Tuesday, January 11, 2005 ;

okay. lets start.

i think, i slept on monday morning, at about 4+ or 5am. and then i woke up at 11am exactly only to go back to sleep again.

so, i woke up on monday night, or should i say, tuesday morning about 12am i think.

so i went to use the computer and all, and was listening to music.. then i went off line. was actually supposed to sleep lah, but then i saw a pile of some funny nut thingy that my mama likes to eat. so i sat there and started peeling them.

wah lao man. i peel from like 4+am until around 7am can! my fingers were like cramped in a funny position. but anyhow.. then the people in my family started to wake up and i was like, ooh.. what time already? hah, crappy man.

then my mom was like so happy.. then i have no idea why, but i didnt feel like sleeping. so we went out lor! walk here walk there, then went to buy all her groceries and whatever.. wah lao io had to carry lah!

hah but oh wells.. then we went to have breakfast, then we walked back home. we walked from 8am to around 10.30am. but it felt good lah. then whe we reached home. i slacked for a bit, before going to sleep.

woke up at around 7pm, because the guy from church called me to ask when i was free to help with the packing thingy. =) so happy! anyways, i'm doing thursday, 3-6pm. (cia! which shift did u take?)

i cant wait to help out man! =) i'm so proud of my church. wah lao. darn generous, can i say. =D i'm so so proud to be a new creationer. heh. and i love my pastor so much. =) i've learnt SO MUCH from him man, ever since i first stepped through the doors of the auditorium.

and there's much more to come! praise Jesus! anyways, it felt good helping my mama today. i finally felt.. what's the word.. useful? hah. correct, because ever since after my 'o's i've just been buming around lah!

tonight i feel like cleaning up the entire house. that would be good! first i'll do the floors, then polish the windows and mirrors! =D err.. the toilets ah.. heh, only mama does that best! =D hee.

=) i feel useful again. =) and that feels good. thank You Jesus! but even when i didnt feel useful right, or should i say even when i was not useful, Daddy still loved me all the same! =D

oh by the way.. the other day i was watching the movie 'casualties of war'. (its really good, by the way..) anyhoos. there was a really meaningful something that someone said. i forgot the exact words lah, but the meaning is something like, "so what if we could die this very moment? that doesnt mean that we have the right to do whatever we want to. maybe it means that we should be extra careful what we do."

and then i thought, what if we were to be extra careful what we do, even if we weren't going to die the very next moment? wouldn't that make life more meaningful? wouldn't that make the world a better place?

oh well.. just a passing thought. =) i'll be off now!


WE WILL DANCE ; 9:41 PM