was never and there will never be a more perfect shoulder for me to lean on. (:

i loviieee You, my Darling. =) i loveee You because i can't help it. (: every single thing You do catches my heart and melts it.

You're sweeter than cotton candy. (:

behold You have come over the hills, upon the mountain, just for me You came. (:

my Loves, aishiteru.
but You still love me more. (:

WE WILL DANCE ; 9:48 AM