i feel like such a bum complaining even after reading shawn's blog about being happy with what you have because someone else probably wants it.. but what has to come out has to come out..
heh. if it makes you feel any better i shall put it in tiny font so that you cant read it. ah hell. here goes.
i know i know.. Daddy's my future right. i've told so many people that, its like i only know it in my head and not my heart anymore, and i so so so need a breakthrough. seriously. i tell people stuff and i dont even believe what i say. what's wrong with me? anyways.. i know i should be glad that i've improved so much, but seriously.. 22 points is not good lah! then shawn's friend said "be happy with what you have, because someone else probably wants what you have." but come one lor! who would want my 22 points? Jesus! i need You here with me now. i need Your love. i need Your presence. i need Your touch. i need Your still small voice to tell me that everything is gonna be okay. i need You! i need breakthroughs Lord! i need You to help me. help me know in my heart that You really love me, and that my future really is in You, that my future is blessed by You. i'm sorry i'm so low on faith right now, but i really need You to show me. i'm stuck, at a loss, and i dont know how i should feel. and now he doesn't even wanna come back. so Daddy i really need You to hold me tight. and never let me go. cos i'm falling. i really am.
there. i guess i'm better now. =) yup. i'm all smiles. still smiling. being crazy. but you'll never know how much i'm bleeding inside.
WE WILL DANCE ; 11:24 AM
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here in Love's embrace
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