Monday, August 09, 2004 ;

sometimes i dont know anymore.. whether pple are in a ministry to know pple and be known, or whether they're really in it for God. and its quite sad.. cuz like.. the reason why we even exist is Jesus. He is the air we breathe.

serve Him cos He loves us, not because.. 'just because'. that's a lousy reason to be serving. in fact, if you really think that way, then i feel that you shudnt be serving at all.

pple shud get their priorities staight. i mean.. that's just how i personally feel lah.. its no point doing something 'for' God when the focus isnt even on Him. then it'll just be empty works. it wouldn't be as powerful or fruitful as you'd haf wanted it to be.

maybe i'm just too sensitive.. but that's just what i've been feeling lately. i'm not saying i'm right.. but somehow i just haf this feeling that pple are starting to lose their focus on God.. like, i think their just too caught up in other stuff.

like for me, i've learnt never to belittle myself you know. whatever it is, God has a plan for my life, a purpose for me. one that only i can fulfill. its my calling. noone can walk it out but me. if He has called me to do something, then i'll do it. and not out of self pride or other foolish reasons. but plainly because i know that He loves me. He gave me that special calling because He loves me and knows that i will enjoy doing what He has called me to do.

it wudnt matter what pple think or say, whether against me or for me. nothing matters except God. He is the reason i live, the reason i sing. He is my reason.

i am more precious to Him than heaven. He left there to be in my heart. he feeds the birds and clothes the lilies. how much more me, Hos precious beloved daughter.. i'm always reminded that whatever i do, i should always look to Jesus. He is the alpha and the omega. the author and finisher of my life. its never over until He says it is.

even if i dont get what i want when i want it, it wouldnt matter. even if the whole world goes against me it wouldnt matter. cos i still have Him, and that's all that matters in the end. and anyway challenges only mean that its gonna get better. Daddy will restore a thousand times more! plus the fact that my now is so beautiful.. made beautiful by God Himself. :) so no matter what happens, i dont really care. i'm just gonna enjoy, cos He's given me the right to do so.

rejoice pple. your God is for you. noone can be against you!

~BOK~



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