Friday, February 04, 2005 ;

i'm better. alot better. =) thanks josh. =) thanks for letting Jesus speak to me through you. i really appreciate it.

God will make a way, when there seems to be no way, right? i gave that advice to someone very precious sometime ago. but i guess we all feel lost when problems come our way.. its natural. =) anyhoos, no condemnation.

but it gets better with people to talk sense into you and help you realise that Jesus actually is there, just that you never noticed because you were too focused on your problem.

and it feels alot better when a friend lets you pour everything out, and lets you cry your heart out even at such ungodly hours.. but its little things like this that make you realise that Jesus does in fact care. and that He was there all along.

so.. i poured my heaat out, cried my eyes out, and felt a whole lot better. =) as in, a whole lot. and yes i know. i will be the impact. i am the light. i will touch, i will influence, i will bless.

but not in and of myself. because of Jesus. He is my favour, my light. He is what holds me together. and yes, there will come a day when i no longer need to just seem happy, but i will be happy. because Jesus is my joy.

"let nothing steal your joy." thanks man, dude. i will always remember that. and everything you told me. you were my impact tonight.

yup, that conversation made such a difference. if it wasnt for you, i'd still be wallowing in self-pity. thank you so much. =)

and of course, thank God. obviously it was You, Jesus.. =) hahahaha.. who woke him up so that he couldnt sleep so that he could talk sense into me. muahahaha! i feel so pampered. -_-

hee. =) yes i'm happy. and if you asked me now, well.. i dont care. i dont care if my brother left, i dont care if his line is suspended, i dont care if nobody cares. because Jesus cares, and He's working something out even now.

yes, it feels good to be carefree again. =) thank you josh. i really really really appreciate it. =) thank You Daddy. =) i know now You were always with me. only i was focusing on the wrong thing.

thank You Jesus, for just.. just being with me. =) You gave me all i asked for and more, as always. =) aaaaaaahhhhhhh my gosh You're annoyingly wonderful. =) *grin* i love You Daddy. =) thank You.

whaha! =) now i'm high. =) wheee!! i am one girl so so so intensely loved by my Jesus. oh the joys of being pampered. =) whheee hee!!


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